(1)Get In It Fuckin Out Of It cx✌️
Get back on it, she hears knocking on the door, her dad comes in and starts beating her to death till she's beaten and bruised, she reaches for her gun and attempts to shoot at him, she starts stabbing him with a knife, her moms in surgery, , she comes home laying on her bed, I have to take care of her, Cuz my brother Preston is just too small. So dad has me all to himself. So he can torture and abuse me until I suffocate.
Yeah ok bitch
It's 3:00 am and I'm still living in Mission Veijo , it's time to crawl out my window, that's what I do every night, I crawl out and jump, gone for 1 week. I was out gettin arrested, selling dope, hanging at the trap house, doin insane shit, I joined my own gang, but shit where Bad Homie at? Blake sells my my usual dope, then he rapes me, and he gives me my drugs....
, this is a lot later, I take my normal medication and I just got out of my physcotic mental episode, got home from ETS hospital again. My dads been dead for awhile, I haven't met Blake in a couple weeks, but I went to a party and got raped by James, we played "7 seconds in Heaven" and he raped me till I bled , I was still out of the streets in the ghetto part of town, where I attempted to kill and people attempted to kill me, they always beat me and tried to inject me with weird shit, they tried to take my clothes off, so I stabbed them.
My hallucinations posess me, mainly Johnny, I was on the urge of gettin killed, I got shot at like 10x a day, we were in our own little gang, me , Bad Homie, Blake, and 12 other Mexican && black guys, w
We went out doing crazy insane shit, excotic shit, we were always in trouble, goin insane.
But that was normal...
I'm sitting alone in my room, then again I only weigh 90 pounds, I still haven't drank my Coronas yet, I was all ready to go to school the next day, even if I kept getting in reatraints and going to the T.O (time out room/seclusion room) this bitch was pissin me off , acting all hard shit on the streets but then at school act like I'm there bitch.
I go home && have another episode (when your mentally ill you go out of reality)
I have the same hallucinations haunting me, && the same flashbacks.
The same nightmares,
So I pull allnighters 3 days a week,
I still haven't taken my Aderal , Haldol or my Xprexa. I stole my moms painkillers and her antianxious medication from her closet, I take them to get high. Then I go outside being posessed by Johnny, the usual, inna cop chase, they finna kill me, the usual...🙌😂😂😂💯
Officer Martinez arrests me like usual, to Juvenile Hall I go, but then I end up in the freeway, jumping cars or gettin faded, I got turnt up && then I get raped or kidnapped or injected with more drugs. Or end up in a hospital again, or going physco on the cops , where I end up getting tazed or beat down, or a gun pointed to my head by a stranger or being abused or raped by strangers, or me doing that to other people.... It's 4:30 a few weeks later in the afternoon I run to my mom , she's passed out on the couch or heavily medicated or gambling at the casino , she's out of it, so I gotta take care of myself. Surprise ...😙👏
Listen to me, I'm taking them all from you
I have no destination a Lil girl tortured and abused
She walks into the bathroom with her wrists bloody red, && pills in her pocket
My sweet little boo , she was like always
To screaming loud to hear a song
No more bird singing lullabies Cuz she's delirious
How about you run, runs up the stairs
Nightmares but cannot wake up
I hate sleep, I'm distached and disturbed in the brain
All the way in here I put on my clothes but without notice I'm still in a state of mind
Crying to sensitive , go to sleep,
Are you are you coming down to me
Slow it down, then we will all be free
Binging in the night, turnt up in the day
Get out get out, goodnight sweetie pie
I weigh 119 lb. && I'm going down the stairs
Hide my cuts wear long sleeves in the summer
I cannot I cannot breathe, I'm suffocating
I'm hungry what's for snack, which ones this one, I like pasta too
Blowing on trees about ready to jump
Fall in the road being hit by a car
Everyday is a mystery
I'm watching tv it's late at night
I'm hungry I need a midnight snack
Normal nightmares like a horror movie
Usually I get my Starbucks 2 times a week, it usually costs $5.00
My mom gets her iced tea sweetened
I either get my 12 pump mocha hot chocolate kids temperature, the Grande size
Or I get my double chocolate chip frappechino with hazelnut, whip cream && mocha drizzle, or my brownie frappechino.
My coffee cake, pumpkin bread, butter croissant, blueberry nut bread, fudge brownie warmed up , or a cake pop.
Anything off the Starbucks menu or there secret menu
We used to go to Disneyland Cuz we have annual passes
Now I watch my calories, my weight and eat 2 or 3 meals a day, 2 snacks, and a walk.
Watchin Perry Mason with my mom , high off my Ambien and Clonadine sleeping pills
Having mental breakdown episodes in public where I go crazy and end up getting 911 called on me
Use My Fitness Pall to track my calories Cuz now I'm 161 pounds && wanna lose 30 pounds, I need 1,560 calories a day
Eggo Pancakes , cup a noodle soup (1 or 2 cups) ,Dreyers chocolate fudge brownie icecream, and other shit.
Homie I'm crazy but this is my good life, I'm not safe or stable so I have to sleep with my mom
I have Dr Lee (DR WEEE) on Wedesday, we go out to CVS, Freah & Easy, Walmart, Stater Bros, Vonz, Starbucks, Bank, post box, Drs office (Dr Bennerji/Dr Durant/Dr Dysylva/Dr Cochran)
We get gas at Costco, Erica Jimenez dropped me
We go to the 99 cent store, target, Del Taco, Taco Bell, Supercuts, Fantastic SAMs , Tyler mall, Dos Lagos shopping center , 22 Edwards Cinema crossings in corona (movie theatre), MACYS, McDonald's , we do hamburgers and hot dogs on the grill
Friday nights we have papa Johns pizza night with a movie or DVDS
Preston plays on his computer, plays video games , Roblox, WiiU
We do chores: swiffer, sweep, laundry, trash, dishes, bathroom, wipe the couches down, clean room or around the house, help cook, take showers every other day, help mom run errands, go to her appointments, every Tuesday we take the big Green Black and Grey trash cans out and the garbage truck picks it up, and we go to CBU recreation center to see Romana/Daisy, and I listen to music on my iPod and take naps
I watch the Big Bang Theory && play with my puppies Roxy and Rasal
We go to bed at 10:30 pm and wake up at 10:00 am.
I have my episodes and say "I don't feel Good" so my mom watches me cuz I'm not stable
Not trying to go back to Aurora Cuz they change my meds, court and Susie Copple trying to get me into UCI for 3 months
We have court on July 30th, we'll know the results
I act like an idiot and hyper as fuck
Me and my mommy or mamabear never argue I ask her "am I being nice to you" , we never fight and we have WRAP team meetings / 1:1 session with Karly (me) and Ashley (mom), every Monday with Amenza, Karly, and Ashley. I have therapy with Nieli on 4:30 pm on Tueadays.
My mom snacks with corn nuts /Pringles/potato chips and dip, Innov Asian Cuisene (Chinese food), beef and broccoli and chicken fried rice, hashbrowns, bacon, eggs, pot roast, Stouffers Spagetti.
Preston eats Orange tic tacs, pink sugar cookies, hot dogs, chicken tenders, whip cream, orange starburst, and yeh
And that's my daily life (MINUS THE BAD STUFF)
Screw you homes Cuz I'm on Facebook/YouTube/Wattpad/iTunes/my PC/my iPod touch apps.
Yup that's it 🙌🙌🙌🙌❤️👏
When you walk around and all you see is an empty shadow,
Open yo mouth here comes the needle
Won't hurt a bit just gettin my blood drawn
Homie I just got beat and stabbed again so I went insane
Singing my songs pacing around n got my iPod on (all types of music)
Fuck yeah fuck yeah out of the mental hospital,
Lying in my blood I just slit my throat
Threw up in the bathroom cuz he just beat me, I ate my food and threw it up
I walk out the door and violently attack and torture him, I go to the strip club , still on these streets
Have no one but my mom, cuz I have nobody else, everyone else left/hurt me/ betrayed me or never even cared in the first place Cuz everyone hurts me and leaves me cuz I'm crazy, I've never had love besides my mommy, I don't let people hurt me I'm used to that and them leaving, or Cuz they saw my insane side
Or because I got down and agressive with them Cuz they do some shit
I have Noone Cuz everyone left me.
My mom and brother and puppies are all I got
Everyone else is Against me, bitch , fuck you
Everyone leaves or hurts me anyways it's the same old shit but everyday so I do it 10x worse to them but with my insanity. Imma street hussler && you try me bitch I don't play them kiddie games, I get real and I get down, I go hard and go fucking 100 , now you see it's all me, one of the most insane, yo ass ain't got shit.....
Then why the fuck didn't you pick me up
Mom, where is he? *on the phone*
He's in the car *still on phone*
Aye where u been? I've been waitin for you boo..
No Blake, we were supposed to go get some weed , where they at
Not if you don't let me fuck you first
Friends with benefits lmfao 😂😂😂😂😂
Mom where is he?
Is he at home?
Yeah, but he wrote me a letter
What did it say?
It's says that you need to suck his dick and then he posted a pic on it with his dick and his brothers dick.
This Ambien makes me feel unstable, not in reality, brain altered, cuz it's 12:49 am and my body has weird reactions and side effects, I feel delirious manic delusional, I feel like I'm on my pill but drunk and brain flips over, I feel strange, this time it's 10:x worse, I feel weird, I took her pill and now it's kicking in it doesn't weird things to you, sleeping pill effect (look up online) but now making me really sleepy and altered, unstable I need to go to bedddd ....👏💞 it's JULY 2, 2015 BAZINGA-------- what am I doing Idk inna a weird state of mind, lol I'm drunk high.
Now go to sleep now it's the big second 2 alter around 222 c,: Tabbit/Tobit wait rabbit 👏👌🌸battle it revise it , I want a big (((O))) around my ship train. Money? I got it 💵💵💵💴💶💷💳💸🔪slice yo head up chop it off DONE !!!!!!
I'm high out of it right now, I'm drunk, what's going on something strange, really weird things, does that to people, feel like I'm on my Ambien lol don't understand things weird words and convo make no sense , I don't understand what's going on or what people say me, I'm delusional and drunk so as my say goodbye night I love THIs, nonrealalistic stuf, I see 2 totum polls, pink cookie roo jar, seeing things like abnormal , brains messed up my brain shut off and is now on recharge... YES tYES YES I fell I rush like I'm in something, ultimate Mankiller majjjik
In a story , what's going on, I'm in an adnormal state of mind, feel very weird, side effects like I'm on Topamax but I took Ambien like my main sleeping pill takes 15 minutes to kick in and then if u don't sleep it wears off, my Clonadine has the same feeling but it works faster and wears off If you don't go straight to sleep. But Ambien works 10x better, not for kids tho.
Gggggggg - gggggggg - goodnight✌️👏🔪💸 7/2/2015 the end xoxo
Molly, where'd you go? She just walked into the door with the groceries, we've been living in Belcanto for awhile . Time is standing still , dive down deeper still. Your all I need to breathe .
I went out to get some more homemade pizza so we can make it. I brought out my Skyy Vodka and some electronic cigarettes.
Awww fuckin shit we ran out of bud.
It's all good I got a connection.
What time is Bad Homie coming over? We were gonna go out partying and searching for some more so we can do the usual murdering, we always fail.
I think you should get the Prozac, I need some , Jayme came in and rape and beat me, then I stabbed him, it was a commitmit. I'm used to strange guys & girls raping and beating me, but I do it 100% worse.
Molly wanna watch Pitch Perfect again? We smoked joints as we chilled out on the couch. I got a call from Blake saying he wanted to make my pussy bleed for 10 pounds of dope, and of course I agreed.
I went to sleep after drinking a whole bottle of vodka and 3 cans of beer, and took 7 Aderal pills.
Molly I need you to get me my gun.
Why?
So you can remember me for centuries...
We shooted outside at a black Toyota. The bullet went thru the glass window, but missed the black dude sitting in it.
I sang to myself the usual song I sang when I was self medicating and self harming, the song I beat myself/others too, and the song Bad Homie raped me too. "My Boo".... And I fell asleep.
You'll remember me for centuries, one big mistake is all it will take....
Came back Haunted 🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪IMMA go out killing tonight....
Probably go to the strip club.
I can't help myself, I can't believe it, your all I needed, they put something inside of me, and now it's all black, I don't believe it you have to see it, I said goodbye I had to try, now I'm alive....
Molly good morning. 💕💋😘💊👏
You know why she cuts herself? Cuz she's so far down in her depression she can't escape, like a dark hole or dark tunnel with no ending, bitch don't know she's alive, && more rabbid this time...
Sara where are you? Why are you all bloody? Why do you have a gun with blood stains?
Sara your pills are on the table
Take all of these and make sure to take water so you can swallow them.
She walks into her moms room to do her bun, but she can't find her donut hole, it's 4 pm which is around the time where she starts feeling uneasy/unstable.
We leave out the door and go out to Walmart
Sara you only get one icecream, you need to watch your weight Cuz your 20 pounds overweight....
Behind the door is scarce
With it all in her hands, walkin around with no shame but she's in the shadows
How does she do it? No one knows
Cuz she hides behind a mask, with only a simple task, staying strong...
Daryl what the fuck?
What?
You stupid bitch
How am I a bitch
You fuckin around with all these hoes and finna talk to me? Hell naw
You sound like Madea 😂😂😂
Bitch shuddup , your an ass
With you and your pour family
My families not pour I ain't got no family Daryl
Sorry bro, are u alright
No, can I crash at your place????
Yeah ese I gotchu
Look I don't wanna tell you this but I'm gonna kill myself tonight
NO BITCH NO YOU AINT
Why? There's knives and blades in your kitchen, plus there's pills in your cabinet , I just gotta slit my throat or second option just take 100 of your Vicoden .
If you do that I'm gonna call 911
What else is new?
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Me: Babe stop it hurts, can't we go do something else
Klyde: Nah boo your pussys mine.
Monica:KLYDE STOP IT YOUR HURTING HER
Klyde: Nah she loves it just like when her father does it
Me: My father is none of yo fucking buissness and he's dead and he already got sent to jail a long time ago, and CPS was called, my abuse is none yo fucking problem.
Klyde: Baby calm down your stressing me out
Me: Bitch I'mma spray my period blood all over your whiteass face
Klyde: Oh and then cum on it?
Me: Nah I got non fictional boobs
Klyde: Your so stupid!
Me: Shut up fucker!
Klyde: Excuse me! But this is my territory and yo pussy mine
Monica: LADIES LADIES stop yo bitchin'
Klyde: Yes sir
Me: Don't say yes sir to me , I ain't a man IMMA women!
Klyde: Yes man sir
Klyde: Bye Felecia 👌👏💞
Me: Excuse me but I'm big booty Judy
Klyde: With what?
Me: DEEZNUTS!!! Got emmm
Klyde: Shut up with that && I'm not a sir
Me: Hahahaha
Monica: Sara and Klyde would you two shut up?
Klyde: No! Bitchass bitchass
Monica: Sara Shut Up and go back to bed!
Me: bitchass bitchass 😂😂😂
....
Whisky in the water, X's and O's
Alfred BitchCock lmfao 😂😂😂
It's like 1:40 am in the morning and IMMA go to sleep, watching METV on channel 3
I'm high && hyper and made my mom stay up with me and not take her sleeping pill Cuz I didn't feel good and I was avoiding a mental hospital trip or a 911 emergency call. I did a good job today I took a shower with mango body wash , I ate Galato icecream && couldn't open the Tropical Starburst Bag lmfao 💔👏👏 I was hallucinating vividly all day but not like last night where I was in another world or a fairytale. My moms asleep and bitch don't know 👌🚬🚬🚬 I need a blunt.
I was actin like an idiot like usual but my hallucinations and unstable mental state gets worse at night but starting slowly and slowly at 4:00 pm. So I take my meds and use my "coping skills" no being locked up or going insane. So I use the code word "mommy I don't feel good" she knows what it means but before my out of reality/broken mental state gets to a 5 out of 10, 10 is me at my worst having an episode && getting to emergency treatment. But I got dis 😘👌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌💯
Goodnight from 7/3/2015...
💋💋💋💋💋💕...
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It's 3:29 am , goodnight bitches ^.^ 🙌💋❤️👏💞💊 its 7/3/2015, night homes 🌸🌸🌸🌸
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💋🙌👌💞😘___"Life Daily Shit, All This Running Around"___ 💔💞💕❤️👌
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Weight: 162
Height: 5'2
Goals_____
Calories: 1,560
130 lb (current weight)
Lose 1b per week
Lightly Active
Carbohydrates: 195 g. 50%
Protein: 78 g. 20%
Fat: 52 g. 30%
Wedesday, July 1st, 2015____
Total Calories: 1,530
Calories Left: 30
Breakfast: 1. Buttermilk Pancakes (Kellogs Eggo, 116g,) =280 calories
3 pancakes, 1 serving.
Lunch: 2. Ramen Chicken Noodles with Vegetables In a Cup (Marchaun, 1 container) =290 calories, 1 container, 1 serving
Dinner: (Empty)
Snacks: 3. Fudge Iced Brownie (Signature The Bakery Baked With Pride, 1 brownie) =360 calories, 1 serving
4. Fudge Iced Brownie (The Bakery Baked With Pride, 1 brownie) =360 calories, 1 serving
5. Chocolate Fudge Brownie Icecream (Dreyers, 1.5 cup) =240 calories, 1 1/4 serving
Thursday, July 2nd, 2015____
Total Calories: 1,209
Calories Left: 351
Breakfast: (Empty)
Lunch: 1. Chicken and Broccoli (Innov Asian Cuisene, 1 cup) =240 calories, 1 serving
2. Chicken Fried Rice, Innov Asian Cuisene, 1.3 cup) =234 calories, 1 cup serving
Dinner: (Empty)
Snack: 3. Grande Hot Chocolate (Starbucks, 1 Grande, 16oz) =370 calories, 1 serving
4. Chocolate Fudge Brownie Icecream (Dreyers, 0.6 cup) =240 calories, 1 1/4 serving
5. Chocolate Syrup (Hershys Chocolate Syrup, 2tbsp) =100 calories, 1 serving
6. Whip Cream (Great Value, 2tbsp) =25 calories, 1 serving
Friday, July 3rd, 2015___
Total calories: 960
Calories Left: 600
Breakfast: 1. Frozen Buttermilk Waffles (Krusteaz, 2 waffles) =210 calories
Lunch: 2. Chicken and Broccoli (Innov Asian Cuisene, 0.3 cups) =60 calories, 1/3 serving
3. Chicken Fried Rice (Innov Asian Cuisene, 0.3 cups) =80 calories, 1/3 serving
Dinner: (Empty)
Snack: 4. Grande Hot Chocolate (Starbucks, 1 Grande, 16oz) =370 calories, 1 serving
5. Chocolate Fudge Brownie Icecream (Dreyers, 0.5 cup) =240 calories, 1 1/4 serving
Saturday, July 4, 2015
Breakfast Calories Carbs Fat Protein Sodium Sugar
Farm Fresh Egg-Land's Best - 18 Large Grade Aa Eggs Large, 1 egg (50g) 70 0 4 6 65 0
Sara Lee (White Bread) - Toast With Butter, 0.5 slice 63 8 3 1 100 1
Oscar Mayer - Maple Flavored Bacon, 4 Slices 180 0 14 12 740 0
Add Food Quick Tools 313 8 21 19 905 1
Lunch
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Mcdonalds - Ketchup, 6 ml 8 2 0 0 0 2
Vegetable - Green Leaf Lettuce, 1.5 cup 8 2 0 1 15 0
Mcdonald's - Swiss Cheese Slice, 0.03 oz (15g) 30 1 2 2 10 0
Mcdonald's - Slice of Bacon, 1 slice 70 1 5 5 270 0
Mcdonalds - Burger Patty, 0.5 Patty 45 0 3 4 63 0
Mcdonald's - Small Hamburger Bun, 0.5 bun 75 14 1 3 120 3
Add Food Quick Tools 236 19 11 14 478 4
Snacks
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great value - whipped cream, 2 tbsp 25 1 3 0 0 1
Starbucks - Venti Mocha Frappucino With Whip, 24 oz 500 83 17 7 0 79
Hershies Chocolate Syrup - Chocolate Syrup, 1 tbsp 50 12 0 0 8 10
Add Food Quick Tools 1,215 96 20 7 8 90
Totals 1,764 123 52 40 1,390 95
Your Daily Goal 2,025 265 60 106 2,300 76
Remaining 261 142 8 65 910 -19
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*You've earned 465 extra calories from exercise today
If every day were like today... You'd weigh 153.5 lbs in 5 weeks
Sunday, July 5, 2015
Breakfast Calories Carbs Fat Protein Sodium Sugar
Farm Fresh Egg-Land's Best - 18 Large Grade Aa Eggs Large, 1 egg (50g) 70 0 4 6 65 0
Fresh & Easy - Finely Shredded Cheddar and Monterey Jack Cheese Blend, 0.5 fluid ounce 28 0 2 2 43 0
Lucerne - Whole Milk Vitamin D, 0.13 cup 20 2 1 1 16 2
Kirkland Signature (Costco) - Salted Sweet Cream Butter Teaspoon, 1 tsp 33 0 4 0 30 0
Romero's - Flour Tortillas Casera Style, 2 Tortilla 154 28 4 4 290 2
Add Food Quick Tools 509
Lunch
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Vegetable - Sweet White Corn on the Cob, 2 ear (6-3/4" - 7-1/2" long) 166 39 2 6 26 6
Kirkland - Salted Sweet Cream Butter 1tespoon, 2 tespoon 66 0 66 0 0 0
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Hershies Chocolate Syrup - Chocolate Syrup, 1 tbsp 50 12 0 0 8 10
great value - whipped cream, 1 tbsp 13 1 2 0 0 1
Dreyer's - Chocolate Fudge Brownie Ice Cream, 1 cup 400 48 20 6 90 38
Add Food Quick Tools 463 61 22 6 98 49
Totals 1,000 129 104 25 567 58
Your Daily Goal 1,560 195 52 78 2,300 59
Remaining 560 66 -52 53 1,733 0
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Your the last person I will love and I'm not gonna miss you , all things I've said or done, I'm never gonna see through your eyes again
I love you mom
Snap chat Daniel hooks
Spicyy Crazii Ramoz
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Abigail Collabros
Alisa Monee Alvarez
I love you mom
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Spicyy Crazii Ramoz
Spizyy Crazii Sanchez
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Stevie gives people pills in there sleep and silently tortures them. Silent Torture
ALISA MONEE ALVAREZ (VERONICA TOCRAZII RAMOZ)
AlIsA mOnEe AlVaReZ
(VeRoNiCa ToCrAzIi RaMoZ)
Sara Nicole Berger
Alisa Monee Alvarez
Veronica ToCrazii Ramoz
Sadiee BlaqRaqe Babybear Fiasco
Preston Alexander Berger
Markous Fallon Swrtes
Le Mario Master
Jimmy Vincent Graddis
Say it right
War games 2
Donnie Darko
The family
Avatar
Enders game
Seth Marshall
Seth Tells Larry About His Disorder (From Please Adam Stop It Takes Me All The Way)
After Stevie tries to fuck him again he goes to Seth ranting on how much Stevie has done to him, Seth tells Larry that Stevie is mental, extremely mental that her brain doesnt function normally, Seth says that she's crazy but that Larry is depressed, Larry denies but Seth says nomatter what always stay by Stevie's side but that brings up the subject of Larry wanting to leave also mentioning that Seth told him the exact opposite the other day, he reminds him of the restraining order Seth says those are his options, then Seth says that Larry needs to be put on anti-depressants, Larry goes beserk and starts pounding his head on the wall then trying to cut himself with his nails, "ah just like Stevie that's not a surprise" then Larry accepts the fact he's kind of like Stevie, Seth tells Larry to follow his heart then Larry goes to his room, glad that Seth is living with them as a guardian, "You may be depressed but your still an amazing person" he hears Stevie from beside him, Larry then questions everything.
Seth Tells Larry Something
(From Please Adam Stop It Takes Me All The Way)
"um Larry you want to know, Stevie secretly wants your attention, you no sexually, and I no she's been abusive but do not let her touch you, okay.-Seth"
"Of course that's the typical Stevie searching for the love she never got and exspects me to give it to her.-Larry"
Alisa Alvarez Needs Help...
Alvarez, a 15 year old rebel, seriously needs help with her mental issues, hospitalized 35 times, sent to jail 2, was in one group home and residential twice. All because of different shit, she's differently ill, went crazy after her father died in 2011, then she attempted suicide 13 times, has cutting problems, ALOT of violence, including fighting restraints jacking cars trying to kill her family, she defently went crazy her mom said. Alvarez abused her brother, running away getting into trouble at school, her hallucinating lead her to get into trouble with the law, countless times, at 13 she started using drugs, she used her meds as an overdosing medicine. She attempted suicide ALOT of times, the last time was by jacking a car and injected meth into her arm, Alvarez is addicted to cutting and slashes her wrist to escape her pain based in the song "Dife" music saved her life basically. Thanks a fucking ALOT ;)
Alisa Alvarez
"And That Is It All"
$9.99
January 19, 2014
Fuck And All
51/50'd (Back To ETS)
Turn Around And Try Me
Help Me Save Me
Get What I Want (When I Want It)
Raul
Safe From All Dis Shit
Fuck Dat
Why Don't Me Just Die
Hello Hello Hello (Why Don't You Answer Me?)
Firewall
Wanna Stay 1: Start Again
Wanna Stay 2: Seth Again
Why Me
How All Came To Me
Pissing Out
Come Here Come Out
Fuck This Me Is Done
This Is Who I Am
Black Times
Welcome To The Ends
Mothers And Fathers
15
X
5
=
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Howz to yo day
Thanks you
Sara ur ridiculous
Just randomly
Layers laterzbitchies X)
What's Wrong With Alvarez...
"Alisa Alvarez runs away to Big Boy with Estasy pills overdoses, Marshall is there Kim and the police bust in saying "dersheis" Alvarez punches Kim and starts flipping tables, Kim insults Marshall and Alvarez defends him and pulls out a knife to slit her throat then taking more pills, Kim and Alvarez got in a fight, Alvarez went crazy I mean REAL crazy so Kim called 911. Alvarez starts screaming "why mom why dad die bitch die" the cops arrest her, Marshall chases her down, then Alvarez flips Kim off and when she gets released she keeps going to Big Boy idk why she just does she just fucking does, her and Kim have had rivalries for a LONG time due to also her obsession with Marshall." - Alvarez Fucked Up
Shows:
In The House
The Fosters
Action item:
List 3 times you felt anxious.
1. When I see evil daddy
2. When I get paranoid
3. Someones gonna get me
Me and Bri will talk about becoming anxious.
Note to Preston saying sorry:
Mytoecold
The Goodwill (Needed It)
Alisa Alvarez "Mirrored Element"
Mother and father by broods
Sometimes today is beautiful in the open sky world seems kind of dark right noe it feels so hard to breathe
You are so beautiful beautiful beautiful like sunlight burning at midnight something so beautiful
Wake up call maroon 5
Beautiful day by U2
Sunrise by Nichole nordeman
Dangerous by David guetta
Amazing spiderman 2
Tom cruise latest movie
Aeonflux
In good company
Seth macfarlane
Arrest me I'm sexy
Let's get dirty
Someones a grump
Hello ladies
Hey ladies welcome to the club
Welcome to the club, free service
Primadona
Justin Chavez
Jesse Cervantes
Alisa Monee Alvarez ;)
Michelle medina
Michelle duque
Hideaway by kiesza
Gotta get up and try
Blowme one last kiss
Dog days are over Florence
Ingrid michaels girls chase boys
Raging fire by Phillip Phillips
Hey everybody welcome to the club
I beg to differ 0.0
One flew over the cookos nest
"I'm not happy
Feeling glad
I got sunshine in a bag
I'm uslessless
But not for long
My future is coming on"
-Clint Eastwood by The Gorillaz
Are you okay? ;(
I want to kill myself.
Overdose
Die
Whatever
No one cares
No ones there
Fuck you all
When I'm gone
No one will miss me
So tonight
Im gonna do this shit
Until I bleed
Overdose till I can't breathe
Goodbye...
1998 15 years late
Hair in bun green wall behind her
Hair half in ponytail red like Laurasia with red headband on head close to forehead cute close shorts short top black blue green or hot pink makeup blue eyeliner black mascara.
Hair in ponytail with side bang out right side with headband on.
R A U L
D A N N Y
J U A N
M A R T I N
S A R A
Smexii ass bitches XXD
Sexiii Oscar
Datz fucking rad dude
Yes u do I know u fucking no as Raul says laterz bitches
To sexy for my shirt
Stouffers
Banquets
Stater Bros
Apple Contact Support:
http://support.apple.com/kb/HE57
Yay for Asians xD
Irish Screaming x)
What does lightning McQueen say? KA FUCKING CHOW
Jolly fuckin hoe X)
And all the things you do all the things you've done yellow, Yellow by Coldplay
I'm ontop of da world
Pompeii Bastille
Larry Xencell
Got it from da best
Ya I'm a "good" rolemodel lmao.
-Stevie Xencell xD
Alisa Monee Alvarez ;)
Michelle medina
Michelle duque
Hideaway by kiesza
Gotta get up and try
Blowme one last kiss
Dog days are over Florence
Ingrid michaels girls chase boys
My pain cuts deep inside me
It damages my mental state
I stay strong thru all the bullshit
Can't wait for you and me empty words broken hearts let me be it's time we part
Jon Gibson Ya Mo Be There
Elton John mad man across the water
A Little by Alisa Alvarez
I got a little fucked up last night , but don't worry
I'll be just fine
I'm first in line
I ain't got no time
Ready to fly
I ain't got no life
It's like I'm high
But at the same time low
Deep in the snow
Nowhere to show
I need to know
I want to be known
I don't wanna be shown
I just lay low
Watch the time go
Ready to know
Life goes and goes
Watch me float
See me dream
Need to be seen
On the TV screen
Inside a movie scene
Let me scream
While you dream
I see I see I see
Need to be seen
I got a little fucked up last night
Ready for the fight
I got a little
Yep just a little
Fucked up last night...
Jerseys pizzeria and restraint
Bacon and sausage pizza
Cyanamide: Overdose (An Alvarez Original)
Chandlier Stan Madina + George Stevenson: Cyanamide
Theme: Original Leftfield
Should Be You NeYo
With: Alisa Alvarez and Markous Swrtes
Chandy Stan Madina + George Stevenson: Cynamide: Overdose...
Yt: Chandy overdoses once George takes the love of her life, Ralphie away from her, she takes Georges pain killers while Trisha and George try to stop her. Starring Alisa Alvarez and Markous Swrtes.
Bio: "Um yes is this George, ya your friend Chandlier was found on McKinley two hours ago I think she was trying to kill herself."-Police "Oh shit, Ill be right there"-George " "I don't get it she seemed so happy, what the fuck is going on, Da Fuck Debra get out of my clothes, stupid bitch.-Trisha. Chandy (Alvarez) goes I'll when finding out George (Swrtes) had an affair with Chandys girlfriend Ralphie Miller, she starts cutting, crying, running away, tried to kill herself 3 times, goes crasy, and hitting George one day Chandy overdoses on pills and takes a knife and runs away to a Vonz and steals food and overruns the store she comfronts Ralph and slaps him he calls the cops which leads to her going on house arrest. George feeds and takes care of her. Chancy eats herself to obsesity and ends up in the mental hospital for her 3rd suicide attempt, meeting Isabel and Trisha, acting out in restraints, going insane, surprised by Ralphie showing up, Chandy has gone crazy, losing herself, all because of Ralphie. Then there's music videos to:
Stay
Shining Down
Release The Pressure
Memories
Love In December
Suffer Well
One Love
My Blood
No More
Hailies Song
42
Then when George is watching TV Chandy hands in a letter from the argument, which leads to a bigger one, Chandy locks herself in the bathroom but George calls in his friend Trisha Sanchez to calm her, Chsndy has dreams of saving Ralph from an accident then fucking him up going to hospitals and stores and having breakdowns. She overdoses on Georges pain pills and George saves her before it's to late. Then Ralph apologizes and gets back together with Chandy and that is how it ALL ends.
Ending: Strangelove
Let Me Be Lonely
Trisha Sanchez
Debra Ramirez
Chandy Madina
George Stevenson
Ralphie Miller
Isabella Stone
Chancy or Chandy keeps having nightmares rolling over then in slow motion reaches over the bedside table for pills she attempts to take them but George and Trisha walk in and make her struggle she does it they scream no she falls on the floor screaming then passes out, they call 911 "Chandlier Stan Madina just attempted to overdose on Vicodin pills" -in my mind, only the young
Cheesecake
Cookies and cream poptsrts
Milky way
Are you sure your ok
Hey buddy
That's what's up
Of course I care about you
My parents split up and I was mentally out of it
Iggy iggy iggy can't you see
Sometimes your words just hypnotize me
Ain't nobody love like you do
Take my life by Jeremy camp
Chrunchroll
Burning up
Walking through the fire
Please don't let me go
The Audi 83
Good vibrations
I'm fucking done with my life, someone kill me, I feel like a failure, I feel like noone cares, vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv
Abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz
3/5/15 today at school
I feel like I wanna stab myself with a knife , I wanna kill myself so I can stop suffering, Erin and Johnny rape me, I'm gonna starve myself until I can't breathe, Boone gives a fuck if I die, I'm fucked up in the head, and now I'm ending it to see Daddy in taxi 22, I'm gonna shoot myself in the head, take my moms antidepressants, I feel like a worthless peice of shit, why does everyone hate me? I need to get away, and tonight I'm gonna let Johnny possess me and end it all, I don't wanna breathe or live, if I take 100 pills Boone would care, a dead body on the floor with blood stains, I'm fucking crazy and no worth at living, I'm ugly, my hallucinating takes full control , I wanna bleed to death, the only 4 people a live for are Mommy Preston, Izzy, Laura, if it were not for them cuz I love them to death, I'd be dead, my life is fucked up, pain killing me inside and out, fuck my life, me being crazy and mentally ill, I can't live nomore, I care about everyone, if I stab myself tonight, who would care? I just can't stand this pain, I'm mentally out of it, I'm fucking like 16 in treatment for 4 years, never had a normal life, I'm probably the craziest girl, I've done hard shit, I became sick in the head after my dad died, I'm not normal, I'm fucking worthless, live my whole life in and out of mental hospitals, dealt with abuse, mental illness and drugs, my dad was abusing me, if I take those pills, I want you to watch and stare, don't do anything, let me lay dead.
The End
~Alisa Monee Alvarez~
Birth Name: Sara Nicole Berger
YT: TwistedMetal411/Alisa Monee Alvarez
Email: crowdgoeswild86@hotmail.com
FB: Alisa DarqAngelxc Monee Alvarez
Age: 16
Mental State: Physco, Crazy, Ill
Health: Mentally Unstable
(x) Crazy ( ) Minor Issues ( ) OK
( ) Normal
Medication/Disorders? Yes
Treatment? Yes
Anger/Anxiety? Yes
Depression/Insomnia? Yes
Troubled or Good? Troubled
Suicidal/Homoscidal? Yes
Mentally Ill? Yes
Needs Help/Treatment? Yes
Status: Single LMAO >.<
Issues/Problems? Yes
Fighter? Yes
Real or Fake? Real
Straight Up or Passive? Straight Up
Mom: Marcia Jean Berger
(x) Alive ( ) Dead
Dad: William Robert Berger
( ) Alive (x) Dead
Occupation: Singer, Actor, Rapper, Writer, Artist, Craziest Teenage Singer.
Drugs? Yes
Aggressive or Sweet? Both
Roseanne (Lutatious) Martin
Veronica (VRon) Simmons
Stevie Xencell
Chandlier Stan Madina
Jym Louie
Jazmyn Sanchez Alejondros
Kristen Vasquez Saliguerio
Bonelle Jenvonee (Bob Jen)
Blepknik Torres (SInIster SmIle)
Maribeth Rimarez
~Markous Jalhon Swrtes~
Birth Name: Preston Alexander Berger
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Young Folks
Folking
Little sumberines by black keys
Little sunrise
Larry Tries To Kill Himself For The First Time (From Touched Still Figuring Things Out)
This is a scene of afterwards of the 3rd movie. Larry gets a visit from Seth telling him that Stevie is going to kill him and he needs to drug himself also that Stevie would rape him until he got her weed and a butcher knife, then he said that Stevie killed Ariana and Adam out of uncontrollable rage and Larrys next. He doesn't believe him until he shows him an old article, so Stevie runs in and attacks Seth, Seth gets knocked out, Stevie asks Larry if he wants to get drugged before the surprise comes, Stevie hands him the pills, "take 10" he tries to do it then he tries to cut his throat with the razor, Stevie stops and sits Larry down but he won't talk. Then Seth awakens arguing with an intoxicated Stevie and Stevie then laughs uncontrollably and rolls on the bed like a 4 year old "oh not the autism again" Seth says, but again Larry is diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder and he shouldn't be anywhere near Stevie, so Seth convinces him not to kill himself but to get a restraining order, Larry agrees and Stevie is knocked out uncontious on the bed.
Song: Prelude 12/21
Larry and Stevie's "Little Chat"
(From Please Adam Stop It Takes Me All The Way)
"Hey Stevie I love you but at the same Ariana and Adam are failures for having you, your just a waste, I mean I care about you, it's my first time I actually feel confident cuz you've abused me continually your just a physco suicidal freak, your mental illness is contagious, so I think it's best for you to go, you no to the funny farm where you belong, just stay out of my life I can't live like this anymore ur ruining my life, u no what I'm leaving have fun with Johnny.-Larry"
"Go on you little heartless faggot I admit I'm crazy and abusive and I made up for that, in so many fucking ways ur so naive and fake if u really hate me and want me to die, then why didn't u fucking say it earlier, and my life has been shit, yours has been amazing, your so inconsiderate, go leave don't be surprised if you don't see me tomorrow, wait you wouldn't care, and no I loved you more than anything, but you hurt me throughout my hole life but now it's my turn to go, get the fuck out of here, just let me die alone.-Stevie
Me loves mommy she's relly amazing stay strong ok yes you got it yes yes you do ur the best mom ever thru all da hard times you've had me helped me held me you saved me I love you so much me can't explainz I l u I l u I l u
~"So Bitch, Your Free Film Series."~
Jym Louie (Brandon Samillio Sanchez) as Alisa Monee Alvarez
Xavier Louie (Kenneth Lacy Sanchez) as Markous Fallon Swrtes
Alexandria Salguero Torres (Alexa) as Alisa Monee Alvarez
Cheyanne Emily Santos (Cherri) as Alisa Monee Alvarez
David Emile Miller (MrDavi) as Markous Fallon Swrtes
A story of two hyperactive children, Xavier Louie or Kenneth (Ken) Lacy Sanchez and Jym Louie or AKA Brandon (Brandi) Samillio Sanchez, who go thru daily life, Jym Louie normally uses sarcasm and insults Xavier, as Xavier is more of the loving type, live in there own world, finally losing there minds. Theres 4 movies, "Jym." "So Young and Far Away", and "Cheap Touching", and "Why Me Why Now Why Not." Jym/Brandi by Alisa Alvarez Xavier/Ken by Markous Swrtes +ALL VIDEOS ON THIS PLAYLIST MADE BY ME, ALISA ALVAREZxD
MOVIE BIO:
Movie #1: Jym.
Bio: Jym Brandon Louie Sanchez (Alvarez) tries to escape her mind, it all started when driving home with her mom from her therapist, her mom walks into a local casino, with Jym in the car, Jym waits for hours, later it is she gets really worried and delusional , she goes crazy and loses her mind, crying and seeing flashbacks, after awhile a cop knocks on the window, arresting her, she beats him jacks the car and drives off, seeing her mom looking at her, she goes out of her mind , and she's reported dead the next day. Jym's dad and grandparents died 2 years before, while the mom watches over Jym and her brother. Jym then goes mentally ill, now having to take care of her little brother. A year later the story begins... Jym tries to escape her mind, secretly snorting pills at night to stay awake all night, where she does mentally unsafe behaviors, she knows that she feels nothing, her minds empty, one night she escapes her house, because she loses her mind and has out of body experiences, her body tightens up, she has anxiety attacks, she's going crazy but acts fine for her brother , Xavier Kenneth Louie Sanchez (Swrtes), not to scare him. Her body is having a bad reaction to her anti phycotic medication, at night she gets manic and party's with Xavier, and live there lives on the wild side. Jym and Xavier in the present, find there true selves, and live there life to the fullest, until Xavier reports Jym to CPS for "unstable actions" she comes back from the hospital with her brain wired, delusional, and "not herself" finding a hole and busted vains in her brain, not functioning normally , she gets a brain tumor, she goes so crazy and out of her mind having "No Functionality" she pretends to be normal for Xavier, both having good times again, until Jym gets a call from her friend Alexandria (Alvarez) saying that Jym has been framed into physically assaulting a CPS officer, and stealing drugs from her hospital, later finding out Xavier framed her for all the times Jym bullied and abused and scared Xavier, Xavier is usually the loving type, Jym usually is "wired and hyper" and insults Xavier, but Jym is the wild type, energetic , and crazy. Xavier witnesses Jym losing her mind more and more while losing herself trying to find herself, she's lost all her mind, mentality, and functionality. Xavier doesn't know why, finally to punish himself, he takes a pill to become like his big sister, what's happened to her us, there's nothing in there. Jym and Xavier live there life as themselves, while Jym dates Alexandria , and becomes sexual, and more grown, more real and "fuck the world I'm me" starts becoming sexual and a hoe, while taking pictures of her grabbing her body and partying, Xavier notices her horny and sex obsessed and he becomes closer to his girlfriend Cheyanne (Alvarez). Jym is fine without any family besides Xavier and Xavier is accepted to a home with all 4 of them. It's real(:
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___Getting ready 6/4/2015___❤️🇺🇸💋
CLOTHES/SMELL GOODS.
-Put on cute/sexy top (undershirt if you have too)
-Tuck undershirt under pants
-Put pants/jeans/shorts on over underwear and undershirt
-Pull underwear up to belly
-Spray perfume 3 times across your neck/chest, and one time on each arm, crouch, and on your belly
-put diodarant on
-brush your teeth/wash your face
-DONE
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JEWELRY.
-Put on necklaces (3 or 4)
-unhook the necklace and throw it over back of head so the hook is in the front of your body
-hook it and turn it around
Put on brackets (ALOT on both arms)
-DONE
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HAIR.
-Brush hair all the way down with big brush, (holding both rubber bands on right arm closer to your back Palm.)
-Make sure to brush all hair into the middle so you can grab it
-brush from each side to middle.
-grab all hair and hold it,
-lift head up and position it to the right/left side of your head (far right on the back of your head but not to far)
-tie it with rubber band TIGHTLY 3x and each time make sure to pull it all the way through
-put donut hole thru your ponytail so the ponytail is in the hole and the donut is around it
-push down all your hair and fan/spread it around so it covers all the donut (use side of brush or your hands to put all your hair around)
-start from middle of donut hole to spread hair evenly around, then tuck hair under your donut
-snap rubber band around all your hair around the donut hole (get all your hair and snap down tight)
-push down on your hair in the bun and make it even (so it looks the same on each side)
-snap another rubber band down on it tightly.
-DONE
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SHOWERING.
-Do it in day (recommended) or night
-undress , throw clothes in dirty hamper,and go to the bathroom first.
-get makeup and take your hair out
-get towel, washcloth, underwear, shirt, pants, bra, socks
-put clothes on counter , wash cloth in shower next to the door, and towel on edge over shower close to door
-start the water to get it to the right temperature (warm is recommended) -turn knob to the right to the middle, then turn it a little bit more to the right
-get in and stay underwater getting your body and hair wet (stay for about a minute)
-get out of water and grab shampoo , to fill up center of your palm
-flip your hair over and scrub all your hair very hard all over and get scalp (make sure to get every inch of your hair moving your hand around and scrubbing your hair HARD)
-after scrubbing for a minute after its all soapy, all your hair is covered and smells good (if you know your scrubbed hard and fast)
-get underwater and let water run down your hair, then turn around with your hair flipped underwater and let it run
-then start scrubbing all the way thru your hair to get the soap out, make sure to put fingers through your hair (deep into your scalp, GET ALL of your hair)
-stand under for a couple seconds so you know it's all clean
-then get out of water and get another medium size of shampoo and scrub it hard and fast like the first time with hair flipped over
-after you get all your hair covered step back into the water and let water run down, then turn and scrub out soap till it's clean, stand under water for a few seconds (REPEATING THE FIRST STEP OF WASHING HAIR WITH SHAMPOO)
-then get out and put a large size amount of conditioner in your hand
-turn over flipping your hair and scrub lighter but get all your hair, then use your fingers to put conditioner through your hair
-get all your hair and make sure to smoothly put conditioner in (brushing down all of your hair with your fingers)
-then scrub it and leave it in your hair
-put 1 more large sized amounts conditioner in your hand
-scrub lightly and smoothly through hair again , running fingers all over your hair and getting all of it
-make sure to get all your hair and deep under your scalp (every inch of your hair)
-Then this time put the last amount of conditioner in your hair, smoothing out all over your hair (GET ALOT and leave it in your hair not scrubbing as hard)
-run fingers through your hair so it's smooth (still bending down do it softly starting from top to bottom of your hair)
-leave in your hair and stay out of water.
-get body wash in your hands (mango body wash) and scrub hard and fast all over your arms , get your fingers, hands, arms, armpits, and all over and around it.
-make sure to get every inch and do it smooth and slow this time to get all around your arms
-then wash your neck, back, tummy, front of your body, all over the front
-scrub hard and fast getting all of your body and around every inch
-then do it slow to get all around your body
-then wash your legs , doing each leg and foot separately
-get around and all over butt and all bottom part of your body scrubbing and then spreading body wash
-get back under water and let water run all over your body and then bend down to get conditioner out of hair
-take wash cloth and get your private part spreading legs really low, gettin thru all the holes in your privates and your pubic hair
-make sure to get all of it, even sides of your legs
-throw wash cloth into bathtub not hitting the electronics
-take shower head and spread legs getting all soap out of your privates (spread down real low)
-stand under water to wash everything off, make sure hair is smoothe and you smell good
-turn water off and step out of shower
-take towel and dry off (dry hair, all your body from top to bottom)
-flip dirty towel over shower
-put diodarant on and shave if you want to
-put underwear on, then bra, then shirt, then pants, then your socks
-brush your teeth with Mommy's toothpaste
-brush hair starting from bottom to top, brush back evenly until it's all even (if night)
-put hair in bun after it dries or while it's wet, make sure to brush well until smooth and not tangly or rough, make soft (if morning/day)
-DONE
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MAKEUP.
-take out makeup bag (PULL OUT THE FOLLOWING)
1. CVS 3 color eyeshadow (Mommy's old one which is now mine)
2. black pencil eyeshadow (sharpen it if needed , make really pointy)
3. orange mega impact mascara
4. lip sticks in a tube
5. Mommy's blush
6. big brush
-take eyeshadow and open it (do this for both eyes, use both brushes)
-on first brush swipe the pink eyeshadow lightly and apply it to the top of your eyes (not the lid)
-on second brush darkly swipe the light purple eyeshadow and apply a large amount on your eyelids, under the pink so it's mixed
-apply pink again darker and then apply purple again darker (keep shading it in so it looks mixed and even if pink and purple)
-take Mommy's blush and big brush and swipe it in blush, then blow off
-apply to cheek bones and make sure it's bright pink (not to bright)
-swipe lightly on nose, forehead and around your face
-reapply pink and purple eyeshadow
-take out black eyeliner pencil eyeliner and sharpen it with sharpener
-(for both eyes, make sure to outline your eyes) apply eyeliner a medium size on eyelid, curving it at the tip
-then apply on bottom lid, swiping slowly and softly
-reapply eyeshadow so it's thick on top lid, then swipe softly again on bottom lid
-keep shading it in so it looks professional on the curve
-on the curve on right eye do right half darker then left half, on the curve on left eye do left half darker then right half
-example: you see your right corner of your eye closer to the end of your eye by your ear, curve it inside from your ear halfway on the bottom, do the same for left side
-then curve the tip outlining it
-reapply pink eyeshadow darkly on top not touching eyeliner
-reapply purple eyeshadow darkly still not touching eyeliner
-take out orange mega impact mascara (for both eyes)
-start swiping from bottom to top very thickly&darkly
-then swipe lightly on edge of lashes
-keep applying thickly so it's really dark
-if you want apply and then wait 30 seconds for it to dry, then apply again for thicker eyelashes (RECOMMENDED... If you have time)
-then twist mascara stick curling your eyelashes, do this a couple times until dark enough
-reapply mascara the same way until thick, dark, and big eyelashes
-close your eyes and apply mascara very thick and do it a lot repeatedly (twist and curl eyelashes if you want a better effect)
-keep applying mascara on your lashes until your satisfied with the darkness and thickness (really black with big eyelashes)
-close your eyes and take edge of mascara stick (tip and then edge in the middle of stick) and apply
-curl lashes with tip repeatedly until your lashes are big
-open eyes , take edge of mascara stick (tip and edge in the middle of stick) and apply
-then apply thickly and then smoothly on eyelashes and the tip of eyelash
-open up eyeshadow again (use both brushes)
-apply pink thickly on top and then apply purple lightly on bottom
-reapply mascara
-reapply pink/purple eyeshadow again (mainly pink)
-take out lip stick tube
-use any color lipstick (pink/red/brown/velvet RECOMMEND)
-apply thickly on lips evenly, not anywhere outside your lips
-reapply pink eyeshadow and if needed mascara
-wipe off excess makeup
-DONE
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(That's how I get ready for the day)...
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__❤️❤️STARBUCKS❤️❤️__
Bakery
Calories Fat (g) Carb. (g) Fiber (g) Protein (g)
Chonga Bagel 300 5 50 3 12
8-Grain Roll 380 7 67 7 10
Almond Croissant Blossom 380 23 38 2 9
Banana Nut Bread 420 21 52 2 6
Blueberry Muffin with Yogurt and Honey 380 16 53 1 6
Blueberry Scone 420 17 61 2 5
Butter Croissant 260 14 28 1 6
Cheese Danish 320 16 36 1 8
Chocolate Caramel Muffin 410 20 56 2 5
Chocolate Chip Cookie 310 15 42 2 4
Chocolate Croissant 370 20 46 2 6
Classic Coffee Cake 390 16 57 1 5
Cranberry Orange Scone 420 15 64 1 6
Devil's Food Doughnut 430 23 53 2 5
Double Chocolate Chunk Brownie 380 23 41 2 4
Everything with Cheese Bagel 270 2 54 2 10
Flourless Chewy Chocolate Cookie 170 4.5 32 2 2
Frappuccino® Cookie 350 20 40 <1 4
Gluten-Free Marshmallow Dream Bar 240 5 45 0 2
Ham & Cheese Savory Foldover 250 11 24 <1 13
Iced Lemon Pound Cake 470 20 68 1 6
Mallorca Sweet Bread 460 27 46 1 7
Michigan Cherry Oat Bar 240 8 36 <1 3
Morning Bun 350 15 54 2 7
Multigrain Bagel 290 3 58 6 14
Oatmeal Cookie 290 12 40 3 5
Old-Fashioned Glazed Doughnut 480 27 56 1 5
Petite Vanilla Bean Scone 120 4.5 18 0 2
Plain Bagel 270 1 57 2 9
Pumpkin Bread 410 15 63 2 6
Raspberry Swirl Pound Cake 430 16 69 1 4
Red Berry Cheese Danish 300 12 43 2 6
Reduced-Fat Berry Coffee Cake with Lemon Crumble 320 11 52 2 5
Reduced-Fat Cinnamon Swirl Coffee Cake 370 9 67 2 5
Salted Caramel Square with Pecans 380 22 45 1 3
Toasted S'mores Tart 310 16 41 1 4
Volpi! Pepperoni & Tomato Savory Foldover, 270, 14, 27, 2, 10
Wheat Spinach Savory Foldover, 250, 15, 23, 3, 4
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Apple Pie Frappuccino
Banana Cream Pie Frappuccino
Biscotti Frappuccino
Butterbeer Frappuccino
Cafe Vanilla Frappuccino
Cake Batter Frappuccino
Candy Cane Frappuccino
Captain Crunch Berry Frappuccino
Chocolate Covered Strawberry Frappuccino
Chocolate Cream Frappuccino
Christmas Cookie Frappuccino
Cinnamon Roll Frappuccino
Cinnamon Toast Crunch Frappuccino
Cookies & Cream Frappuccino
Cotton Candy Frappuccino
Ferrero Rocher Frappuccino
French Vanilla Frappuccino
Fruity Pebbles Frappuccino
Grasshopper Frappuccino
Neapolitan Frappuccino
Pumpkin Pie Frappuccino
Raspberry Cheesecake Mocha Frappuccino
S'mores Frappuccino
Super Cream Frappuccino
Teddy Graham Frappuccino
Thin Mint Frappuccino
Twix Frappuccino
Zebra Mocha Frappuccino
Black Eye
Butterbeer Latte (Hot)
Caramel Snickerdoodle Macchiato
Chocolate Dalmation
Chocolate Pumpkin Latte
Dirty Chai
Green Eye
Liquid Cocaine
Nutella Drink
Raspberry Caramel Macchiato
Red Eye
Secret Size: Short Drink
Secret Size: Trenta
Strawberry Lemonade
The Undertow
Three C's Latte
Starbucks Secret Menu Items
Apple Pie Frappuccino
Banana Cream Pie Frappuccino
Biscotti Frappuccino
Butterbeer Frappuccino
Cafe Vanilla Frappuccino
Cake Batter Frappuccino
Candy Cane Frappuccino
Captain Crunch Berry Frappuccino
Chocolate Covered Strawberry Frappuccino
Chocolate Cream Frappuccino
Christmas Cookie Frappuccino
Cinnamon Roll Frappuccino
Cinnamon Toast Crunch Frappuccino
Cookies & Cream Frappuccino
Cotton Candy Frappuccino
Ferrero Rocher Frappuccino
French Vanilla Frappuccino
Fruity Pebbles Frappuccino
Grasshopper Frappuccino
Neapolitan Frappuccino
Pumpkin Pie Frappuccino
Raspberry Cheesecake Mocha Frappuccino
S'mores Frappuccino
Super Cream Frappuccino
Teddy Graham Frappuccino
Thin Mint Frappuccino
Twix Frappuccino
Zebra Mocha Frappuccino
Black Eye
Butterbeer Latte (Hot)
Caramel Snickerdoodle Macchiato
Chocolate Dalmation
Chocolate Pumpkin Latte
Dirty Chai
Green Eye
Liquid Cocaine
Nutella Drink
Raspberry Caramel Macchiato
Red Eye
Secret Size: Short Drink
Secret Size: Trenta
Strawberry Lemonade
The Undertow
Three C's Latte
Is there a Starbucks Secret Menu? The answer to this isn't as simple as one would hope. What we do know is that Starbucks baristas will most likely make you any drink if you have the recipe (and they have the ingredients) and it's something within reason. However, Starbucks has not officially claimed to have a secret menu. The Starbucks Secret Menu is extremely popular, so it makes sense that some baristas know the recipe to some of the popular secret menu drinks, such as the Butterbeer Frappuccino. Regardless, never go to Starbucks unprepared, you should always show the Starbucks Secret Menu Recipe when you order.
Bakery
Chonga Bagel
8-Grain Roll
Almond Croissant Blossom
Banana Nut Bread
Blueberry Muffin with Yogurt and Honey
Blueberry Scone
Butter Croissant
Cheese Danish
Chocolate Caramel Muffin
Chocolate Chip Cookie
Chocolate Croissant
Classic Coffee Cake
Cranberry Orange Scone
Devil's Food Doughnut
Double Chocolate Chunk Brownie
Everything with Cheese Bagel
Flourless Chewy Chocolate Cookie
Frappuccino® Cookie
Gluten-Free Marshmallow Dream Bar
Ham & Cheese Savory Foldover
Iced Lemon Pound Cake
Mallorca Sweet Bread
Michigan Cherry Oat Bar
Morning Bun
Multigrain Bagel
Oatmeal Cookie
Old-Fashioned Glazed Doughnut
Petite Vanilla Bean Scone
Plain Bagel
Pumpkin Bread
Raspberry Swirl Pound Cake
Red Berry Cheese Danish
Reduced-Fat Berry Coffee Cake with Lemon Crumble
Reduced-Fat Cinnamon Swirl Coffee Cake
Salted Caramel Square with Pecans
Toasted S'mores Tart
Volpi™ Pepperoni & Tomato Savory Foldover
Wheat Spinach Savory Foldover
Starbucks Menu with Prices for 2015
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This past year, Starbucks menu prices are more influential than ever, broadening to sell muffins, sandwiches, paninis, breakfast, and more. Adding to the list of menu items that aren't coffee are Starbucks' different variations of hot chocolate and tea, giving the menu a boost above its already-impressive success. Of course, the signature item sold at Starbucks is their coffee, and it is consistently decadent. The flavor never fails (at a decent price, too), and for that reason, their coffee empire is now the biggest in the world. Check out all their full menu has to offer below!
This past year, Starbucks menu prices are more influential than ever, broadening to sell muffins, sandwiches, paninis, breakfast, and more. Adding to the list of menu items that aren't coffee are Starbucks' different variations of hot chocolate and tea, giving the menu a boost above its already-impressive success. Of course, the signature item sold at Starbucks is their coffee, and it is consistently decadent. The flavor never fails (at a decent price, too), and for that reason, their coffee empire is now the biggest in the world. Check out all their full menu has to offer below!
Most Popular Items on Starbucks' Menu
Starbucks has an extremely diverse list of options on their menu, but even among their vast ranks of drinks. Some of the standout favorites are the Passion Tea Lemonade or the Iced Caramel Macchiato. Thanks to social media, the Starbucks Secret Menu has recently achieved some recognition, so drinks like the Captain Crunch Frappuccino or the Nutella Frappuccino are emerging. Other favorites include the Vanilla Bean Frap and the Double Chocolate Chip Frappuccino.
Starbucks Menu Prices
Item Price
FRESH FILTER COFFEE
Short
Tall $1.75
Grande $1.95
Venti $2.25
ESPRESSO
Solo $1.45
Doppio $1.75
ESPRESSO CON PANNA
Solo
Doppio
ESPRESSO MACCHIATO
Solo $2.55
Doppio $3.10
CAFFE AMERICANO
Short
Tall
Grande
Venti
CAPPUCCINO
Short
Tall
Grande - Skimmed Milk
Venti
CAFFE MISTO/CAFE AU LAIT
Short
Tall
Grande
Venti
Item Price
CAFFE LATTE
Short
Tall $2.75
Grande $3.65
Venti $3.95
CAFFE MOCHA with WHIPPED CREAM
Short
Tall $3.25
Grande $4.15
Venti $4.45
CARAMEL MACCHIATO (made with regular Vanilla flavoured syrup)
Short
Tall $3.55
Grande $4.35
Venti $4.65
VANILLA LATTE (Flavoured Latte)
Short
Tall $3.25
Grande $4.15
Venti $4.45
Item Price
WHITE CHOCOLATE MOCHA WHIPPED CREAM
Short
Tall $3.55
Grande $4.35
Venti $4.65
HAZELNUT MOCHA with WHIPPED CREAM (Flavoured Mocha)
Short
Tall $3.55
Grande $4.35
Venti $4.65
PEPPERMINT MOCHA with WHIPPED CREAM and drizzle
Short
Tall $3.55
Grande $4.35
Venti $4.65
BREWED TEA
Short
Tall $1.95
Grande $2.15
Venti $2.45
TAZO CHAI TEA LATTE
Short
Tall $3.15
Grande $3.65
Venti $3.95
Item Price
SIGNATURE HOT CHOCOLATE * with WHIPPED CREAM
Short
Tall $2.30
Grande $2.55
Venti $2.80
CLASSIC HOT CHOCOLATE with WHIPPED CREAM
Short
Tall $2.30
Grande $2.55
Venti $2.80
SEASONAL OFFERINGS
COCOA CAPPUCCINO
Short
Tall
Grande
Venti
Item Price
ADD-INS
WHIPPED CREAM TOPPING (No Spinkles or Drizzle)
HOT Short Beverage - 16 g
HOT Tall Beverage - 19g
HOT Grande/Venti Beverage -
COLD Tall Beverage - 25 g
COLD Grande Beverage -
COLD Venti Beverage - 32g
FLAVOURED SYRUP
1 Pump - 1/4 fl oz - 10 g
2 Pumps - 1/2 fl oz - 20 g
3 Pumps - 3/4 fl oz - 30 g
4 Pumps - 1 fl oz - 40 g
BAR MOCHA SYRUP
1 Pump - 1/2 fl oz - 17 g
2 Pumps - 1 fl oz - 34 g
3 Pumps - 1 1/2 fl oz - 51 g
4 Pumps - 2 fl oz - 68 g
5 Pumps - 2 1/2 fl oz - 85 g
TOPPINGS
Chocolate - 4 g
Caramel - 4 g
Sprinkles - 1 g
Item Price
COLD BEVERAGES
ICED COFFEE
Tall $1.95
Grande $2.45
Venti $2.95
Trenta $3.45
ICED CAFFE AMERICANO
Tall
Grande
Venti
ICED CAFFE LATTE
Tall
Grande
Venti
ICED CAFFE MOCHA with WHIPPED CREAM
Tall $3.25
Grande $4.15
Venti $4.45
ICED CARAMEL MACCHIATO
Tall $3.55
Grande $4.35
Venti $4.75
ICED TAZO CHAI TEA LATTE
Tall $3.15
Grande $3.65
Venti $3.95
Item Price
ICED VANILLA LATTE (Flavoured * Latte)
Tall $3.25
Grande $4.15
Venti $4.45
ICED HAZELNUT MOCHA with WHIPPED CREAM (Flavoured Mocha)
Tall $3.55
Grande $4.35
Venti $4.65
FRAPPUCCINO® BLENDED COFFEE
COFFEE
Tall $2.95
Grande $3.75
Venti $4.25
MOCHA with WHIPPED CREAM
Tall $3.75
Grande $4.25
Venti $4.75
ESPRESSO
Tall
Grande
Venti
CARAMEL with WHIPPED CREAM
Tall $3.75
Grande $4.25
Venti $4.75
JAVA CHIP with WHIPPED CREAM
Tall $3.75
Grande $4.25
Venti $4.75
VANILLA COFFEE with WHIPPED CREAM (Flavoured Coffee)
Tall $3.75
Grande $4.25
Venti $4.75
WHITE CHOCOLATE MOCHA with WHIPPED CREAM
Tall $3.75
Grande $4.25
Venti $4.75
FRAPPUCCINO® LIGHT BLENDED COFFEE
COFFEE
Tall $2.95
Grande $3.75
Venti $4.25
CARAMEL
Tall $3.75
Grande $4.25
Venti $4.75
Item Price
MOCHA
Short $3.75
Grande $4.25
Venti $4.75
ESPRESSO
Short
Grande
Venti
FRAPPUCCINO® BLENDED CRÈME
VANILLA CREAM with WHIPPED CREAM (Flavored Cream Frappuccino)
Tall $3.75
Grande $4.25
Venti $4.75
STRAWBERRIES AND CREAM with WHIPPED CREAM
Tall $3.75
Grande $4.25
Venti $4.75
CARAMEL CREAM with WHIPPED CREAM
Tall $3.75
Venti $4.25
CHOCOLATE CREAM with WHIPPED CREAM
Tall $3.75
Grande $4.25
CHOCOLATE CREAM CHIP with WHIPPED CREAM
Short
Tall $3.75
Grande $4.25
Venti $4.75
FRAPPUCCINO BLENDED JUICE DRINK
MANGO PASSION FRUIT FRAPPUCCINO (With Passion Tea)
Short
Tall $3.75
Grande $4.25
Venti $4.75
RASPBERRY BLACKCURRENT FRAPPUCCINO (With Zen Tea)
Tall $3.75
Grande $4.25
Venti $4.75
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The McDonalds Pie McFlurry may be delicious, but Starbucks' Apple Pie Frappuccino is a whole new flavor. It mixes a creamy froth of apple juice, ice, caramel syrup, and cinnamon syrup to target every taste bud on your tongue.
If the barista doesn't know how to make it, show them the secret recipe:
1. Fill up to the first line with cream
2. Fill up to the 2nd line with apple juice
3. 2 pumps Cinnamon Dolce Syrup
4. 2 pumps caramel syrup
5. Fill with ice & blend
Previously a double chocolate chip frappuccino addict, I had one taste of this treat and was turned. Now when I go to Starbucks, the decision is not so easy. Try it today and see if it turns you too.
Starbucks Banana Cream Pie Frappuccino
Starbucks has a knack for taking all of the deliciousness of a pie, and putting it into one incredible, icy drink you can buy. They do just this and more with the Banana Cream Pie Frappuccino, mixing hazelnut, vanilla, and banana for a rich, icy delicacy.
If they don't recognize your order, ask for a Vanilla Bean Cream Frappuccino and ask for an extra pump of vanilla and hazelnut syrup plus a whole banana blended in. You won't be disappointed.
Starbucks Biscotti Frappuccino
Cost: Frappuccino + Biscotti
Want some more substance to your frappuccino? Looking to fill yourself up more with your drink? Check out the biscotti frappuccino, a combination of biscotti blended into any Starbucks frappuccino of your liking.
It's as easy as asking the barista to blend in biscotti for you. In my opinion, too much texture in a drink isn't preferable, but for those looking to spice things up, I suggest you give it a try.
Starbucks Butterbeer Frappuccino
Calling all Harry Potter fans! Have you ever wanted to try the butterbeer that Hogwarts students would constantly enjoy on their trips to Hogsmeade? You're in luck. Starbucks, an avid competitor of The Three Broomsticks, has created a Butterbeer Frappuccino (that doesn't impair house elves) and tastes incredible.
Aiming to mimic the flavors in butterbeer, it combines Toffee Nut and Caramel Creme for a cup of icy goodness.
If you ask your barista for a Butterbeer Frappuccino, however, they'll be a little confused. It's a simple order, really. Order a Vanilla Bean Frappuccino, and ask for an extra 1-2 pumps of caramel syrup and toffee nut syrup, with caramel drizzle on top, and you have your very own Butterbeer.
Starbucks Birthday Cake Batter Frappuccino
Looking for the delicious taste of cake batter but not the carbs? Check out Starbucks' innovative solution to this problem, the Cake Batter Frappuccino. It's a refined taste, combining vanilla and almond to make the perfect mix.
To order one for yourself, just ask for a Vanilla Bean Creme Frappuccino with almond flavoring on top. I'm not sure how this combination manages to mimic cake batter, but it does so excellently and tickles your taste buds.
Starbucks Candy Cane Frappuccino
Get a taste of the holidays on a year-round basis. It has all the delicious flavor of a vanilla frappuccino with a peppermint twist that'll get your taste buds hooked.
To get one yourself, order a Vanilla Bean Frappuccino and ask for 1-2 pumps of peppermint syrup to top it off. Whether you're in the Christmas spirit or just looking for something new, it's an awesome choice for a delectable drink.
Starbucks Captain Crunch Berry Frappuccino
If you're a fan of Captain Crunch Berry cereal, then this is definitely the drink for you. This is one of the most popular items on the secret menu due to its mass appeal - anyone who likes Captain Crunch loves this drink.
It's a pretty diverse combination of flavors. Ask your barista for a Strawberries and Creme Frappuccino, but add one pump each of caramel, hazelnut, and toffee syrup, topped with java chips. It's hard to imagine these flavors make a Captain Crunch imitation, but this is the closest you'll come to it in liquid form. See for yourself if it compares to the cereal.
Starbucks Chocolate Covered Strawberry Frappuccino
No, there aren't any chocolate covered strawberries ground up into this drink. But it's an even sweeter version of the delicacy, converted into liquid form.
To order one, just ask for a Strawberries and Creme Frappuccino, topped with java chips and mocha drizzle. Though this isn't one of the most popular secret menu items, it's definitely one of the sweetest.
Starbucks Chocolate Cream Frappuccino
Want to take a boring Frappuccino and make it delicious? It's as simple as one ingredient: chocolate. Your mocha or coffee frappuccino will keep you awake, sure, but it lacks that tantalizingly sweet cocoa that will make you actually crave it.
Just ask your barista to add 1-2 of chocolate syrup and it'll transform your boring frappuccino into an addicting dessert that keeps you going throughout the day. Careful: try it once, and there's no doubt you'll be hooked.
Starbucks Cinnamon Roll Frappuccino
Achieve the irresistible flavor of a warm cinnamon roll in the form of a refreshing Starbucks drink. This simple modification to an already incredibly successful drink makes for a sweet change from the normal vanilla frappuccino.
To order one, just ask for a Vanilla Bean Creme Frappuccino with two extra pumps of cinnamon dolce syrup. Voila! You have a drinkable cinnamon roll.
Starbucks Cinnamon Toast Crunch Frappuccino
They managed to mimic the flavor of a cinnamon roll, so how could they pinpoint a flavor even more distinct, like that of the outrageously popular Cinnamon Toast Crunch cereal? I was skeptical at first, too, but the flavor is remarkably similar, perhaps even better.
Don't limit your Cinnamon Toast Crunch to a bowl at breakfast, but at anytime in the day, on the go, or just at home. It's the perfect solution for cereal addicts everywhere.
To make this combination, order a White Mocha Frappuccino, with a pump each of cinnamon dolce syrup and hazelnut syrup, and with cinnamon sugar on top. There you have it! Your very own bowl of Cinnamon Toast Crunch...in a drink. Enjoy, and try not to forget about the cereal once you try this delectable treat.
Starbucks Oreo/Cookies and Cream Frappuccino
This is a combination of two of my favorite things: my original favorite frappuccino, the Double Chocolate Chip Frappuccino, and my favorite flavor of ice cream, cookies and cream. The drink mimics the ice cream flavor perfectly, while still retaining the chocolatey goodness in the original frappuccino flavor.
This is one of my favorite drinks/desserts ever, let alone just at Starbucks. I would recommend it as one of the top 3 best drinks on their menu, definitely.
To order it yourself, just ask for a Double Chocolate Chip Frappuccino with White Mocha sauce instead of the regular sauce. You won't regret it.
Starbucks Cotton Candy Frappuccino
Bring the fair to the coffee shop with this powerfully sweet treat. Don't eat a cotton lump of pure sugar; rather, down a refreshingly cold vanilla drink with a raspberry accent.
One of the more popular items on the secret menu, the Cotton Candy Frappuccino is in high demand. Get one yourself by ordering a Vanilla Bean Frappuccino with 1-2 extra pumps of raspberry syrup. Who needs the fair when you have Starbucks?
Starbucks Ferrero Rocher Frappuccino
This is decadence in a drink. Short of dropping a box of the rich chocolates into a blender and throwing it into a drink, there's no way it can be imitated, right?
Wrong. Like always, Starbucks found a way. It uses my favorite drink, the luscious Double Chocolate Chip Frappuccino in tandem with a combination of rich ingredients to create a drink that matches the flavor of Ferrero Rocher's delectable chocolates.
To order one, just ask for a Double Chocolate Chip Frappuccino with 2-3 pumps mocha syrup, 1-2 pumps hazelnut syrup, and a hazelnut drizzle on top. The end result is certain: sheer saccharine goodness.
Starbucks French Vanilla Frappuccino
Walking the line between frappuccino and milkshake, this treat is a clever copy of the french vanilla flavor so often sought after in ice cream flavors, especially. It adds sweet caramel to the vanilla and hazelnut mix, forming the best possible imitation of french vanilla in a drink.
If you want to order one of your own, ask for a Vanilla Bean Frappuccino with 1-2 pumps each of vanilla and hazelnut syrup with a caramel drizzle on top. It's remarkable how changing just one ingredient gives a drink a completely different flavor, but the result are evident. Try one out and see for yourself just how "french vanilla" this frappuccino is.
Starbucks Fruity Pebbles Frappuccino
Starbucks has this habit of taking wildly popular breakfast cereals and making them into an irresistible drink. They're pretty good at it, too. While the Fruity Pebbles Frappuccino doesn't pack the same crunch that a bowl of cereal does, it offers an icy froth of flavor, even sweeter than the cereal.
So, for those of you with a sweet tooth and an affinity for Fruity Pebbles, Starbucks has your fix all day, every day.
Order one by asking for a Strawberry and Creme Frappuccino with 2 pumps vanilla syrup, 1 pump raspberry syrup, and a little bit of orange-mango juice (if possible), though it's not necessary. This drink is sure to hook people - Fruity Pebble fans or not - after one sip.
Starbucks Grasshopper Frappuccino
A slight variation of the well-known but still secret menu item, Thin Mints Frappuccino, this drink offers a taste perhaps even better than its more-popular brother. This version, however, mimics mint-chocolate chip ice cream more than the Girl Scout cookie.
Ordering one is as simple as asking for a Mocha Frappuccino with java chips and 1-2 pumps of peppermint syrup. Give it a try and see whether you're a cookie monster or an ice cream addict.
Neapolitan Frappuccino
Achieve the flavor of the classic milkshake by combining chocolate, vanilla and strawberry in one delicious frappuccino. Though Starbucks uses a slightly different approach than a standard milkshake, it's a refreshing treat that hits on all of the major flavors for those who want diversity in their drink.
To order one for yourself, set a strawberry base with a Strawberrys and Creme Frappuccino with 2 pumps of mocha syrup, vanilla bean syrup, and chocolate drizzle on top. Thus, you form the perfect combination of the three flavors for the better-than-neapolitan frappuccino.
Starbucks Pumpkin Pie Frappuccino
I'm sure you've seen all the girls on Twitter or Instagram talking about how the only reason they're excited for Fall is the Pumpkin Spice Latte. Well, that's not the only irresistible drink that's available only during October and November. The Pumpkin Pie Frappuccino takes all the deliciousness of the Pumpkin Spice line and adds its own elements like cinnamon and whipped cream.
To see if this modification can actually triumph over the Pumpkin Spice enterprise, you can order a Pumpkin Spice Frappuccino with 1-2 pumps of cinnamon dolce syrup, whipped cream blended in, and cinnamon dolce sprinkles on top of it. Try it for yourself, and maybe this is the next drink to await eagerly for the Fall.
Starbucks Raspberry Cheesecake Mocha Frappuccino
Why settle for a boring mocha frappuccino? In fact, why even settle for a white chocolate mocha frappuccino? There are better flavors on the horizon. Starbucks has managed to pinpoint a way to mimic the rich flavor of a raspberry cheesecake in liquid form. This combination of rich and fruity is the perfect balance between the decadence of cheesecake and the natural flavor of fruit.
Order one for yourself by asking for a White Chocolate Mocha Frappuccino with 1-3 pumps of raspberry syrup, with the option of vanilla sprinkles on top. Its rich flavor is sure to convert you to a raspberry cheesecake fanatic.
Starbucks S'mores Frappuccino
Anyone who's had s'mores before know that they want some more. Knowing that, Starbucks found a way to mimic that irresistible flavor in an icy, refreshing frappuccino. If you have a taste for chocolate, you're sure to love this delicious drink.
To get one of your own, order a Java Chip Frappuccino with a pump each of cinnamon dolce syrup and toffee nut syrup, with whipped cream blended in and on top. It's the secret recipe to the ultimate chocolate refreshment.
Starbucks Super Cream Frappuccino
For the frappuccino fiend looking for a consistency closer to that of a milkshake, this is the drink for you. Essentially, it's taking any one of your favorite frappuccinos and asking for it to be blended with heavy cream instead of the regular.
The effect is a richer flavor and a thicker drink. If you want the extra decadence and consistency, ask for heavy cream, and try out a whole new way to get your frappuccinos.
Starbucks Teddy Graham Frappuccino
Take a fondly remembered snack from childhood and combine it with the rich flavored coffee that gets you through a day in the real world, and you have the ultimate frappuccino. Sweet cinnamon and honey overpower the flavor of coffee to give it the flavor of a crunchy little Teddy Graham, with the refreshment that comes with an iced drink.
To try one for yourself, just ask for a coffee frappuccino with a pump each of cinnamon dolce and vanilla syrup, and honey. It's the perfect recipe for a childhood favorite in a cup.
Thin Mint Frappuccino
Wait, you can do that? Most people hear the "Thin Mint Frappuccino" and instantly want to try it for themselves. I won't try to convince you. The allure of an icy cool mint combination of a Thin Mint with rich chocolate syrup all mashed into one refreshing frappuccino should be plenty to reel you in.
To see what all the hype's about, order a Tazo Green Tea Creme Frappuccino with two pumps of chocolate syrup, 1 of mint syrup, java chips, and honey. Mix it all together and you have one of the greatest frappuccino innovations in history. Trust me, you'll be a fanatic after just one sip.
Starbucks Twix Frappuccino
The picture of decadence in one drink. A beautiful compilation of rich chocolate, caramel, hazelnut and mocha, this drink masterfully mimics the irresistible flavors of Twix in the form of an icy frappuccino. For any avid Twix lover, or just a chocolate fan, trying the Twix Frappuccino is a must.
Order one by asking for a caramel frappuccino with 1-2 pumps each of caramel and hazelnut syrup, java chips, and caramel and mocha drizzle on top. It has a fairly high number of ingredients because it takes a lot to make a drink this rich. Not much compares. Try it today and make the comparison yourself.
Starbucks Zebra Mocha Frappuccino
As the last frappuccino on the Starbucks secret menu list, the Zebra Mocha goes out with a bang by delivering richness and popularity comparable to the most raved-about items on the list. It combines white chocolate, chocolate, and mocha in a delicious, creamy masterpiece.
To get one of your own, ask for a frappuccino - half chocolate and half white chocolate - with a chocolate drizzle and chocolate chips on top. Sounds like a lot of chocolate, because, well...it is. And that's what makes it one of the most irresistibly sweet items on the menu.
Lattes
Starbucks Butterbeer Latte (Hot)
If you want the classic Harry Potter flavor of a hot Butterbeer for a cold night in Hogsmeade, this is the perfect alteration to the Butterbeer Frappuccino for you. It offers everything the frappuccino does and more, with a blast of caffeine to wake you up.
To try out this literally hot commodity, order whole milk steamer with 2-4 pumps each of caramel, toffee nut, and cinnamon dolce syrup, whipped cream and salted caramel bits on top, with some shots of espresso (optional). Try it out and see if you too will be hooked on the warm buttery deliciousness that Starbucks so flawlessly recreated.
Starbucks Chocolate Pumpkin Spice Latte
This cocoa-packed spinoff on the acclaimed Pumpkin Spice Latte is where rich decadence meets traditional flavor. The outrageously popular fall latte is only made better when you add delicious chocolate syrup to the equation.
Ask for a Pumpkin Spice Latte with 2 extra pumps of chocolate syrup to try one for yourself. Chocolate drizzle on top isn't a half bad idea, either. No matter what, you're sure to have a latte experience that'll change your fall buying habits forever.
Starbucks Three C's Latte
Caramel, Cinnamon, and Chocolate - the three best C flavors in the world, all in one irresistible latte. With cinnamon overpowering the other two, this drink is the perfect balance of flavors for a cinnamon fan who wants a taste of the other options.
To get your hands on one, just ask for a Cinnamon Dolce Latte with 2 pumps of chocolate syrup and 1 pump of caramel syrup. Its combination of decadent flavors makes it sure to win the hearts of cinnamon lovers everywhere.
Macchiatos
Starbucks Caramel Snickerdoodle Macchiato
How this mixture of flavors manages to mimic a caramel snickerdoodle, I'm not sure, but the exquisite taste of Soy Caramel Macchiato seamlessly blended into a sea of vanilla and cinnamon makes for a close copy. The only difference is this version is cool, refreshing, and caffeinated.
Order one by asking for an Iced Soy Caramel Macchiato, upside-down, with 1-2 pumps each of vanilla and cinnamon dolce syrup. This combo with the upside-down macchiato makes for a smooth blend of flavors that few can rival.
Starbucks Raspberry Caramel Macchiato
Raspberry and caramel? The combination of the two flavors almost sounds a little bit absurd in a cold macchiato from Starbucks. Its creation, however, is really quite simple.
The drink is one of the most interesting looking items on the secret menu, with a bright red coloring throughout the drink that fades to a darker shade at the top, where the caramel resides. That part is also the most delicious, with the two flavors making a surprisingly compatible flavor combination.
To see for yourself about this interesting drink, just order a regular Caramel Macchiato, but substitute raspberry syrup in place of vanilla syrup. It makes for a unique flavor that'll quench your thirst, but never your desire to get more.
Specialty Drinks
Starbucks Red Eye
This drink is simply a regular drip coffee with an extra shot of espresso in your cup. It's not quite super-caffeinated, but enough to give you a boost to get through the morning. If you're a caffeine fiend who needs more to get by, fear not: there are other, more extreme options.
To get your hands on a Red Eye just ask for an extra shot of espresso in your cup of any drip coffee. A little extra caffeine can go a long way.
Starbucks Black Eye
This is the drink that you should order if you're trying to avoid dosing off at your desk at work. It packs a powerful punch, with a full cup of drip coffee and two extra shots of espresso, but doesn't quite match the level of the Green Eye.
Order one by asking for a cup of Regular Drip Coffee plus 2 Espresso shots. You'll be wide awake for quite awhile with this one.
Starbucks Green Eye
Falling asleep while standing up? Sleeping through alarms? Can't manage to focus during your 7:30 am class, that first hour at work, or when the weariness of the day starts to set in?
Sounds like you need Starbucks' Green Eye, a caffeine overload so strong that it'll keep you alert and productive all day. It's a full cup of Regular Drip Coffee with three shots of espresso. By that point, I'm pretty sure you'll have more caffeine in your veins than blood, but hey, whatever gets you through the day.
To order one, get a cup of Regular Drip Coffee with 3 extra Espresso shots. I wouldn't recommend ordering it after the early afternoon, but it's sure to keep you focused on whatever you're working on.
Starbucks Liquid Cocaine
It doesn't get much more intense than this. Starbucks' Liquid Cocaine, the name derived from users being as wired as a cocaine user due to the overload of caffeine.
The drink, a Venti coffee with four shots of espresso in it, and some white chocolate flavor to outweigh the coffee flavor, is exceedingly powerful. Liquid Cocaine has about 5x the amount of caffeine in your standard cup of coffee, which is often plenty to keep people wide awake for hours.
If you think you have it in you to down this massive amount of caffeine in one sitting, just ask for ice to fill a Grande cup, 4 shots Espresso, 4 pumps white chocolate syrup, and fill the rest with milk so you can stomach it.
In times of desperation, this cup may be your fix to keeping yourself awake, but I wouldn't recommend making it a regular thing. As a last resort to remaining conscious, however, Liquid Cocaine will always do the job.
Starbucks Chocolate Dalmatian
For those who are fans of chocolate and even bigger fans of white chocolate, this drink will make all of your dreams come true. Comprised of a milky sea of white chocolate deliciousness speckled with chocolate and java chips, the drink is one of the most popular secret menu items.
To order one for yourself, just ask for a Hot White Chocolate Mocha with java chips and chocolate chips. Try it and you're sure to be hooked on the delicacy of the Dalmatian.
Starbucks Dirty Chai
This is one of the DIY secret menu items that's hardly different from the regular menu, but definitely makes a difference in effect. It's just a Chai Latte with an extra shot of espresso. That espresso can go a long way, however.
Ask your barista for a Dirty Chai, and they'll probably know what you're getting at, but if not, just ask for another shot of espresso in your latte. Enough to keep your chai flavor and add in the extra caffeine to get you through the day.
The Undertow
The undertow is a small, sugary coffee that's different than most. It's made of regular coffee with a splash of milk at the bottom, your favorite flavor, and to make things interesting, two shots of espresso to chug from the top.
To order one for yourself, just ask for a Drip Coffee with three pumps of any syrup, a splash of milk, and 2 shots of espresso at the top. Down this tasty treat and you'll have the juice to stay awake for hours.
Starbucks Strawberry Lemonade
On a hot day when caffeine or mocha doesn't sound good, enjoy this sweet treat.
It's just what it sounds like. Simply order by name, and a barista can make it for you.
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Sunday, July 5, 2015
Breakfast Calories Carbs Fat Protein Sodium Sugar
Farm Fresh Egg-Land's Best - 18 Large Grade Aa Eggs Large, 1 egg (50g) 70 0 4 6 65 0
Fresh & Easy - Finely Shredded Cheddar and Monterey Jack Cheese Blend, 0.5 fluid ounce 28 0 2 2 43 0
Lucerne - Whole Milk Vitamin D, 0.13 cup 20 2 1 1 16 2
Kirkland Signature (Costco) - Salted Sweet Cream Butter Teaspoon, 1 tsp 33 0 4 0 30 0
Romero's - Flour Tortillas Casera Style, 2 Tortilla 154 28 4 4 290 2
Add Food Quick Tools 305 30 15 13 443 4
Lunch
Add Food Quick Tools Dinner
Vegetable - Sweet White Corn on the Cob, 2 ear (6-3/4" - 7-1/2" long) 166 39 2 6 26 6
Kirkland - Salted Sweet Cream Butter 1tespoon, 2 tespoon 66 0 66 0 0 0
Add Food Quick Tools 232 39 68 6 26 6
Snacks
Hershies Chocolate Syrup - Chocolate Syrup, 1 tbsp 50 12 0 0 8 10
great value - whipped cream, 1 tbsp 13 1 2 0 0 1
Dreyer's - Chocolate Fudge Brownie Ice Cream, 1 cup 400 48 20 6 90 38
Bryers - Triple Chocolate Gelato, 1 cup 320 46 14 6 140 34
Hershies Chocolate Syrup - Chocolate Syrup, 0.5 tbsp 25 6 0 0 4 5
Add Food Quick Tools 808 113 36 12 241 88
Totals 1,345 181 118 31 710 97
Your Daily Goal 1,560 195 52 78 2,300 59
Remaining 215 14 -66 47 1,589 -38
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All suggestions based on a Tall serving (354 ml / 12 fl oz). Canadian and U.S. soymilk vary slightly
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Hot Beverages (Tall - 354 ml/12 fl oz)
Brewed Tazo® Tea
Brewed Coffee
Caffè Americano
Nonfat Cappuccino
Skinny Vanilla Latte Nonfat Caramel Macchiato Caffè Latte
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Delicious Sips with 200 Calories or Less
Hot Beverages (Tall - 354 ml/12 fl oz)
Brewed Tazo® Tea
Brewed Coffee
Caffè Americano
Nonfat Cappuccino
Skinny Vanilla Latte Nonfat Caramel Macchiato Caffè Latte
Nonfat Vanilla Crème - Hold the Whip Tazo® Full-Leaf Tea Lattes
Awake,TM Earl Grey, Vanilla Rooibos
Nonfat Caffè Mocha - Hold the Whip Soy Tazo® Chai Tea Latte
Steamed Apple Juice
0 cal 4 cal 10 cal 60 cal 100 cal 140 cal 150 cal 150 cal 140 cal 170 cal 160 cal 170 cal
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Cold Beverages (Tall - 354 ml/12 fl oz)
Shaken Iced Tazo® PassionTM Tea (Unsweetened)
Iced Brewed Coffee (with Classic Syrup) Iced Skinny Latte
Caramel Frappuccino® Light Blended Coffee Shaken Iced Tazo® Tea Lemonade
Iced Vanilla Latte
Nonfat Iced Caramel Macchiato Coffee Frappuccino® Blended Coffee
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60 cal 60 cal
100 cal 100 cal
140 cal 140 cal
180 cal
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There's no "right" way to order your drink, but there are lots
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Choose your espresso.
Decaf - When you want the full flavour but not all the caffeine.
Extra Shots - Add a shot or two for more of that coffee flavour.
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Choose a syrup.
We have many different flavours to sweeten or spice up a drink, including sugar-free options.
For less or more sweetness,
just tell us the number of pumps you would like.
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Choose your milk.
Your choices include 2% (reduced-fat) milk, nonfat milk, whole milk, organic soymilk or Lactaid® (in select locations).
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Sugar Substitute - Equal,® SPLENDA® or Sweet'N Low® brand sweeteners.
Extra Hot - We steam our milk to around 70 degrees C (160 degrees F), but some like it hotter.
Whipped Cream (or Not) - Add a little fun to your drink or ask us to hold off.
Frappuccino® blended beverage.
Choose your milk.
Adjust your coffee for more coffee flavour. Try it "light" for 1⁄3 fewer calories.
Choose or adjust syrups.
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Cup Sizes
Hot and Cold Beverages
Short 236 ml (8 fl oz)
Tall 354 ml (12 fl oz
Grande 473 ml (16 fl oz)
Venti 591 ml (hot) (20 fl oz)
Venti 709 ml (cold) (24 fl oz)
Caffeine Content
Caffeine information is approximate and is based on limited analytical data. These values reflect Starbucks standard brewing methods. Values can vary greatly depending on many factors, including the variety of the coffee beans and the brewing method. The handcrafted nature of our beverages may result in a variation from the reported values.
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75 mg caffeine per shot
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Short 3
Tall 4
Grande 5 0.1 0 0
Venti 5 0.1 0 0
_Classic Espresso Drinks_
Espresso
Solo 5 000001
Doppio 10 0 0 0 0 12
Skinny Latte (Any Flavour)
Short NonfatMilk 60 0.1 0.1 0 5 80 9
Tall NonfatMilk 100 0.2 0.1 0 5 125 14
Grande NonfatMilk 120 0.3 0.2 0 5 160 18
Venti NonfatMilk 160 0.3 0.2 0 10 200 24
_Signature Espresso Drinks_
Tazo® Chai Tea Latte
Nonfat Milk 160
2% Milk 190
Soymilk 160
Nonfat Milk 210
2% Milk 240
Soymilk 220
Nonfat Milk 260
2% Milk 310
Soymilk 280
Calories
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g)
Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg)
Sodium (mg)
Total Carbohydrates (g)
Dietary Fibre (g)
Sugars (g)
Protein (g)
Vitamin A (% DV)
Vitamin C (% DV)
Calcium (% DV)
Iron (% DV)
Caffeine (mg)
0 0 0 0% 0% 0 0 0 0% 0% 0 0 0 0% 0% 0 0 0 0% 0%
0 0 0 0
0.1 0
2 0.1 15
5 10 10 10
75 85 65
0 0 0.4 0% 0% 0 0 1 0% 0%
0 86 10% 0%
0% 0% 75 0% 0% 150
20% 0% 75 30% 0% 75 35% 0% 150 50% 0% 150
15% 0% 75 15% 0% 75 15% 8% 75 25% 0% 75 25% 0% 75 25% 10% 75 35% 0% 150 30% 0% 150 35% 15% 150 40% 0% 150 40% 0% 150 40% 20% 150
25% 0% 75 25% 0% 75 25% 8% 75 35% 0% 75 35% 0% 75 35% 10% 75 45% 2% 150 45% 0% 150 45% 15% 150 60% 2% 150 60% 2% 150 60% 20% 150
20% 10% 10 20% 10% 10 20% 20% 10 30% 20% 20 30% 20% 20 30% 30% 20 40% 25% 25 40% 25% 25 40% 40% 25 50% 30% 30 50% 30% 30 50% 50% 30
0% 0% 0 0% 0% 0 0% 0% 0 0% 0% 0
0% 0% Varies 0% 0% Varies 0% 0% Varies 0% 0% Varies
10% 0% 50 10% 0% 50 10% 6% 50
Tall
Grande
Venti
0 5 80 0.1 15 90 0 0 70
0.1 0 0 0.1 0 0
05 105
0.4
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Caffè Latte
Short
Nonfat Milk 70
2% Milk 0.1
Soymilk 100
Tall
Nonfat Milk 3.5
2% Milk 70
Soymilk 100
Grande
Nonfat Milk 2.5
2% Milk 2.5
Soymilk 100
Venti
Nonfat Milk 0.2
2% Milk 5
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g)
Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg)
Sodium (mg)
Total Carbohydrates (g)
Dietary Fibre (g)
Sugars (g)
Protein (g)
Vitamin A (% DV)
Vitamin C (% DV)
Calcium (% DV)
Iron (% DV)
Caffeine (mg)
Short Nonfat Milk
2% Milk
Soymilk
Tall Nonfat Milk
2% Milk
Soymilk Grande Nonfat Milk
2% Milk
Soymilk Venti Nonfat Milk
2% Milk
70 0.1 100 3.5 70 2.5 100 0.2
5
Caramel Macchiato
Calories
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g)
Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg)
Sodium (mg)
Total Carbohydrates (g)
Dietary Fibre (g)
Sugars (g)
Protein (g)
Vitamin A (% DV)
Vitamin C (% DV)
Calcium (% DV)
Iron (% DV)
Caffeine (mg)
0 13 0 16 0 21
0 15 0 15 1 11 0 24 0 23 1 17 0 32 0 32 1 24 0 41 0 40 1 31
0 29 0 29 1 25 0 45 0 44 1 39 0 58 0 58 1 51 0 74 0 74 1 64
1 23 1 22 2 18 1 32 1 32 2 25 2 41 2 41 3 32 2 55 2 54 4 44
0 33 0 49 0 65 0 83
9 15% 0% 12 20% 0% 15 25% 0%
6 10% 0% 5 10% 0% 4 6% 0% 8 15% 0% 8 15% 0% 7 10% 0% 11 20% 0% 10 15% 2% 9 10% 0% 13 25% 0% 13 20% 2% 11 15% 0%
7 10% 0% 7 8% 2% 6 6% 0% 12 15% 2% 11 15% 2% 10 10% 2% 15 20% 2% 15 15% 2% 13 10% 2% 19 25% 2% 19 20% 4% 16 15% 2%
7 10% 0% 7 10% 0% 6 6% 0% 11 15% 0% 10 15% 0% 9 10% 0% 14 20% 0% 14 20% 2% 12 15% 0% 18 25% 0% 17 25% 2% 15 15% 0%
0 0% 0% 0 0% 0% 0 0% 0% 0 0% 0%
Caffè Mocha (Without Whipped Cream)
Short
Nonfat Milk
2% Milk
Soymilk
Tall
Nonfat Milk
2% Milk
Soymilk
Grande
Nonfat Milk
2% Milk
Soymilk
Venti
Nonfat Milk
2% Milk
Soymilk
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g)
Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg)
Sodium (mg)
Total Carbohydrates (g)
Dietary Fibre (g)
Sugars (g)
Protein (g)
Vitamin A (% DV)
Vitamin C (% DV)
Calcium (% DV)
Iron (% DV)
Caffeine (mg)
Nonfat Milk 160 2% Milk 190 Soymilk 160 Nonfat Milk 210 2% Milk 240 Soymilk 220 Nonfat Milk 260 2% Milk 310 Soymilk 280
0.2 0.1
3.5 1.5
2.5 0.3
0.2 0.1
4.5 20.120 115 3.5 0.4 0 0 90 0.3 0.2 05 135
63 0.2 25 150 4.5 0.5 00 115
0.2 0.1 0 5 85 420.115 95 3 0.4 0 0 70 0.4 0.2 05 125 63 0.2 25 140 4.5 0.5 00110 0.5 0.2 010 160 84 0.2 30 180 6100 140
34 0 32 34 0 32 31 1 28 45 0 43 45 0 42 41 1 37 57 0 54 56 0 53 51 1 46
26 0 25 26 0 25 22 1 20 42 1 41 41 1 40 36 2 33 57 1 56 57 1 55 50 3 46 73 2 71 72 2 71 64 4 58
16 0 16 15 0 15 14 0 13 23 0 23 23 0 23 21 1 19 31 0 31 31 0 30 27 1 25 39 0 39 38 0 38 34 1 32
16 0 16 15 0 15 14 0 13 23 0 23 23 0 23 21 1 19 31 0 31 31 0 30 27 1 25 39 0 39
6 10% 6 10% 5 6% 8 15% 8 10% 6 8% 10 15% 10 15% 8 10%
0% 20% 0% 20% 0% 20% 0% 25% 0% 25% 0% 25% 0% 35% 2% 30% 0% 30%
2% 70 2% 70 10% 70 2% 95 2% 95 10% 95 2% 120 2% 120 15% 120
2% 25 2% 25 10% 25 4% 55 4% 55 15% 55 4% 80 4% 80 25% 80 6% 110 6% 110 30% 110
Vanilla Latte (Or Other Flavoured Latte) Short
Nonfat Milk
2% Milk
Soymilk
Tall
Nonfat Milk
2% Milk
Soymilk
Grande
Nonfat Milk
2% Milk
Soymilk
Venti
Nonfat Milk
2% Milk
Soymilk
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g)
Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg)
Sodium (mg)
Total Carbohydrates (g)
Dietary Fibre (g)
Sugars (g)
Protein (g)
Vitamin A (% DV)
Vitamin C (% DV)
Calcium (% DV)
Iron (% DV)
Caffeine (mg)
Other Flavoured Latte)
15 9
0.2 35 330 77 05290 70
100 0.1 130 3.5 110 2.5 150 0.2 200 5 160 4 200 0.3 250 6 210 5 250 0.3 320 9 270 7
5 0 10 0 15 0 25 0
0.1 1.5 0.3 0.1 2.5 0.5 0.2 3.5 0.5 0.2 4.5
0 5 70 0.1 15 80 0 0 60
05110 0.2 20 125 0 0 95 05140 0.2 25 150 00120 010180 0.3 35 200
13 6
Nonfat Milk 130 1.5 1 0 5 70 26
Caffè Americano
Short
Tall
Grande
Venti
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g)
Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg)
Sodium (mg)
Total Carbohydrates (g)
Dietary Fibre (g)
Sugars (g)
Protein (g)
Vitamin A (% DV)
Vitamin C (% DV)
Calcium (% DV)
Iron (% DV)
Caffeine (mg)
Short
Tall
Grande
Venti
2%Milk 150 4.5 2.5 0.1 15 80 26 Soymilk1303.510060 23 NonfatMilk 190 2 1 0 5 110 37 2%Milk 230 7 3.5 0.2 20 120 37 Soymilk20061.50095 32 NonfatMilk 240 2.5 1.5 0 5 140 48 2%Milk 290 9 5 0.2 25 160 47 Soymilk2507200125 41 NonfatMilk 320 3 2 0 10 180 63 2%Milk 380 11 6 0.3 35 200 63 Soymilk 330 9 2.5 0 0 160 55
Cappuccino Short NonfatMilk
2% Milk
Soymilk
Tall Nonfat Milk
2% Milk
Soymilk Grande Nonfat Milk
2% Milk
Soymilk Venti Nonfat Milk
2% Milk Soymilk
110 1.5 1 0 5 60 130 4 2 0.1 10 70 110 3.5 1 0 0 55 170 2105100 200 6 3.5 0.1 20 115 180 5 1.5 0 0 85 220 2.5 1.505125 260 8 4.5 0.2 25 140 230 7200105 280 32010160 340 1160.230180 290 9 2.500140
Cappuccino
Short
Tall
Grande
Venti
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g)
Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg)
Sodium (mg)
Total Carbohydrates (g)
Dietary Fibre (g)
Sugars (g)
Protein (g)
Vitamin A (% DV)
Vitamin C (% DV)
Calcium (% DV)
Iron (% DV)
Caffeine (mg)
110 1.5 1 0 5 60 130 4 2 0.1 10 70 110 3.5 1 0 0 55 170 2105100 200 6 3.5 0.1 20 115 180 5 1.5 0 0 85 220 2.5 1.505125 260 8 4.5 0.2 25 140 230 7200105 280 32010160 340 1160.230180 290 9 2.500140
Tazo® Full-Leaf Tea Latte
Calories
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g)
Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg)
Sodium (mg)
Total Carbohydrates (g) Dietary Fibre (g)
Sugars (g)
Protein (g)
Vitamin A (% DV)
Vitamin C (% DV) Calcium (% DV)
Iron (% DV)
Caffeine (mg)
110 4.5 130 0.3 190 7 150 5 170 0.4 240 9
1 7 5 1 8 7
1010130 35 3.5 0.2 25 150 34 105115 29 1010170 43 4.5 0.2 35 180 43 1.5 05140 36
010 200 0.3 40 230 8 1 00 1
Caramel Apple Spice (Without Whipped Cream)
Short 140 0 0 0 0
Tall 210 0 0 0 0
Grande 280 0 0 0 0
Venti 360 0 0 0 0
_Tazo® Tea Drinks_
Tazo® Tea
Calories
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g)
Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg)
Sodium (mg)
Total Carbohydrates (g) Dietary Fibre (g)
Sugars (g)
Protein (g)
Vitamin A (% DV)
Vitamin C (% DV) Calcium (% DV)
Iron (% DV)
Caffeine (mg)
Short 0000000
Tall 0000000
Grande 0000000
Venti 0000000
Tazo® Green Tea Latte
Short
Tall
Grande
Venti
Nonfat Milk 100
2% Milk 120
Soymilk 100
Nonfat Milk 140
2% Milk 180
Soymilk 150
Nonfat Milk 190
2% Milk 240
Soymilk 200
Nonfat Milk 240
2% Milk 300
Soymilk 250
Calories
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g)
Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg)
Sodium (mg)
Total Carbohydrates (g) Dietary Fibre (g)
Sugars (g)
Protein (g)
Vitamin A (% DV)
Vitamin C (% DV) Calcium (% DV)
Iron (% DV)
Caffeine (mg)
1 0.5 0 5 70 17 4 2 0.1 15 80 16 3 1 0 0 60 14 1 0.5 05105 25 530.120115 25
4.510090 21
White Chocolate Mocha (Without Whip Cream)
Short
Tall
Grande
Venti
Calories
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g)
Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg)
Sodium (mg)
Total Carbohydrates (g) Dietary Fibre (g)
Sugars (g)
Protein (g)
Vitamin A (% DV)
Vitamin C (% DV) Calcium (% DV)
Iron (% DV)
Caffeine (mg)
0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0
10 0 10 0 6 1 15 0 15 0 10 1 19 0 19 0 13 1 25 0 24 0 16 2
21 1 21 1 19 2 32 1 32 1 28 2 43 2 42 2 37 3 54 2 53 2 47 4
19 0 18 0 16 1 28 0 28 0 23 1 37 0 37 0 31 1 47 0 46 0 39 2
1 0 2 0 3 0 4 0
8 0 8 0 4 0 9 0 9 0 7 1 12 0 12 0
0 0 80 9 1
05120 16 0 0.2 25 135 16 0 00110 11 1
0 0.3 0% 0% 0 0.5 0% 0% 0 1 0% 0% 0 1 0% 0%
9 6 10% 0% 9 6 10% 0% 4 5 6% 0% 14 10 15% 0% 14 10 15% 0% 68 10% 0% 18 13 20% 0% 17 12 20% 2% 8 10 15% 0% 23 16 30% 0% 22 16 25% 2% 11 13 20% 0%
17 7 8% 0% 17 6 8% 0% 13 6 6% 0%
0% 0% 175 0% 0% 260 0% 0% 330 2% 0% 410
20% 0% 75 20% 0% 75 20% 8% 75 30% 0% 75 30% 0% 75 30% 15% 75 40% 0% 150 40% 0% 150 40% 15% 150 50% 0% 150 50% 0% 150 50% 25% 150
15% 10% 85 15% 10% 85 15% 20% 85 25% 20% 95 25% 20% 95 25% 30% 95 35% 25% 175 35% 25% 175 35% 40% 175 45% 30% 180 45% 30% 180 45% 50% 180
20% 0% 75 20% 0% 75 20% 8% 75 30% 0% 75 30% 0% 75 30% 15% 75 35% 0% 150 35% 0% 150 35% 15% 150 50% 0% 150 45% 0% 150 45% 20% 150
0% 0% 75 2% 0% 150 2% 0% 225 2% 0% 300
0 160
0 5 0 10 0 15 0 15
5 60 10 70 0 0 40 0 5 70 1.5 0.1 15 80
23052.50.220
125 38 100 34
0 38 1 32
0.1 0
0.4
0 0 65
0.1
120 420.115100
100 3.5 0.4 110 0.2 0.2 150 63 120 4.5 0.5
Short NonfatMilk 100 0.1 0.1 0 0 2%Milk 120 2 1 0.1 10 Soymilk 110 1.5 0.2 0 0
50 22 55 22 45 20
0 21 0 21 0 18
4 6% 0% 4 6% 0% 3 4% 0%
0 5 90
27 10 26 10 20 9 34 13 34 13 26 11 44 17 43 17 33 14
18 6 17 6 13 5 27 9 27 9 20 7 35 12 35 12 26 9 45 15 44 15 33 12
15% 0% 15% 0% 10% 0% 20% 0% 15% 2% 10% 0% 25% 0% 20% 2% 15% 0%
10% 0% 10% 0% 6% 0% 15% 0% 15% 0% 10% 0% 20% 0% 20% 2% 10% 0% 25% 0% 25% 2% 15% 0%
3205120 31 63.50.115125 31 52.50 0110 28
80 1.5 0.2
0.1 0.1 3 1.5 2.5 0.3 0.2 0.1
0 0 40
Nonfat Milk 180
2% Milk 200
Soymilk 180
Nonfat Milk 270
2% Milk 310
Soymilk 280
Nonfat Milk 350
2% Milk 400
Soymilk 370
Nonfat Milk 450 7 6 2% Milk 510
Nonfat Milk
2% Milk
Soymilk
Nonfat Milk
2% Milk
Soymilk
Nonfat Milk
2% Milk
Soymilk
Nonfat Milk
2% Milk
Soymilk 210
Soymilk 460
Hot Chocolate (Without Whipped Cream)
Calories
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g)
Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg)
Sodium (mg)
Total Carbohydrates (g) Dietary Fibre (g)
Sugars (g)
Protein (g)
Vitamin A (% DV)
Vitamin C (% DV) Calcium (% DV)
Iron (% DV)
Caffeine (mg)
4.53.505190 47 960.120200 46 83.50 0170 42 6 4.5 0 10240 61
120 140 130 150 190 170 190 230
0 5 65 0.1 15 75 0 0 60 0 5 85 420.115 95
11 7 10 5
0.2 25 250 61 00220 56 010310 78
3.5 0.4 0.2 0.1 5 2.5 4 0.5
0 0 80
05110 0.2 20 125 00 100
10% varies 0% varies 0% varies 15% varies
0% 0 0% 0 6% 0 0% 0 0% 0 8% 0 0% 0 0% 0 10% 0 0% 0 0% 0
Short
Tall
Grande
Venti
80 0.1 0.1 0 0 45 90210.110 50
0% 0% 6% 0% 0% 8% 0% 0%
varies varies varies varies varies varies varies varies
Tazo® Full-Leaf Tea Latte
Short
Tall
Grande
Venti
Calories
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g)
Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg)
Sodium (mg)
Total Carbohydrates (g) Dietary Fibre (g)
Sugars (g)
Protein (g)
Vitamin A (% DV)
Vitamin C (% DV) Calcium (% DV)
Iron (% DV)
Caffeine (mg)
110 4.5 130 0.3 190 7 150 5 170 0.4 240 9
1 7 5 1 8 7
1010130 35 3.5 0.2 25 150 34 105115 29 1010170 43 4.5 0.2 35 180 43 1.5 05140 36
010 200 0.3 40 230 8 1 00 180
Tazo® Full-Leaf Red Tea Latte
Short
Tall
Grande
Venti
Calories
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g)
Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg)
Sodium (mg)
Total Carbohydrates (g) Dietary Fibre (g)
Sugars (g)
Protein (g)
Vitamin A (% DV)
Vitamin C (% DV) Calcium (% DV)
Iron (% DV)
Caffeine (mg)
Nonfat Milk 130
2% Milk 170
Soymilk 140
Nonfat Milk 210
2% Milk 260
Soymilk 230
Nonfat Milk 290
2% Milk 350
Soymilk 310
Nonfat Milk 370
2% Milk 450
Soymilk 390
50 0.1 8031.5 0.1
00.40% 0% 010% 0% 010% 0% 010% 0%
7 5 8% 0% 758% 0% 334% 0% 86 10% 0% 86 10% 0% 456% 0% 10 8 15% 0% 10 8 10% 0% 5 7 8% 0% 14 10 20% 0% 14 10 15% 0% 79 10% 0%
15% 15% 10% 20% 20% 20% 25% 25% 25% 30% 30% 35%
0% 75 0% 75 6% 75 0% 75 0% 75 8% 75 0% 150 0% 150 10% 150 0% 150 0% 150 15% 150
{Cold Beverages}
_Shaken Iced Beverages
Iced Brewed Coffee (With Classic Syrup)
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g)
Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg)
Sodium (mg)
Total Carbohydrates (g)
Dietary Fibre (g)
Sugars (g)
Protein (g)
Vitamin A (% DV)
Vitamin C (% DV)
Calcium (% DV)
Iron (% DV)
Caffeine (mg)
Tall
Grande
Venti
60 0 0 0 0 0 15
2 0.1 10 220 0.200220 0.105290
White Chocolate Mocha (Without Whipped Cream)
0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0
10 0 10 0 6 1 15 0 15 0 10 1 19 0 19 0 13 1 25 0 24 0 16 2
21 1 21 1 19 2 32 1 32 1 28 2 43 2 42 2 37 3 54 2 53 2 47 4
19 0 18 0 16 1 28 0 28 0 23 1 37 0 37 0 31 1 47 0 46 0 39 2
1 0 2 0 3 0 4 0
8 0 8 0 4 0 9 0 9 0 7 1 12 0 12 0
0 0 80 9 1
05120 16 0 0.2 25 135 16 0 00110 11 1
0 0.3 0% 0% 0 0.5 0% 0% 0 1 0% 0% 0 1 0% 0%
9 6 10% 0% 9 6 10% 0% 4 5 6% 0% 14 10 15% 0% 14 10 15% 0% 68 10% 0% 18 13 20% 0% 17 12 20% 2% 8 10 15% 0% 23 16 30% 0% 22 16 25% 2% 11 13 20% 0%
17 7 8% 0% 17 6 8% 0% 13 6 6% 0%
0% 0% 175 0% 0% 260 0% 0% 330 2% 0% 410
20% 0% 75 20% 0% 75 20% 8% 75 30% 0% 75 30% 0% 75 30% 15% 75 40% 0% 150 40% 0% 150 40% 15% 150 50% 0% 150 50% 0% 150 50% 25% 150
15% 10% 85 15% 10% 85 15% 20% 85 25% 20% 95 25% 20% 95 25% 30% 95 35% 25% 175 35% 25% 175 35% 40% 175 45% 30% 180 45% 30% 180 45% 50% 180
20% 0% 75 20% 0% 75 20% 8% 75 30% 0% 75 30% 0% 75 30% 15% 75 35% 0% 150 35% 0% 150 35% 15% 150 50% 0% 150 45% 0% 150 45% 20% 150
0% 0% 75 2% 0% 150 2% 0% 225 2% 0% 300
0 160
0 5 0 10 0 15 0 15
5 60 10 70 0 0 40 0 5 70 1.5 0.1 15 80
23052.50.220
125 38 100 34
0 38 1 32
0.1 0
0.4
0 0 65
0.1
120 420.115100
100 3.5 0.4 110 0.2 0.2 150 63 120 4.5 0.5
Short NonfatMilk 100 0.1 0.1 0 0 2%Milk 120 2 1 0.1 10 Soymilk 110 1.5 0.2 0 0
50 22 55 22 45 20
0 21 0 21 0 18
4 6% 0% 4 6% 0% 3 4% 0%
0 5 90
27 10 26 10 20 9 34 13 34 13 26 11 44 17 43 17 33 14
18 6 17 6 13 5 27 9 27 9 20 7 35 12 35 12 26 9 45 15 44 15 33 12
15% 0% 15% 0% 10% 0% 20% 0% 15% 2% 10% 0% 25% 0% 20% 2% 15% 0%
10% 0% 10% 0% 6% 0% 15% 0% 15% 0% 10% 0% 20% 0% 20% 2% 10% 0% 25% 0% 25% 2% 15% 0%
3205120 31 63.50.115125 31 52.50 0110 28
80 1.5 0.2
0.1 0.1 3 1.5 2.5 0.3 0.2 0.1
0 0 40
Nonfat Milk 180
2% Milk 200
Soymilk 180
Nonfat Milk 270
2% Milk 310
Soymilk 280
Nonfat Milk 350
2% Milk 400
Soymilk 370
Nonfat Milk 450 7 6 2% Milk 510
Nonfat Milk
2% Milk
Soymilk
Nonfat Milk
2% Milk
Soymilk
Nonfat Milk
2% Milk
Soymilk
Nonfat Milk
2% Milk
Soymilk 210
Soymilk 460
_Frappuccino® Blended Crème_
Shaken Iced Tazo® Tea (With Classic Syrup)
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g)
Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg)
Sodium (mg)
Total Carbohydrates (g)
Dietary Fibre (g)
Sugars (g)
Protein (g)
Vitamin A (% DV)
Vitamin C (% DV)
Calcium (% DV)
Iron (% DV)
Caffeine (mg)
Venti
2% 90
4% 125
Tall
0% 170
0% 170
6% 170
Grande
0% Varies
0% Varies
Venti 0% Varies
63
0.2 15 260 70 00250 67
Grande Nonfat Milk 110 2% Milk 120 Soymilk 110
0% 125
0% 125
Caramel (Without Whipped Cream)
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g)
Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg)
Sodium (mg)
Total Carbohydrates (g)
Dietary Fibre (g)
Sugars (g)
Protein (g)
Vitamin A (% DV)
Vitamin C (% DV)
Calcium (% DV)
Iron (% DV)
Caffeine (mg)
0.1 0 0 1.5 0.5 0 1 0.1 0 Venti Nonfat Milk 160 0.1 0.1 0
180 0.1
200 2.5
180 1.5
280 0.1
280 3.5
260 1.5
330 0.1
370 53 0.1 15 300
2% Milk 180
0.1 0.1 00160 39 3.5 20.110160 39 1.5 0.2 00160 37 0.1 0.1 05230 56 4.5 2.5 0.1 15 230 56 2.5 0.3 00220 54 0.2 0.1 05300 73
Soymilk 170
Shaken Iced Tazo® Tea Lemonade (With Classic Syrup)
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g)
Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg)
Sodium (mg)
Total Carbohydrates (g)
Dietary Fibre (g)
Sugars (g)
Protein (g)
Vitamin A (% DV)
Vitamin C (% DV)
Calcium (% DV)
Iron (% DV)
Caffeine (mg)
Tall 10 0
Grande 130 Venti 190
20 3.5 0.1
190 3 2.5 00180 39 220 6 4 0.1 10 180 38 190 4.5 2.5 0 0 180 37 260 4305250 53 290 86 0.2 15 250 53
_Smoothies_
Banana Chocolate
(✊)
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g)
Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg)
Sodium (mg)
Total Carbohydrates (g)
Dietary Fibre (g)
Sugars (g)
Protein (g)
Vitamin A (% DV)
Vitamin C (% DV)
Calcium (% DV)
Iron (% DV)
Caffeine (mg)
Grande Nonfat Milk 280
2% milk 300
Soymilk 290
Orange Mango Banana (✊)
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g)
Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg)
Sodium (mg)
Total Carbohydrates (g)
Dietary Fibre (g)
Sugars (g)
Protein (g)
Vitamin A (% DV)
Vitamin C (% DV)
Calcium (% DV)
Iron (% DV)
Caffeine (mg)
Grande Nonfat Milk 260 2% Milk 270 Soymilk 270
Strawberry Banana
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g)
Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg)
Sodium (mg)
Total Carbohydrates (g)
Dietary Fibre (g)
Sugars (g)
Protein (g)
Vitamin A (% DV)
Vitamin C (% DV)
Calcium (% DV)
Iron (% DV)
Caffeine (mg)
Grande Nonfat Milk 290 2% Milk 290 Soymilk 290
2.5 3 5 3.5
Nonfat Milk WholeMilk Soymilk
Nonfat Milk
Whole Milk Soymilk
Nonfat Milk
Whole Milk Soymilk
360
2% Milk
260 6 350 5
3.5 00240 51
80 0 0 0 0 0 21 120 0 0 0 0 0 31
2.5 0.300290
280
2.5 1.5 5 2.5 4.5 1.5
1 0.3 1.5 0.5 1.5 0.4
1 0.3 21 2 0.4
05 0.1 15 0 5
0 5 0 5 0 5
0 5 0 5 0 5
150 53 160 53 150 51
120 54 125 53 120 53
125 58 125 58 120 58
20 10%
20 8% 15% 20% 19 6% 15% 20% 10% 0
_Frappuccino® Blended Coffee_
Mocha
Tall Nonfat Milk
Grande
Nonfat Milk
Venti
Nonfat Milk 0% 70
Caramel
Nonfat Milk
Whole Milk Soymilk
Nonfat Milk
Whole Milk Soymilk
Nonfat Milk
Whole Milk Soymilk 340
05220 65 0.1 15 220 65 0 0 210 63 05300 88 0.2 20 300 88 0.4 00290 85
Coffee
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g)
Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg)
Sodium (mg)
Total Carbohydrates (g)
Dietary Fibre (g)
Sugars (g)
Protein (g)
Vitamin A (% DV)
Vitamin C (% DV)
Calcium (% DV)
Iron (% DV)
Caffeine (mg)
Tall Nonfat Milk
160
0.10 0 0160 36 2.5 1.5 0.1 10 160 36 1.50.200150 35 0.10.100210 51
3 4% 0% 10%
3 4% 0% 8% 0% 70 Tall Nonfat Milk
00 00 00
000 25 000 33 000 49
0% Varies
Java Chip (Without Whipped Cream)
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g)
Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg)
Sodium (mg)
Total Carbohydrates (g)
Dietary Fibre (g)
Sugars (g)
Protein (g)
Vitamin A (% DV)
Vitamin C (% DV)
Calcium (% DV)
Iron (% DV)
Caffeine (mg)
74 0.2 20 300 73 00290 69
16 50% 16 50% 15 50%
80% 10% 80% 10% 80% 10%
8 0.2 4.5 0
_Frappuccino® Light Blended Coffee_
Green Tea (Without Whipped Cream)
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g)
Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg)
Sodium (mg)
Total Carbohydrates (g)
Dietary Fibre (g)
Sugars (g)
Protein (g)
Vitamin A (% DV)
Vitamin C (% DV)
Calcium (% DV)
Iron (% DV)
Caffeine (mg)
16 4% 100% 10% 16 4% 100% 10% 16 2% 100% 10%
8% 0 Grande 8% 0 Venti
Nonfat Milk Nonfat Milk
90 0.1 120 0.1 160 0.1
110 0.5 150 1 210 1
0 0 0.1 0 0.1 0
0.4 0 0.5 0 0.5 0
0 160 0 210 5 270
0 150 0 200 5 280
20 0 26 0 34 0
24 1 33 1 46 1
Tall
Grande
Venti
0.2 0.1 00160 48 3.5 2 0.1 10 160 48
15% 20%
0% Varies Tall Nonfat Milk 220 0% Varies Whole Milk 240 Soymilk 220 Grande Nonfat Milk 310 Whole Milk 340 20% 15 Soymilk 310 20% 15 Venti Nonfat Milk 420 30% 15 Whole Milk 460 Soymilk 430
6% 0 ® 6% 0
Frappuccino
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g)
Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg)
Sodium (mg)
Total Carbohydrates (g)
Dietary Fibre (g)
Sugars (g)
Protein (g)
Vitamin A (% DV)
Vitamin C (% DV)
Calcium (% DV)
Iron (% DV)
Caffeine (mg)
3 5 4 4 7 6 5 10 8
0 170 10 170 00170 0 0 250 0.1 10 250 00240 405340 7 0.2 15 340 4.500330
8% 0
Coffee
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g)
Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg)
Sodium (mg)
Total Carbohydrates (g)
Dietary Fibre (g)
Sugars (g)
Protein (g)
Vitamin A (% DV)
Vitamin C (% DV)
Calcium (% DV)
Iron (% DV)
Caffeine (mg)
Tall Nonfat Milk
Nonfat Milk 210
Whole Milk 240
Soymilk 220 2 Nonfat Milk 280 0.3 Whole Milk 320 4.5 Soymilk 290 2.5 Nonfat Milk 390 0.4 Whole Milk 440 74 Soymilk 400 3.5
350 00150 0.1 10 160 00150 00220 0.1 10 220 00220 05300 0.1 15 300 3.5 100290
Strawberries & Crème (Without Whipped Cream)
Nonfat Milk 170
Whole Milk 190
Soymilk 170
Nonfat Milk 230
Whole Milk 260
Soymilk 240
Nonfat Milk 310
Whole Milk 350
Soymilk 320 3 0.4
0 38 0 37 1 35 0 52 0 52 1 49 0 69 0 68 1 64
0 38 0 38 1 35 0 55 0 55 1 51 0 71 0 71 1 66
1 36 1 35 2 33 2 49 2 49 2 45 2 66 2 65 3 61
1 47 1 47 1 44 1 64 1 63 2 60 2 87 2 86 2 81
3 6% 3 4% 3 4% 4 8% 4 6% 3 4% 6 10% 6 8% 5 6%
4 6% 3 6% 3 4% 5 8% 4 6% 4 6% 7 10% 6 10% 6 8%
5 6% 4 6% 4 4% 6 8% 6 6% 5 6% 9 10% 8 10% 7 8%
4 6% 4 6% 4 4% 5 8% 5 6% 5 6% 8 10% 7 10% 7 8%
6% 10% 2% 0 6% 10% 2% 0 6% 10% 6% 0 6% 15% 4% 0 6% 15% 4% 0 6% 15% 8% 0 8% 20% 4% 0 8% 20% 4% 0 8% 20% 10% 0
0% 10% 0% 0 0% 10% 0% 0 0% 10% 6% 0 0% 15% 0% 0 0% 15% 0% 0 0% 15% 8% 0 0% 20% 0% 0 0% 20% 0% 0 0% 25% 10% 0
0% 10% 20% 10 0% 10% 20% 10 0% 15% 25% 10 0% 15% 25% 15 0% 15% 25% 15 0% 15% 30% 15 0% 25% 35% 15 0% 20% 35% 15 0% 25% 45% 15
10% 15% 2% 50 10% 10% 2% 50 10% 15% 8% 50 10% 15% 4% 70 10% 15% 4% 70 10% 15% 10% 70 15% 25% 6% 95 15% 20% 6% 95 15% 25% 15% 95
Nonfat Milk
Whole Milk
Soymilk
Nonfat Milk
Whole Milk
Soymilk
Nonfat Milk
Whole Milk Soymilk 340
0 160 10 160
Vanilla Bean (Without Whipped Cream)
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g)
Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg)
Sodium (mg)
Total Carbohydrates (g)
Dietary Fibre (g)
Sugars (g)
Protein (g)
Vitamin A (% DV)
Vitamin C (% DV)
Calcium (% DV)
Iron (% DV)
Caffeine (mg)
Tall
Grande
Venti
Nonfat Milk 170
Whole Milk 200
Soymilk 180
Nonfat Milk 240
Whole Milk 280
Soymilk 250
Nonfat Milk 320
Whole Milk 370
Soymilk 330 3 0.4
400
12 8
5 340 71 20 340 71 0 330 68
00160 46
0.1 0.1 3 1.5 1.5 0.2 0.2 0.1
4 0
0.2 0.1 2.5 0.3 0.1
Double Chocolaty Chip (Without Whipped Cream)
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g)
Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg)
Sodium (mg)
Total Carbohydrates (g)
Dietary Fibre (g)
Sugars (g)
Protein (g)
Vitamin A (% DV)
Vitamin C (% DV)
Calcium (% DV)
Iron (% DV)
Caffeine (mg)
180 0.5 0.4 200 32 180 2 0.5 260 1 0.5 290 4 2.5 260 2.5 0.5 340 1 0.5 390 6 3.5
60 0 0 0 0 4 15
0 15 0 21 0 31
0 18 0 18 0 17 0 24 0 24 0 22 0 36 0 36 0 33
0 15 0 21 0 31
0 24 0 33 0 49
7 34 7 34 7 31
6 37 6 37 6 36
7 41 7 41 8 40
0 36 0 36 0 34 0 50 0 50 0 47 0 69 0 69 1 66
0.2 0% 0.3 0% 0.4 0%
2 2% 2 2% 2 2% 2 4% 2 4% 2 2% 4 6% 4 6% 3 4%
0 0% 0 0% 0 0%
0.1 0% 0.1 0% 0.1 0%
0% 0% 0% 0% 0% 0%
0% 6% 0% 6% 0% 6% 0% 8% 0% 8% 0% 8% 0% 10% 0% 10% 0% 10%
0% 0% 0% 0% 0% 0%
10% 0% 15% 0% 20% 0%
0% 120 0% 165
Tall
Grande
Venti
00140 39 0.1 10 140 38 00135 37 00190 53 420.110190 53 2 0.2 00180 51 0.2 0.1 05260 70
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Iced Brewed Coffee (With Milk & Classic Syrup) Tall Nonfat Milk 80 0.1 0 0
2% Milk 90 1 0.5 0 Soymilk 80 1 0.1 0
5 21 5 31
90 0.1 0 0 0 130 0.1 0 0 0
0% 235 Grande 0% 90
0 0
1.5 0.1 0.200150 0.100220
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Make It Yours
Add-Ons
Sweetened Whipped Cream
Short Hot
Tall Hot
Grande/Venti Hot
Tall Cold
Grande/Venti Cold
-
Flavoured Syrup
1 Pump
-
Flavoured Sugar-Free Syrup
1 Pump
-
Mocha Syrup
1 Pump
-
Toppings
Mocha Drizzle
Caramel Drizzle
-
Espresso Shot
1 Shot
-
Matcha Green Tea Powder
1 Scoop
-
Protein & Fibre Powder
1 Scoop
50
60
70
80
110
20
0
25
5
15
5
25
30
5 6 7 8 11
0
0
0.5
0.1 0.5
0
0.1
3
4
4.5
5
7
0
0
0.3
0.1
0.3
0
0
0.1
0.2
0.2
0.2
0.2
0.3
0
0
0
0
0
0
0
0
20
20
25
30
40
0
0
0
0
0
0
0
0
25 0.1 1 6 0
-
Calories
Total Fat (g)
Saturated Fat (g) Trans Fat (g)
Cholesterol (mg) Sodium (mg)
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Keeping up on nutrition.
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"My Broken Wings" (story by me about bullying, depression, insanity, trauma, mental illness, behavor problems , life struggles, self abusing, and abuse, this is my made up story even if some parts are true, this story is based on me, except the bullying that's based on events I see the rest is based on me, about a girl named Trinity, THIS IS NOT REAL, WARNING: TRIGGERING. This is a story I wrote about a girl that is like me, but she isn't real.)
(TO BE WRITTEN)
{{{{-Mamma & Daughter---}}}}
(((Our story(; && our poems c;
All combined into one story c: ^.* ^.^
I'll keep you updating on this status, so don't look around my profile, look on this status && in my life story)))
STORY #9 "Mama && Daughter" (Sara&Mommy's Story)
(Story #9 and more stories. TO BE WRITTEN)
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"Trippz To UCI Medical Center/Mental Hospital , 2nd Diary of (Daily Life At 3 month stay at UCI after I get out of court , I'll still be in the system. UCI Life LONG-TERM... "Sugarr Cuts, Baby Don't Cut")
(TO BE WRITTEN .... After I get out of UCI mental hospital after long term stay -probably a couple of months)
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"Izzy Runz The System, Goinn Back Cuz I'm Out Of It" (...NiqhtScarzxx) " (My Life since I got out of UCI, from July 2015 to May 17th 2017) (TO BE WRITTEN SOON)
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(3)Linger Thru My Whispers
So I'm sitting in my room, why can't I
keep you for myself? Exactly I can't... lol
Things have been ok lately, just in another group home, dumb as fuck right?
My mom doesn't remember when she emotionally and verbally abused me. Then I found out it was actually me who mispercieved that , a misperception .
I usually just walk to Vonz at 3 pm until around 6 pm, ] doesn't mind.
Anyway I went to ETS 2 times, ETS is a mental hospital....
There's only so much you can learn in one place, the more time that you wait , the more time that you waste....
I had a skitzophrenic episode, where I got detained by cops, got called 911 and got taken by ambulance .
Drop you down like the limbs of a tree.....
The more that you wait, find a place of my own, it swings and it sways, I can't make it alone
Anyway I hope you guys are listening, you guys are chill, I love you... Stay strong even when the worst of shit happens....
Open up make room for me...
I'm listening to "Open Up" by Leftfield, dope ass song cx
I want all you lovelies to stay strong, nomatter how many bumps life gives you, there's always light at the end...
I skipped to #3 Cuz #2 was taking too long, so I'll be on this section for awhile.
... Okay?
I've been sober for awhile from the streets, my gang, drugs, violence, physcotic episodes, self harm, suicide, homoscide, alcohol ... You know all that happy crap ✊😘
It's 8:54 pm on 8/21/2015. There's this weird ass ringing at the doorbell, I got new hallucinations, there's The Milking Cow Bed, Red Balls, Letters, Sights of Shade, high effects, Path that I draw with my finger, nightmares, unstable impossible, abnormal non existing objects, so yeah get your pajamas on, I'm weird, what a sad depart this is...
I'm gonna go in tired remember,
STAY STRONG AND KEEP FIGHTING.
I'm here if you need me, I love you, my angels xoxoxo
The Stay ❤️❤️❤️❤️
2/20/2017.
Juan can I have a side hug now
Come here you, silly goose. See u tomorrow? Yes Juan. Take care of yourself okay. Yes Juan.
Izzy! Yea. Wazzup? He laughs at everything I say lol
John stated a lot today
I'm glad ur feeling better
Are u gonna eat
U are lotion? That's not healthy
David said I'm attractive most inspirational peice of art he's ever seen
I'm kidding (in group bout me not loving myself) *pats me on back*
I care about you enough to make sure ur safe,
Hello hello hello *whale voice*
Jonathan do u wanna hear our mateing call?
No just Cuz you laughed
What size underwear Izzy?
One that fits DEEZNUTZ
Oh no
Chris stop
Juan do u wanna see something sexy *strips on door*
I'mma get naked.
Let's not
Me and the Homie chased Chris outside , we're gonna restrain you and put a shot in your ass 😂😂😂
Where the fuck is she
Did u fart
I can't hear you
John am I being to loud
Yes
Wtf
*knocks on door* staff
Me: NO!
Juans acting weird infront of me
John a rebel bad high school
Rudy abusive dad the streets
Juan cares for me so does John
I'm alex sister he kissed me he nos my past too. Promise he wouldn't leave me
I'm not feeling good .
All staff no my past
Made Juan cry
Welcome to The Stay . JUANITOS BUSY BRUH . My residential center on fleek
Love my Stay niggas
Its gettin dark in here turn the fucking lights out. At my residential treatmrnt center HOLLA
And I dont give a fuck ..... Lmfao :-) :-) :-) :-)
My roomate homie for life bro
Not feelin my best but its ight staying strong
That cigarrette bomb AS fuck 😉😀
My song i wrote for the morning.... by Izzy (me)
"You break me down once again, stuck in an ocean where i cant swim, dream of love but gaining hate. The pain surfaces thruout my body, the chains collapse, take a look at me take a look at me im running free."
"Dont Ever Wake Up" short song by me <333333
"Dont tell me you aint cryin, dont tell me you aint lyeing. a little walk in the dark, go smoking not so far, if i could fly, i would try to escape, one or another way. i despise you, i cant see you, i cant feel myself. im going numb and remember you wont ever wake up...."
Sarah Wingert our walks around the unit are on fleek, im always loud lol. memories <3333
For awhile i felt lost , then i got saved, God saved me, i went crazy for awhile but im staying strong , always here always being there for everyone nomatter what my past was crazy but im in the battle for my life , stay strong im in treatment at Valley Star CRT aka The Stay. Hmu for info , i can get visits too .
Fuckkkk my throat hurts.
Rest in peace Grandma Sara , my father William Berger even tho he abused me till i almost dyed i still love him, rip grandpa Harold. And rip Lupe Camarena my streeet sister ^'^
Yeshhhhhhhhhh, under ground musikkk on fleek ......
Who else watches anime.....
My name is Izzy im 18 years old, my past has been traumatic from age 4 till now. Ive been thru it all, abused rape foster care no family all meds, 185 physc hospitals, alot of mental illnesses, the streets, drugs anger treatment, gangs, criminal, cops know me :(, juvi. And more , im here for all. I am skitzo tooo , i believe in God, been posessed by demons mainly Johnny. I love everyone, stay strong im here for everyone. Im in my 6th residential treatment center, trying to recover, Then its Cedar House .... stay strong
Got that street hussle on, i aint a criminal nomore. In a safe place, i had nowhere to go 3rd time on the streets, fuck now im in a good place. Damn i need some weed homie -¥¥¥¥ my dealers in jail . Awewwww 😴😴😴😴😴😴😴
And the pain remains, reality out of it not myself, i surrender im done. Dear God i love you with all my heart ...
Thank God im here right now, i almost made the biggest mistake. I did let them control me, fuck over the demons. feeling better now. #RiskNotTaken
At my residential treatment center fly azz fuck, catch me outside, how bout that, imma female rebel ..... im on one
Welcome to my life. Stay strong. Gotz tu getz mii shitxz together yo. Love you
What the actual fuck.... 😘✌️😂😂😂😂 more selfies
No chill my meds made me high af' , outside at Community Break with my homies <3😘❤️✌️🔫🍷Sugaa suga how you get so high. Wake and bake. Up till 2 am, wasted af' , off of nothing WTF
Me: hit the Juan hit the Juan
Juan: excuse you
Me: no excuse you
Juan: not appropriate
Me: Really Juan you really wanna go there
Juanitos the nurse for tonight ✌️ he had to drag me out of the nurses station 🌿💉💉💉💉
Me and him have a joke about DEEZNUTZ, it's like our greeting lmao
I got baptized today ❤️💕😘
At the movies with my homies, my REAL family I haven't had that before. We pigged out on candy soda and popcorn. Love u guys <3 💕❤️❤️❤️❤️
Juan do you wanna smell my washcloth? No Izzy . Wtf
Juan JOSE! Get out of my house. Excuse you. The whole Stay has Izzy written all over it.
Mom (Ms Nancy) Izzy are u behaving *Uncle Jonathan stares thru the window*
Ah shit now I'm in trouble
Ms Nancy can u adopt me
Juan lets get down to buissness *hits knee on table* owwwww
*david laughs*
Really was that necessary
I find nothing funny
JOSE! SARA! Don't call me that
Juan time for your meds
Izzy your not aloud in the nurses station
Really Juan. Really?
You already know
Juan what the hell
I love you Uncle Juan
I care for you Izzy
Good times at The Stay 💕✌️
Me: *knocks on doors*
STAFF
Nicole: izzy how many times do I have to tell u not to knock and say staff
Me: I'm a staff now ' I'll be your coworker one day
John; I believe it
Damn Damien lmao 😂😂😂
Hey look it's my husband *makes love to the Tappatio bottle*
Fuck the law lol
Ahhhh humans everywhere
Izzy you are a human
I ain't takin my Rhrespordal nomore change it to 2 mg.
Izzy why you gotta be so violent?
Isn't he nice
Can I do the honors of sitting on your lap. Tf'
Asshole!!!
I'm high off my Zoloft
Meet Jimmy
Where the fuck is she?
I'm lit right now
Don't no reality from non reality
Help me lol
The Saturday outing with Yessi.
At natural history museum of Los Angeles county
2-25/2017. Radical Nonsense
Juan I don't feel good
You missed 2 doses
Juan what the fuck it's not the meds
It's like I'm in a dream and I'm not processing reality *kicks door* your voice isn't there
Like an out of body experience
I don't no what's going on
Izzy lets get some fresh air .
I jump rope 20 times
I thot u were only gonna do 3
Juan I don't need your 2 sense
Juan I want a divorce
We were never married
*i kick the soccer ball*
Hey you kicked Wilson
*juan kicks the jumprope*
Aye why u kick jimmy?
Well u kicked Wilson
I ate 2 bags of milky ways , nesquik choc milk, Oreo mcflurry, 3 refills of dr pepper and carnasada fries
*gets home loud*
Juan: shhhh izzy were inside
I don't give a fuck
I was hyper the whole time
I feel like a Mexican
I'm gonna. Strip on this rock
Ewwwww izzy
Shut up don't talk to Pedro like that
Izzy your husbands a Tappatio bottle?
Ya his names Jose
That's racist izzy lmfao
I'm so ill motherfuckers
*stands on top of table*
DEEZNUTS
Izzy get down
Never!
*sees plane* usa usa has
*sees Juan in the nurses station* knocks on window hi Juan *laughs*
Keep it down
Puff puff pass
Lego batman with ms Nancy on 2/19/2017.
A cure for wellness movie
Cherry coke medium
Popcorn buttered
Power rangers 2017 commercial song
Milky ways 5 minis
Cheeto puffs
99 sent store
Crispy critter cookies
Andrew likes me
Simba lil foot SEAN big bro
Chris and Alex adoptive bro
Friend with Evelyn smoke weed
Sarah/Andrew sisters
Kayden Homie
Uncle Juan
I'm loud I have to be quiet
Something sexy for snack tonight
Oceans seafret
Satellite by guther
Breathe by Pluto
I see fire Ed sheeran
Misso soup
Jon bellion album
Never say never by the fray
Wanna fete by Parov stelar
Thank you for what? Not leaving , I'll miss u too I care about u too izzy , first time I've behaved, do u believe I care about u, yes. I appreciate you too izzy, have you heard this song. Johnathan nos all my past gon write me a letter take his time. Rudy on the streets. I'm Eduardo and Chris P little sister. I have a sick twisted humor me Sarah and Andrew. I feel sick.
Apologize by Timbaland and One Republic
How I feel by wax taylor
You found me by the fray
She is by the fray
Show me what I'm looking for by Carolina liar
It ends tonight by all American rejects
Use somebody by kings of leon
Just keep tellin myself to live my life keep on breathing and live, shadows all around, I live my life, I live my life, while I was dreaming, sound that haunts me
Stay in love id rather stay in love I know my mind is made up, stay with me I'd rather you'd stay with me
The world can't touch us now, we're so high, whatever we want, we can go on and on
Styles for less (store)
"Empire of the sun-alive"
Goodbye to last night, can't you help me see, loving every minute Cuz you make me so alive
You don't get the point when I say no, I don't know what you want, I said baby you got me acting crazy, you can't really blame me, this is the part when I lose control, actin old
If you could feel my heart right now it would hit like a sledgehammer, I play it cool but every minute when I'm with you, if you could take my pulse right now it would feel like a sledgehammer
Don't wake me ,what you've done to me
Surrender to the , to blend into this space, is long enough to be found, your not scared of the voice it's just noise, you should know by now, we're just gonna keep on moving on the dance floor
"Rice a roni"
"Pork chops
Watermelon
Mac and cheese
Top ramen
ADD ❤️❤️❤️❤️
He smiled and waved at me . He smiles at me a lot . You have been behaving that makes me happy. I'm glad u stayed. I told him about my mom abuse. The streets taking care of people on the streets and in hospitals. About me taking Perris in. Not being homeless like me. We talk about it not being fun. Told him about me running from the cops he laughed at my stories. He smiles at me a lot . Told him I was worried. Rudy A. . Reading Normans book silent screams. Helped Rudy wth the water. Wrote John M a letter told him I was worried. He talked about try to keep a smile on his face something's wrong. 2/26-2017 2/27/2017 the stay
Rudy: have you been asleep looks like you've got some beauty rest
2/28/2017
3/4/2017
(909) 316-0134
I had a long talk with Juan and Hohn John
I don't want Andrew to end up on the streets
We don't want anything to happen to u either -rudith
Hey rudith time for ur meds
We can be good friends -Rudy
Are u guys cussing at eachother
Sorry that was me
Best friend! To Chris
Best friend! I thot chris was ur best friend- Norman
I made Rudy laugh
David piss me off he says sorry
I make Rudy laugh and smile a lot
You can call- Rudy
Imma bug the shit out of you
Are u coming to the wedding izzy? I'll be ur bridesmaid in law
What's that? -Rudy
Hopefully u guys didn't hear our conversation
I heard it all-Rudy
In weird vouxes voices -rudith rudith- me and precious
I made him laugh a lot
Bye best friend. Idk what the hell ur taking about -Norman
Alex grabs my butt. I love u sis
Landon cusses heard me pissed off
Bakers (fast food)
Take care Izzy, ladies first *laughs*
Told him about my suicidal thoughts. Me cussing out Dayton, my mom being drunk, abusive parents
I wasn't mad I was just passionate in my conversation
I sang for him he loved it, soulful in my music. He said it was strong that I came to him emotional unstable . I'm doing good. Told him about bootyjuice, deeznuts at high school, reatraints. He nos my life, told him I don't want Andrew on the streets, pissed at Dayton jokes about suicide. Talking me not being happy, laughs smiles with me a lot , I'm gonna smoke weed, *rudy makes a face at me*.- me and Rudith.... Told Norman my past believes in me , sorry I had to go thru that
Jon saw me mad
Best friend! I thot chris was ur best friend, I have 2 .made Jon laugh
Goodnight I'm proud of you, see you tomorrow . Me and Jon talked for an hour , I told him I was suicidal he says he no how bad my past was. That I'm strong.
Juan and Rudy and Marvin sing .
Sizzler 3/5/2017 @7:56 PM
Tri tip sirloin steak rare
French fries
Root beer cherry sauce
Icecream with hot fudge
Mac and cheese with plain pasta
3/5/2017
Rudy has anger issues kicked out of his house
3/6/2017. Wazzup Rudy? What's up homieeeee. Juanitos the chips. Busy man Rudy he smiled at me a lot laughs.
3/7/2017
Sang with me Outside by Staind, while smiling. Sang with me burn baby burn. Smiles with me a lot I saw officer Day. Rudith! rudith! Hey how are you izzy?
You gotta thank yourself for some stuff too it's not just us-rudith
Can I have some Juanitos.
Get out of here
Never!
(Never?)
Rudy: uh oh
Applebee's 3/11/2017
Honey BBQ Fritos
Nesquik Choc Milk
Triple Choc Meltdown
French Fries
Cherry Pepsi
4 cheese pasta with honey chicken tenders
im never leaving never leaving lets stop all this talking, it's like adrenaline
(909) 316-0134
I appreciate you I care for you
I appreciate and care for you too
We grew closer
Didn't want me to leave thank u for not leaving
Looked at my email phone number
He's there for me as a staff
Give me his email when I leave
Johnathan
Rudy
You take up a lot of my time that's a compliment we always sing together
Lupe Armendariz
Are u ok Jonathan I was kinda worried about you. Shit happens family issues hope u feel better, I'm ok. I told him I had a mini breakdown yesterday but it's whatever. I told him I'm there for him, it's 2/26/2017 going to laser quest in Fullerton, on Saturday going on a therapeutic past with my mom for 12 hours
780 east Gilbert street San Bernardino ca. Give the request form to Rudy
Stay strong. Gods got a plan for you ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️💕👌😘
They blast Pokemon to wake us up for meditation lmao
I was scared shitless
Ash just farted
Really Homie? really bruh?👏😂😂😂😂
Chillaxin ❤️💋-listening to NERO at Valley Healthcare Center
Can I have some Juanitos?
Juan: really Izzy?
Yup. Tastes sexy in here
Juan: why you got the giggles
She's just being Izzy
*Rudy gets mad at the computer
Rudy what have you taught me?
Use your coping skills Rudy
*gives me a look*
😂😂😂😂😂
Fuck you guys ❤️
The voices in my head
Possessing my brain
Drive me insane ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
-Izzy Martinez's original song of the night Cx
It's 10:07 pm time to get my azz to bed 🍷🍷🍷🍷
Say your prayers <3
Cash me outside , how bout dat 😂😂😂😂😂😂
On fleek son ❤️
#TheTroublez
#SweetliiInzanee
Stay strong thru your toughest battles, battles don't fight themselves. If you ever need me I gotchu. I've been thru trauma since age four but I learn not to let my demons control me. God Bless <3
FaceTime with my homie fo life, fuck with her, you fuck with me. 👌❤️💕
The Outing on Saturday 💞✌️🍷
At Applebee's
The time I got kicked out of Red Robin for getting too wasted with my homies. Fuckin Joshua bruh. Happy Hour On Fleek Son ❤️💕👏😘
Yussss -listening to Atlas Genuis
Oh so your a virgin
Excuse me I can hear your conversation all the way from the office , be appropriate bro
Cherry root beer cherry dr pepper , cherry everything 🍒🍒🍒🍒🍒🍒🍒🍒🍒🍒
I found my glasses 😂😂😂😂😂
No I did
Whatchu talkin bout Willis?
Ya ya tell it to the judge 😂😂😂
Yeah buddy 💕✌️
Listening to Adrenaline at Applebeees Grill and Bar (Redlands CA)
Me freestyling my song out in the courtyard, Ms Nancy recorded me <3 💞💕❤️😘
Puts broom inbetween my legs
IM Harry Potter!
*jonathan takes it away*
Me and Ash were hyper as fuck today. Laughing our asses off
Jon , Nancy, Bri told us to be quiet
*comes out the door laughing like an idiot*
Jonathan calls me over
Whenever u two exit that door you always end up loud
Cuz we're the I don't give a fuck squad
Me and ash watch the stars
I was rolling on the floor, we were hyper all day.
She's my Homie for life
Our song "Blindfold" and "Adrenaline"
Our minds dirty as fuck
Jon: I can hear you guys all the way from inside
Izzy calm down
Never!
Lmao ❤️❤️
You want some play toys?
My mind went wrong
😂😂😂😂😂😂
Fuck you I have anger issues ❤️💕✌️
Time for bed 😂😂😂😂
Me free styling in my homies room at my residential treatment center ❤️❤️❤️❤️
It's better if you don't understand 💕❤️✌️
What the fuck Internet 😂😂😂
I just want something to believe in 💕❤️
"The Blaq Floor" by me
"Zig zagged on the bathroom floor
This little sleepy town
I won't be going anywhere
Not no more
Strapped up to your head
I'm not going back
She ain't blacking out
Zig zagged on the bathroom floor"
Up at 11:44 pm . Homitaz 🍷✊💋💋💋💋💋 #INZANEEcx
#nochill #lightsgoout wait for that all night
We're all a little mad here 🍷🔫✌️💕
#BenadrylRoom(;
Up at 11:57 pm with the homies
#StayatTheStayLife
#xboxonfleek
Just one of those rough days 💕❤️✌️
Little Ways by me
"Ganging up on the sun.
Ready to come undone
Screaming just for fun
I will devour you
And u feel unsafe
In an ugly place.
Just another bad day"
💋💕💕💕💕
Today was down azz fuck ✌️❤️💕 at Santa Monica Pier oh lord
"Making" by me
Make my messes matter
Put her to sleep
As u watch her weap
Unstable state of mind
Watch her try and try to climb
No one seen her cry
As she dies inside
Make my messes matter
Are u gonna try to pick up your life
Or are u gonna fucking do it
Pack up all your emotions
Erase the pain
Break these chains
Ask myself
What the fuck am i doing here?
Me: Have no fear Izzys here
Shut up izzy
Me: Go fuck your self
Be nice
Me: Define nice
^.^ 😂😂😂😂😂😂
I'm done. DisReality out of it. Help
Act like a lady
Never! Lmao 😂😂😂😂😂
I'm on Cloud 9 lmfao.
Kkkkkk I wish.
Sir are you drunk?
No officer I'm just driving my house to my car
Lmao fuck I'm dead 😂😂😂😂😂😂
Fuck fake people.
I deserve it don't i.
Can't change the past
You really can't
If only I can express my inner darkness
But how?
I care even if no one else cares for me
I gotchu ese.
-izzy shut up and take a nap-
Just overthinking I guess
All my tears have been used up
On another love on another love
Wanna kiss you make you feel alright. ❤️💕✌️💞
And they got you where they want you
It's a childish delusion
Will you give it give it to em'
Hi homita. Izzy waz here cx👌❤️And I can make your hands clap 👏👏👏✊👏👏✊😘
At group at The Tay Drop In Center. ❤️😘
Isn't this group relaxing ???? Lmao 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
Lmao up in her lol 😂😂😂😂😂
What the actual fuck 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 I wanna ditch so bad but hell I wanna go on that outing bro.
Bruh 👏👏👏👏👏👏
What the fuck am I doing
Ewww what the fuck bro?
Izzys Sleep Pattern 💕❤️
Bed at 10 pm
Woke up at 12 am
Bed at 1 am
Woke up at 2:30 am
Bed at 3:00 am
Woke up at 4:00 am
Now I'm awake
I got sick at Scandia
Threw up 5 times
Juan made me some soup
Body weak, throat hurts, stomach hurts
IM NOT SICK
Jon: yes you are
Got 5 nicotine gums all at once
-feeling wired/sleep deprivated
#Strugglin
The game is real 💕😘
Even in a world of darkness
You got to find the good
Even when you feel like your not living like your not breathing
Even when you feel like the darkness is trying to consume you
Like the pain is killing you
Like life is playing you
You only got one life to live
You got to stay strong I no it's hard but I got you.
God has you
You have you
There is no other you ❤️❤️❤️
-me
My Own Dope song by me
I'm like an animal
Swimming in the sea
Trapped in a cage
Filled with maximum rage
Selling dope in the dark
Making my mark
I'm like Mr Darkness
Posessed and unstable
Telling my own fables
Releasing my demons
I'm prey to my prey
And it's getting worse
Inside me is dead
I'm like a brain dead animal
And it's getting worse
I'm not me nomore
Someone save me
Ahhhhhhh I threw up again twice, wtf is wrong with me
Feeling annoyed doctor at clinic gave me Zofran
Inprisoned in the dark 🐞🐞🐞🐞🐞
Have you ever got high just from reading words
Mine are "Big Calm"
I'm weird , they have an effect on me
Where they at tho? 💞👌💕❤️
Addiction is like a cycle, you get intoxicated to numb the pain once your sober it comes back twice as hard, so you get twice as intoxicated and it keeps going . That's my experience 💋😘✌️
Nicole: Izzy you need to go outside and do that again
*laughs loudly and chokes on food at dinner table*
I got in trouble like 10 times today
I juan
Suck on it
*i laugh loud*
Izzy go outside
Juan: izzy, shhhhh
Put your hands in the air
Freeze!
Time to get in staffs car
How about lets not
I'm white
Nobody cares
What do you want to do for activities outside
Smoke
Ok izzy no inappropriate answers
Give me my nuts
I've been hyper and laughing all day , getting in trouble non stop
Fuck! 😂😂😂😂
On a visit with the homie, I miss you, we had fun bruh, #onfleek
#stayatthestay #thatfrisbetho
thank u for visiting, I'll be quieter next time lmao , your like family to me. -with Demetre
Dollar General shitzzzz. 😂❤️
Fuckin Demetre
How's Izzy
Juan: oh God lol
Bought an iTunes card, big dark Choc Hershys bar and cherry dr pepper, I got that suga high goin on
#gimmesomesugaiamyoneighbor
I got in trouble AGAIN! Lol it's all day
Apparently Daytons Mexican, I shared his chips while we were outside chillin being extra. I was like my usual weird hyper self
*in the nurses station*
Juan: izzy take yo meds
Walks away with meds
Come back here
I rest my case 😂😂😂
Trippie(; by me , Izzy
#sugerrushhh
Jump the walls
Freedom falls
Trapped in my own prison
Making wrong decisions
I'm crazy as fuck
Fuckin shit up
But I'm loyal till the end
Don't twist me or bend me
Fragile on entry
Nope not today
Regain my sanity
I'll all just a flash of a dream
Out of reality
It's all a bad decision
Going back to my own prison
It doesn't come from city lights 🍷👏 I wake to sleep -Etiquette "Wake To Sleep"
Up at 11:19 pm pullin an allnighter, Trizadone made me wired 💊
3/15/2017
Facetime in The Stay , I can see Kyles face, where'd my face go? Up at 10:40 pm, allnighter time 💕❤️ face in the sky with Sarah Wingert
I'm not taking my meds tonight ❤️💕
It feels like a lie ❤️💕💋-Joywave
It's 4:23 am
3/16/2017
Yes my dear
Jon ur awesome
Ur awesome too
I got mad not take my meds acting up Jon saw me loud and act up
Stay up at 4:30 am went to AA. You've actually done really well today I'm survived -Jon
Rudys not ok
Juan worked knock shift
Are u ok Juan
Both seen me act up
Write a IR I got pissed and got loud in a bad way
Jon: are u ok
No not really
Is it bad that I care about you
No, in a nice way
Everyone left him
I got mad at Juan he doesn't care and I cried
Jon nos my past and why I don't cry
Leave Juan alone
Never!
I wrote an IR incident report
I gave Bri a hug -lil izzy your funny-
Jon: u need to get some rest
Jon: *puts out his fist* she left me hanging
Juan does care
She's cleaning out our office thank u izzy-Jon
I drank the dr pepper it was nasty
You no who had that right
Don't no don't care
I scream shut the fuck up
Juan told me to be quiet a lot today
Hey hey hey
What's up Sara, Martin nos me from ETS since I was 12, keep my seat warm, why u like the last name Torres, Martin torres. You didn't take ur meds? That's why ur so hyper, give me his FB
...I got kicked out of rehab, i was homeless for awhile got into a shelter then flipped out and got hospitilized twice, now its 191 mental hospitals. fuckk gotta get my shit straight... u feel me? im @ Jump Street Crisis Residential treatment Center right now, my meds are working FINALLY, got realeased from Auora Charter Oaks.
Owow izzy what happen at rehab · · · i had a physcotic outburst · · · Well glad your Ohk, r you coming back to the stay · · · they wont let me come back · · · Well just do what U u got to do · · · its nasty as fuck out there, ive been on and off the streets most of my life
I'm leaving to rehab today so I won't be on .... 'm leaving The Stay this weekend I'll be in rehab for three months, so I won't be on fb ^.^ 😘💕🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫 Izzy Martinez Torrez ReallyLikeShow more reactions · Reply · April 16 at 1:29pmAshley SolomonAshley Solomon goodbye izzyLikeShow more reactions · Reply · April 16 at 1:32pmIzzy Martinez TorrezIzzy Martinez Torrez Fucks off to youLikeShow more reactions · Reply · 1 · April 16 at 1:32pmAshley SolomonAshley Solomon shut upLikeShow more reactions · Reply · 1 · April 16 at 1:37pm I love you Izzy! You are the true homegirl and we will always be here for each other and never leave each other! Thank you for always being here for me when ever I need you. You are the best and I will miss you very much when you leave! 😭😘💕LikeShow more reactionsComment1 Izzy Martinez TorrezCommentsIzzy Martinez TorrezIzzy Martinez Torrez No problem I'll always be here for u tooLikeShow more reactions · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:59pmAnissa AngeleriAnissa Angeleri Thank you! It really means a lot! ❤️❤️❤️😘LikeShow more reactions · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 4:00pm I don't want to leave, this is where my real family isLikeShow more reactionsCommentShare2 Ashley Monique Lira and Sarah WingertCommentsAshley SolomonAshley Solomon i don't want u 2 leave me here izzyLikeShow more reactions · Reply · 2 · April 15 at 5:23pmIzzy Martinez TorrezIzzy Martinez Torrez I'll miss uLikeShow more reactions · Reply · April 15 at 5:24pmAshley SolomonAshley Solomon i will miss u moreLikeShow more reactions · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 5:24pmIzzy Martinez TorrezWrite a reply...Choose FileAshley Monique LiraAshley Monique Lira Were you goingLikeShow more reactions · Reply · 2 · April 15 at 7:37pm Hey bitchyLikeShow more reactionsCommentShare3 Ashley Monique Lira, Sarah Wingert and Sean NoonanCommentsAshley SolomonAshley Solomon stfuLike · Reply · April 15 at 3:14pmSarah WingertSarah Wingert HahaLike · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:14pmIzzy Martinez TorrezIzzy Martinez Torrez You are a dickLike · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:15pmAshley SolomonAshley Solomon hell noLike · Reply · April 15 at 3:15pmIzzy Martinez TorrezIzzy Martinez Torrez Be nice ❤️Like · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:15pmAnissa AngeleriAnissa Angeleri Love you all girls!! 😘❤️💗👌🏻Like · Reply · 3 · April 15 at 3:16pmSarah WingertSarah Wingert Oh be quietLike · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:16pmIzzy Martinez TorrezIzzy Martinez Torrez My name Is JuanLike · Reply · April 15 at 3:16pmAshley SolomonAshley SolomonLike · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:18pmIzzy Martinez TorrezWrite a reply...Choose FileSarah WingertSarah Wingert Meh naymes jeffLike · Reply · 2 · April 15 at 3:16pmAshley SolomonAshley Solomon namesLike · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:17pmSarah WingertSarah Wingert StfuLike · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:17pmIzzy Martinez TorrezWrite a reply...Choose FileIzzy Martinez TorrezIzzy Martinez Torrez Look at juan all alone in the cornerLike · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:17pmAshley SolomonAshley Solomon stfuLike · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:17pmAnissa AngeleriAnissa Angeleri 😂😂😂Like · Reply · 2 · April 15 at 3:17pmIzzy Martinez TorrezIzzy Martinez Torrez Hey everybody guess what? DEEZNUTZLike · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:18pmAnissa AngeleriAnissa Angeleri Real funny izzy! 🖕🏻Like · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:19pmIzzy Martinez TorrezIzzy Martinez Torrez Juan is blackLike · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:19pmSarah WingertSarah Wingert He is ,... he really isssLike · Reply · April 15 at 3:19pmIzzy Martinez TorrezIzzy Martinez Torrez Mexican HomieLike · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:19pmIzzy Martinez TorrezWrite a reply...Choose FileAshley SolomonAshley Solomon noLike · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:19pmAshley SolomonAshley Solomon stfuLike · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:20pmIzzy Martinez TorrezIzzy Martinez Torrez Suck my white assLike · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:20pmAshley SolomonAshley Solomon ewwwww noLike · Reply · April 15 at 3:21pmIzzy Martinez TorrezIzzy Martinez Torrez YesLike · Reply · April 15 at 3:21pmIzzy Martinez TorrezWrite a reply...Choose FileSarah WingertSarah Wingert Im white and im proudLike · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:21pmIzzy Martinez TorrezIzzy Martinez Torrez I have a big cockLike · Reply · April 15 at 3:21pmSarah WingertSarah Wingert Jk im mexicanLike · Reply · April 15 at 3:21pmIzzy Martinez TorrezIzzy Martinez Torrez You ain't no MexicanLike · Reply · April 15 at 3:22pmSarah WingertSarah Wingert Yes i am fr fr for reallllllLike · Reply · April 15 at 3:22pmIzzy Martinez TorrezWrite a reply...Choose FileAshley SolomonAshley Solomon noLike · Reply · April 15 at 3:22pmSarah WingertSarah Wingert Read this in chinesse vioce* can i have a coke a large coke!?Like · Reply · April 15 at 3:22pmIzzy Martinez TorrezIzzy Martinez Torrez Kung chowLike · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:22pmAshley SolomonAshley Solomon stfuLike · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:23pmAshley SolomonAshley Solomon izzyLike · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:23pmIzzy Martinez TorrezIzzy Martinez Torrez I'm drunkLike · Reply · April 15 at 3:23pmIzzy Martinez TorrezIzzy Martinez Torrez Juan looks like my uncleLike · Reply · April 15 at 3:23pmAshley SolomonAshley Solomon no u aintLike · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:23pmIzzy Martinez TorrezIzzy Martinez Torrez Juan is interstingLike · Reply · April 15 at 3:25pmSarah WingertSarah Wingert Sexualy intriguedLike · Reply · April 15 at 3:25pmIzzy Martinez TorrezIzzy Martinez Torrez What the actual fuckLike · Reply · April 15 at 3:26pmIzzy Martinez TorrezWrite a reply...Choose FileAshley SolomonAshley Solomon noLike · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:26pmIzzy Martinez TorrezIzzy Martinez Torrez Ohhhhh DaytonLike · Reply · April 15 at 3:26pmAnissa AngeleriAnissa Angeleri You guys are too much. I swearLike · Reply · April 15 at 3:26pmAshley SolomonAshley Solomon noLike · Reply · April 15 at 3:27pmAnissa AngeleriAnissa Angeleri And izzy shut up about DaytonLike · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:27pmIzzy Martinez TorrezIzzy Martinez Torrez I know AnissaLike · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:27pmAshley SolomonAshley Solomon Dayton is so hotLike · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:27pmIzzy Martinez TorrezIzzy Martinez Torrez Anissa suck my meatballsLike · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:27pmAnissa AngeleriAnissa Angeleri NO!Like · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:29pmIzzy Martinez TorrezWrite a reply...Choose FileIzzy Martinez TorrezIzzy Martinez Torrez You know who's hotter?Like · Reply · April 15 at 3:27pmAshley SolomonAshley Solomon DaytonLike · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:30pmIzzy Martinez TorrezIzzy Martinez Torrez NooooLike · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:30pmIzzy Martinez TorrezIzzy Martinez Torrez I'm batmanLike · Reply · 1 · April 15 at 3:30pmIzzy Martinez TorrezIzzy Martinez Torrez Ashley Solomon look at your faceLike · Reply · 2 · April 15 at 9:32pmAshley SolomonAshley Solomon shut upLike · Reply · 2 · April 15 at 9:34pmIzzy Martinez TorrezIzzy Martinez Torrez NeverLike · Reply · 2 · April 15 at 9:35pmAshley SolomonAshley Solomon go awayLike · Reply · 3 · April 15 at 9:54pmIzzy Martinez TorrezIzzy Martinez Torrez No no no no NOOOOLike · Reply · 2 · April 15 at 9:55pmSean NoonanSean Noonan Yes yes yes yes YESSSLike · Reply · 2 · April 15 at 10:09pmSean NoonanSean NoonanLike · Reply · 3 · April 15 at 10:48pmSean NoonanSean Noonan BEEDOH! 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Just praying hard it will all end 💕❤️LikeCommentShareCommentsAshley SolomonAshley Solomon the loneliness will go away with friendsLike · Reply · Just now The homies at The Stay with me, I love her to death, no chill she a real one ❤️💕 #thestruggleisrealComing from a bad past a bad spot but learnin to love life 👏🔫❤️👌"I just need to breathe, I need to be released, sick in my head, left undead"Your strong ass people ;) i have scars we all have scars, they tell a story, just stay strong ok , I've been round the block multiple times, I no what it's like. Just keep pushing ___Izzy Ace8 Martinez ✌️💕❤️😘Tell them I've gone , and nothing's wrong .-. ✊❤️💕I'll just stay awake xxx___"I Cant"___by me 😘💕I can't breathe I can't seeBeen a trouble maker since I was a teenBeen thru trauma since I was 4 years oldTime to get my shitz togetherMake myself matterI love the pain the dark withheld I'm a broken monster with nowhere to yellYou can't paint me black like you coloured my soulNow I no I'm growing ol
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dSomething about me has changed... 💊💉👌❤️🔫
hi this message is for Rudy so please forward this to him
, I still care and miss u, im out of the hospital im in a treatment center and im doing better my medication has changed, hope ur doing good too, u helped me ALOT I havnt self harmed since u had that talk with me, I want to thank u from the bottom of my heart, if u need anything I gotchu. I no I got on ur nerves a lot when I misbehaved but my meds are FINALLY working, I havnt used in awhile and im just feelin great, THANK U SO MUCH IDK HOW TO RETURN THE FAVOR, just thanks.....
@ Jump Street Treatment Center... @8:25 pm on 5/17/2017
i unlocked the computer for you
Brian I know the past word
oh really Izzy
its DEEZNUTZ
*he laughs*
it smells like cigarrettes in here
Anthony gave me a Green Day shirt, for dinner i ate 3 drumsticks (chicken not icecream) , 4 scoops of mash potatos and 3 scoops of pasta.
thats my uncle *points at a random guy*
whats his name Izzy ??
uncle Joe
*he laughs*
at first i was singing loads of my favorite songs and he said "i dont sing" yeah fuckin right he was singing along to every song i started singing *hes like ohh i was humming* I GOTCHU, then he said he knows every song i was singing so i stumped him. I call him Brion Griffin, he chill af' , he knows some of my past but noone knows ALL of my past. ive made him laugh alot he really cares. i walk around the house singing. , im glad i aint homeless anymore its been my 6th time being homeless, but imma get back on my feet So WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
♥Alisa/Izzy.19. Ive been thriugh trauma since i was 4 till age 12, my dad died and i went insane :( 191 mental hospitals, raped, abused, street hussler 6 times in my life, alcholic, addict, anger issues, foster care, arrested multiple times, suicidal, homoscidal, have every single mental disorder, all types of medication, been through alot of trauma i mean ALOT, ive been in treatment centers, rehabs, i lose touch with reality, group homes, foster homes, most of the Corona cops know me, ill be turning 19 in 2 days and im at a crisis center, i was a BAD rebellious kid and teen and adult lol. i just #dontgiveafukkkk. but i love helping people, everyone has battles in and out of there minds, everyone has scars, make use of them.... I freestyle sing and rap, i write, listen to ALL genres of music, mainly alternative, I LOVE THE NBHD. im bisexual, if u need me ill always be here, im catagorized as insane, but i got this. #InsanitybreaksOut #ProjektFixTheBroken #DontTrippz2Illz
5/18/2017 @ Jumpstreet Crisis Residential treatment Center...
"Gunz" song written by me....
"lock it up. tear it down, touch my hands not my gun, chew me out, run me down, ill have u know, i dont love and i dont hate, send me a letter, make me rerember what you did to me last December, off the streets and stayin clean, its ight cuz you dont love and you dont hate, do you mind cuz Izzy dont cry, thats alright, touch my gun not my hands ill have you know that im on the run." "Gunz" song written by me....
"lock it up. tear it down, touch my hands not my gun, chew me out, run me down, ill have u know, i dont love and i dont hate, send me a letter, make me rerember what you did to me last December, off the streets and stayin clean, its ight cuz you dont love and you dont hate, do you mind cuz Izzy dont cry, thats alright, touch my gun not my hands ill have you know that im on the run
Puff it up puff it up... illegal is the new legal.... just kidding lol #StayStrong #BattlesDontFightThemselves #FuckIt #BattlezInMyMind #IzzyDoezItz #IGotchu
THIS IS MY REALITY NOT YOURS, GET OUT!
Izzy OsoTrippiecx Martinez added 2 new photos - listening to Sade at Central LA, Los Angeles, California.
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5/19/2017 @JumpStreet
im getting a cake for my 19th bday tomorrow, my mom wrote me a card and gave me a charger + headphones (skullcandy) i wrote her a note on her iPhone, theres no internet/Cell service here...
for lunch i had chicken strips, salad and a chicken wing. for dinner i had 3 chicken drumsticks, rice and steamed butter brocolli, i had a visit with my mom, Johnny was at it again, me being loud acting out and cutting makes him go away, we listened to "Better Man" by Little Big Town, people say im blunt but thats a good thing, we had community meeting to pick a house leader, no breakfast, i found a placement called Tarzana residential Treatment Center, me and staff Brenda have our thing "stop It Cookie" me and Ash "Stop It Cheesecake" i talked to ash on the phone, i used to always get mad at her cuz she did stupid shit but i got her to listen to me cuz i was blunt.... maybe TOO blunt, im on an assesment now, im on a watch, 15 min checks, cuz i had plans of overdosing on my meds by cheeking them, and i was "acting strangly" i have to call the "1-800" number after they call me back in 72 hours, the Tarzana # in 48 hours, its 7:11 pm, i dont feel ight its not ok, somethings wrong, something or someone is killing me my mind is blacking out, i have so much to tell but i keep it inside, i feel like acting up, cuz JJ is me, my reality aint right, i feel like doin something stupid, flashbacks getting bad, i just need to pray to make it all go away.... IzzyzGonBeAlright xc
Izzy OsoTrippiecx Martinez is listening to The Neighbourhood.
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5/19/2017 @JumpStreet
i have 3 choc chip cookies (Famos Amos) 2 in my room and eating 1 now, i finished my inventory with Brenda, i sang for Gimsey (G) my freestyle, ive been loud and hyper idgaf what people say, im just being me, i need to redye my hair, i got sunflower seeds in my room. im on the computer in the staff office cuz i fukkedz upz frown emoticon:( i dont know whats wrong with me? someone go inside my head and tell me, aye u can try and hurt my feelings but its hard to break that wall cxuz nothing offends me or hurts my feelings, cuz i just stopped giving a fuck lol.#IzzyNeedsZ2Crieee
The Neighbourhood
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its 5/20/2017, @ 2:36 pm @JumpStreet...im leaving... i know ive never had a stable living situation, but im gone, not to the streets but just somewhere, i love Gods plans for me, im not in a right state of mind, #IzzyzOuuttahhHerezzzxxx im allergic to one or two of my meds, i had an episode (not as servere as last time) bodies weak and numb, reality faded, sedated, idk lol. bye <333333
so im gonna be hospitalized for awhile, i love u all so muchI love you like a brother (treat u like a friend)i love u too as a sis ~Me and "G" @ JumpStreet 5/20/2017 xxx
I gotta live my life, i gotta stay strong, i cant let it control me,
im staying here, i made it through another breakdown
its 5/20/2017, @ 2:36 pm @JumpStreet...
im leaving... i know ive never had a stable living situation, but im gone, not to the streets but just somewhere, i love Gods plans for me, im not in a right state of mind, im allergic to one or two of my meds, i had an episode (not as servere as last time) bodies weak and numb, reality faded, sedated, idk lol. bye <333333
"Fallin in a world I ain't ashamed I ain't afraid , I don't know my place , I though it was wrong , I've experienced it I've lost it , fate won't be mine." -me
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🖤🥀Updated A Lil Part Of My Life Story Summerized🥀🖤
.♪★I am a recovering drug addict and alcoholic, on Step One &10 MonthsClean.
♪★My deceased father tortured me since I was 4 (I fought back at age 9, when my dad's torture got worse, (on multiple occasions on our he injection me with Meth and Heroin (inside a parked car at Carl's Jr
♪★now I've been homeless 13 times
♪★I rose a 9 year old kid (now 14 years old) named Anthony Castillo-Martinez, he was In an abusive foster home (the same one I was in), so me and my motel roommate and ex girlfriend of One Year. Kimberly Marie-Olivarez took him in
♪★I was mentally unstable and unfit so CPS took him away, (under Kimberly's false accusations that I "gave him drugs")
♪★im known for police, fire department, AMR, sherriffs etc.
♪★Jeremy Baraz & Ismhael Baraz, got shot && I saw the entire thing , and I almost got killed as well
♪★I was Prostituting/got sold, got drugged up and abused for money for us (To raise Anthony, and have a hotel for me Kim and him to live) and she killed herself (right in front of me and I tried to st0p her, but I was to late
♪★ I've been raped by my drug dealers which also drugged me up.people on the streets, Kimberly && many more)
♪★I was in Foster Care a couple times, ×°the 2nd time i was in abusive/Drug addicts, Angela and Jimmy Miller (they tortured, force fed, raped, abused, but me, drugged me up, had multiple people (over 40 a day) come in an rape me one by one
x°first a foster called GHS with staff instead of parents
x° and with Lisa (who was like a grandma to me but she passed away later on so I moved , later finding out that she attempted suicide)
♪★I've been in 215 mental hospitals (ETS, Loma Linda, Arrowhead, Cedars Cienai, San Bernardino Community, Delamo, The Willows "CRC", Auoura Charter Oaks, Auoura Las Encinas, UCI, Canyon Ridge, Kaiser, Kaiser Sunset, College Hospital)
♪★lock down treatment centers,1in Utah called Copper Hills Youth Center, ♪★multiple treatment centers
crisis centers (Crisis Stabelization Unit a 24 hour crisis center [CSU] over 80 times)
♪★2 week mental health and drug/alcohol programs (STAY Program (2x), Jumpstreet, Excelsior House, Rancho West, and Telecare Lagos...2x each)
♪★group homes (Rancho Domocitas), ♪★Boarding Cares (Golden Girls, a SSI paid house of all girls)
♪★rehabs (Cedar House 2x, CHYC, and multiple others)
♪★shelters (House of Miracles, Lutheran Mission, Set Free Ranch, Path Of Life, and many otherz)
♪★the streets (13 times homeless/on the streets, LA, OC, Menifee, Riverside, Murrietta, Mission Viejo, Corona, irvine and San Bernardino)
♪★been in car accidents (over 10 times)
♪★i have anger issues (extremely bad), been kicked out of multiple schools since 7th grade
♪★I've attempted suicide over 50 to 100 times
♪★I've self harmed on multiple occasions (in all kinds of different methods)
♪★I have bipolar (manic depressive disorder type 1 mixed episode).
♪★depression (major depressive disorder).
♪★paranioa.
♪★anxiety.
♪★Buliemia.
♪★insomnia.
♪★Dissociative Identity Fued.
♪★skitzoaffective (extreme skitzophrenia && bipolar mixed) ♪★PTSD.
♪★ocd.
♪★attachment disorder.
♪★Autism.
♪★borderline personality.
♪★amnesia.
♪★multiple personality disorder. ♪★anorexia.
♪★&&..i helped the homeless and people In hospitals (I help everyone way toooo much)
♪★been 0n all mental Health medication (I mean ALL)
♪★ People Tried To Send
Me To Metropolitan State Hospital(highest level of Care)
♪★IMD (Institution For The Mentally Diseased) on multiple occasions
♪★ive been to many therapists, physciatrists, ER's, and been on 51/50, 52/50 holds , concervertaship
♪★and lastly ive got taken away from my mom on four occasions (personal reasons)
♪★I've never had a stable home since 2011, now on Augest of 2018 I'm finally home
♪★I help others cus im used to people not caring about me
♪★I have trust issues, im always there to help to care to make sure there OK.
🥀💛❤💚My Self Titled Mashup/My Little World (Featuring My Own Lyrics, Stories, Opinions, and Insanity)💚❤💛🥀
💛💚💛💚*Hey it's yo girl Izzy, yo favorite piece of trash, back at it again with more Mindlessness and Insanity. So idk what to call this but it is stories, lyrics, and ideas I made up and put in between lyrics. This is for Self Titles only but I reference Trench a lot cuz I think it has a lot to do with the concept of this album. I hope you enjoy. And yes I mentioned Clancy a lot, so get over it you silly creatures, and all y'all cowards think that your the only "Holy One" can go to Dema and see what pain and darkness is really like. Jk. 😂😂Anyways, if any of y'all cowards needs me, or even if you don't, I'm here for you, I'm gonna be there and help in any which way shape or form I possibly can, no matter what it takes I won't desert your flight. So Stay Alive my beautiful diamonds, my Frens my Frens, I thank you all for carrying on alive. So without further ado, here's some beautiful pieces of trash you can add to your collection. Your Life Matters && We Will Get Thru This, Together! OK Fren? Okay. Excuse me while I sing to the sky.
*ATTENTION. ALL THE WORDS AND SENTENCES AND PARAGRAPHS AND ANYTHING WITH THIS SYMBOL *, ON IT IS MINE! The rest is the original lyrics.
I forgot to stay alive. 💛💛
*Listen up everyone,
*System shut down in 15 minutes
*You will all be assigned
*A unit in the mind
*Listen Listen, OK EVERYBODY QUIET
*That includes you Clancy
*No it doesn't Nico, you wish
*Excuse me, could you PLEASEEE LEAVEEE
*okay that's it! That is the LAST TIME I ever here backsass from you Clancy
Or you will be sent to the chambers
*Nico, my mind is already a prison anyways, and guess what. You would be nothing without Tyler. So uh. Hush it
*OK THAT'S IT! CLANCY GET OUT,
says who----
*You have no power over me. Nico. So go do something useful
*Clancy your getting on my last nerve
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*Blurryface to the front desk, I repeat Blurryface to the front desk*
*TYLER SAVED ME NICO! AND YOU DESERVE HELL FOR TORTURING HIM I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR HIM NICO
*that's to bad Clancy. What's done is done
NICO GO AND SEE YOUR BOSS BEFORE I TELL THE WHOLE COMMUNITY OF DEMA THAT YOUR REALLY BLURRY FACE.
*Say one more thing Clancy and I'm putting you in the hole!
*NICO GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY FACE!
* *we need backup to DEMA HEADQUARTERS UNIT 3, CLANCY IS ACTING UP AGAIN. *
*Oh HELL NO NICO IT'S NOT EVEN TRENCH ERA YET.
*who made you time god?
* *I REPEAT BLURRY FACE TO THE FRONT DESK BLURRY FACE TO THE FRONT DESK*
* *at the front desk*
*So your Blurry face, Nico you can't be doing that. Clancy already got on your ass about it. And they are serious. Clancy will do literally anything to save, help, care, be there, fight for Tyler. And all you do is fuck up Tyler in every which way possible. And that involves giving up your power.
*NOT ON MY WATCH!
WATCH ME!
*5 hours later*
*Hello, my name is Clancy. Another version. Of him. And my real name is Izzy. I'm not a boy
I'm trying to help, be there, care, support, save, fix Tyler in anyway I can
Welcome. To.... Self Titled..... Sorry I was in between Trench and Dema. But I'm here now, right?
*Be Safe Out There!
I know you're not a liar and
I know you could set fire this day
Go ahead and make me look away
Strike me down, I am calling your
Lightning down from your dark hiding place
Go ahead and show me your face
*We all know Nico is Blurry face
*But Blurry is the one I'm not
*I've been controlled by darkness
*So used to it for most of my life
*Welcome to my mind. Izzy style
Reign down and destroy me
*Twist me around and play me
Reign down and destroy me
*Turn me upsidedown and save me
Reign down
*Twist around
I mean no disrespect
*We know you don't, Tyler
I am simply very perplexed by your ways
Why would you let us use your name?
*It's Blurry face to you honey
Reign down and destroy me
*Torture me and kill me
Reign down and destroy me
*I'll save Tyler from His demons
Reign down and destroy me
*Kill me instead of Tyler
Reign down and destroy me
*I'm a perfect mistake
I don't wanna fall, fall away
I don't wanna fall, fall away
*I'll catch you when you fall, Tyler
I'll keep the lights on in this place
*I'll cast the darkness away
Cause I don't wanna fall, fall away
*I'm a perfect mistake
*Sanity came way to late
I don't wanna fall, fall away
I don't, I don't wanna fall, fall away
I'll keep the lights on in this place
*I'll cast the darkness away
Cause I don't wanna fall, fall away
*Faking smiles day and night
I disguise
And I will lie
*I'm trying
And I will take my precious time
As the days melt away
And see the reminence of yesterday
As I stand in line
*Always losing my mind
And I die as I wait as I wait on my crime
And I'll try to delay what you make of my life
But I don't want your way
I want mine
*But I'm on the borderline
I'm dying and I'm trying
But believe me I'm fine
But I'm lying
I'm so very far from fine
*I feel the same way Tyler
*I. Am here until you don't need me
*And even when your OK I still won't leave
*Tyler your my shining star
And I
I can feel the pull begin
Feel my conscience wearing thin
And my skin
It will start to break up and fall apart
*Don't make this your fate
I don't wanna fall, fall away
I don't wanna fall, fall away
I'll keep the lights on in this place
Cause I don't wanna fall, fall away
*Keep me with you my love
Every time I feel selfish ambition
Is taking my vision
*Questioning my existence
My crime is my sentence
Repentance is taking commission
It's taking a toll on my soul
I'm screaming submission and
I don't know if I am dying or living
Cause I will save face
*Is he talking about Blurryface
For name's sake
Abuse grace
Take aim to obtain a new name
In a newer place
But my name is lame
I can't walk and I ain't the same
And my name became
A new destiny to the grave
*Welcome to my world people
*Tyler deserves some peace
*And I
*But we
I can feel the pull begin
Feel my conscience wearing thin
*I'm crawling out of my skin
And my skin
It will start to break up and fall apart
I'll catch you when you fall
I don't wanna fall, fall away
I don't wanna fall, fall away
I'll keep the lights on in this place
Cause I don't wanna fall, fall away
*Hi again. It's Izzy Um so basically Tyler doesn't want to lose himself, he also questioning his faith and himself. He's trying to figure everything out but in the process he is losing his mind and himself. He's trying his best. He is going through a lot of stuff. And he doesn't feel like he's alive anymore. But a part of him wants to stay. While the darkness and his demons are pulling him away. The reason why I inserted Trench in the Self Titled project is because some of the songs on Self Titled are about Trench. Including Face, or Blurryface. Cuz this has been going on longer than we think and know. It has a lot to do with DEMA, TRENCH, AND BLURRYFACE. Clancy is just Clancy. Anyone can be him. In there imaginations. But some of the lyrics I wrote and fit them in between the original lyrics. So let me tell you a story. From Clancy and myself. XxxX
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Your grandpa died
When you were nine
They said he had
Lost his mind
You have learned
Way too soon
You should never trust the Pantaloon
*Did he show signs he wanted to leave life
*Was he really alive
*Now it's your turn
*Watch your mind burn
To be alone
*Demons calling on the phone
Find a wife
And build yourself a home
You have learned
Way too soon
That your dad is now the Pantaloon
*
Did he treat you like you should
You are tired
You are hurt
*I am dying
*I am burnt
A moth ate through
Your favorite shirt
And all your friends fertilize
The ground you walk
.
*Don't let them control you, or who you are
Lose your mind
*I'm committing silent suicide
He's seen too many stare downs
Between the sun and the moon
In the morning air
*The moon is shining light for you
*The sun is blinding you from you
How he used to hustle all the people
Walking through the fairgrounds
He's been around so long
*So it's his time now my love
He's changed his meaning of a chair now
Because a chair now
Is like a tiny island in the sea of all the people
Who glide across the very surface
That made his bones feeble
The end can't come soon enough
But is it too soon?
Either way he can't deny
He is the Pantaloon
*The miles of land we roam
*The island of isolation
You are tired
You are hurt
I am dying
I am hurt
A moth ate through
Your favorite shirt
And all your friends fertilize
The ground you walk
Lose your mind
*Are you getting tired of me yet
You like to sleep alone
It's colder than you know
Cause your skin is so
Used to colder bones
*Your so used to the bad (I am)
*That you don't know how to take the good
It's warmer in the morning
Than what it is at night
Your bones are held together
*Our body is like a house
*One part can't stand up without the other
By your nightmares and your frights
*I'm committing silent suicide
You are tired
You are hurt
A moth ate through
Your favorite shirt
And all your friends they fertilize
The ground you walk
So lose your mind
*
I'm killing myself more everyday
You are tired
You are hurt
A moth ate through
Your favorite shirt
And all your friends they fertilize
The ground you walk
Lose your mind
Hello, we haven't talked in quite some time
I know I haven't been the best of sons
Hello, I've been traveling in the deserts of my mind
And I haven't found a drop of life
*I will make sure your alive, Tyler
I haven't found a drop of you
I haven't found a drop
I haven't found a drop of water
Water
I try desperately to run through the sand
As I hold the water in the palm of my hand
Cause it's all that I have and it's all that I need
*Love is all we need
And the waves of the water mean nothing to me
But I try my best in all that I can
To hold tightly onto what's left in my hand
*you've been surrounded
But no matter how, how tightly I will strain
The sand will slow me down and the water will drain
*Your a miracle, Tyler
I'm just being dramatic
In fact
I'm only at it again
As an addict with a pen
*We are becoming paper thin
Who's addicted to the wind
As it blows me back and forth
Mindless, spineless, and pretend
Of course I'll be here again
See you tomorrow
*Sundays are my suicide days
*No more pain no more sorrow
*For me at least
*Tyler keeps me alive
But it's the end of today
End of my ways
As a walking denial
My trial was filed
As a crazy suicidal head case
But you specialize in dying
*I specifically wanna save life's
You hear me screaming, Father
And I'm lying here just crying
So wash me with your water
Water
*CUT I SAID CUT! Clancy what did I tell you about saving Tyler
*YOU SAID THAT YOU ARE NOTHING WITHOUT TYLER
*Uh no Clancy, cut your shit, You've never met or even known Tyler
*Nico, you know my name not my story. And dont judge unless you've been in there shoes, listen Nico. You have demons too. You torture Tyler cuz your hurting yourself. Even tho I hate your guts I'm here for u. Everyone needs someone.
*Clancy, you don't need to save me, and you right. But I can't let the other bishops see it. All of our smiles are fake
Remember that one bishop that tried to save you from me Clancy?
*yeah, who was that??
*don't tell anyone u told you but, it was Keons, also known as "HeavyydirtySsoul"
He was my brother, and he betrayed me, so I decided I needed someone new to torture. So u chose Tyler. And then you., *well, I am not judging you for it.
Cuz a dream starts and a dream must end,
Hello, we haven't talked in quite some time
*Don't give up on me
*I've gaven up on myself
I know I haven't been the best of sons
Hello, I've been traveling in the desert of my mind
And I haven't found a drop of life
I haven't found a drop of you
*Who am I,
*Welcome to my twisted mind
I haven't found a drop
I haven't found a drop of water
Water
*so basically Tyler had a hard time of letting someone close to him go. He questions if he kept him alive for to long. Hence "is it too soon" or if he should not let him be in pain anymore. Cuz he wants to do all he can for him. Either the grandpa died naturally or killed himself. After telling everyone "I'm not leaving, I promise" in Addict With A Pen. He said he hasn't talked to God in quite some time. And he feels like a shit person. Tyler is ALWAYS HARD ON HIMSELF AND HE BEATS HIMSELF UP. he hides his pain by saying he's fine and fakes a smile. But I saw right thru him before he said that "I'm so very far from fine" cuz I fake my smile 90% of my life. But he's crying out for help and no one is listening. But I am here for him throughout his journey. 💛💛💛
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I feel for you, but when did you believe you were alone?
You say that spiders crawled inside
And made themselves a home where light once was
Petrified of who you are and who you have become
*I don't know who I am or I once was
You will hide from everyone
*I will be a someone
Denying you need someone to exterminate your bones
*
It's not your time, my love
Friend, please remove your hands from over your eyes for me
*I won't let you leave me
I know you want to leave
But friend, please don't take your life away from me
*suicidal tendencies, who I was meant to be
*Don't worry about me
*I will turn the world upside down
Living like a ghost, you walk by everyone you know
You say that you're fine, but you have lost your sway and glow
So I stopped by to let you know
*
You are a someone, far from a no one
Friend, please remove your hands from over your eyes for me
I know you want to leave
*if I kill myself will I be free?
But friend, please don't take your life away from me
Would you let me know your plans tonight?
*tomorrow is never promised
Cause I just won't let go 'til we both see the light
And I have nothing else left to say
But I will listen to you all day
Yes, I will
*I will care, help, be there in Anyway
*I fucking possibly can
Friend, please remove your hands from over your eyes for me
I know you want to leave
But friend, please don't take your life away from me
*Attention. Attention
*Trench will be on lockdown for 24 hours
*You will not eat, sleep, breathe, speak
*Unless you are spoken too
*CLANCY, WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?
*Oh Nico your playing my game now
*Oh, is that so?
*Do you want me to talk at a pace you can comprehend??
*D9NT GIVE ME BACKSASS CLANCY, YOUR NOTHING AND YOU WILL ALWAYS BE NOTHING!!
*NICO I SWEAR, YOUR NOTHING AND WITHOUT ME YOU WOULDN'T EXIST!
*_CODE GREEN CODE GREEN, I REPEAT CODE GREEN _
*Hello, I am darkness,
*I will tear you up, possess you
*Hi my name is Insanity,
*I will eat you up, take over you
*I had a body once before,
*Nico got to powerful
*Tyler came and saved me
*The bullets in our brain
*I'm Izzy, I'm not normal
*Food is my enemy
*If not today there's always tomorrow
*Blurryface is an alternate creature
*From the one we call, the mind
*Hold on sweetheart, we're in for a wild ride
*I am HERE FOR ALL OF YOU, NO MATTER WHAT IT TAKES
*I ain't giving up on none of y'all
*I'm changing the world
*We grow stronger every second
*Remember one thing.
*STAY ALIVE!!
There's miles of land in front of us
*All our battle soldiers are in us
And we're dying with every step we take
We're dying with every breath we make
And I'll fall in line
*Tyler is different from the rest
*we are all in the battlegrounds
*a fight between darkness and light
*God and the devil are playing chess in our mind
A stranger's back is all I see
He's only a few feet in front of me
And I'll look left and right sometimes
But I'll fall in line
*we will save Tyler in time
No one looks up anymore
*We look down cuz we're unsure
Cause you might get a raindrop in your eye
And Heaven forbid they see you cry
As we fall in line
*Don't tell a soul, I will never fall in line
And about this time of every year
The line will go to the ocean pier
And walk right off into the sea
And then we fall asleep
*we will be chanting in our dreams
*no one hears our silent screams
And as we near the end of land
And our ocean graves are just beyond the sand
I ask myself the question "why I fall in line"
And then out of the corner of my eye
I see a spaceship in the sky
And hear a voice inside my head:
'Follow me instead.'
'Follow me instead.'
'Follow me instead.'
'Follow me.'
*Take me to space and make me escape
Then the wages of war will start
Inside my head with my counterpart
And the emotionless marchers will chant the phrase:
'This line's the only way.'
*don't lose yourself in your mind
And then I start down the sand
My eyes are focused on the end of land
But again the voice inside my head says
'Follow me instead.'
'Follow me instead.'
'Follow me.'
'Follow me instead.'
'Follow me instead!'
'Follow me instead!'
'Follow me instead.'
'Follow me instead.'
Take me up, seal the door
I don't want to march here anymore
I realize that this line is dead
So I'll follow you instead
*well well well, look what we have here
*YOUR A COPY CLANCY
*atleast I'm a better version of you
*CLANCY SHUT IT! Your about 5 seconds away of being murdered
*I've already been murdered most my life
*Izzy!?
*yes, I know rock bottom, pain, darkness, hell and trauma from top to bottom.
*take her mask off, no one on the outside needs to know what goes on behind closed doors
*you don't know me, NICO!
And how the fuck am I a copy?
*your an idiot Clancy,
*even the most perfect thing has a flaw, and I help obsessively and your all enough, thank u for existing
*CLANCY I AM NOT TELLING YOU AGAIN, WE ARE IN MIND AREA 3 AND IF YOU VIOLATE OUR CODES, YOU WILL BE SENT TO THE HOLE IN DEMA
*Hello darkness my old friend
*DAMMIT CLANCY SHUT UP
*Well I'm the lead singer
*THAT'S FUCKING IT, SEND CLANCY TO DEMA HEADQUARTERS
*In time we will leave the city, for now we will stay alive
*OK first of all. We are in the Self Titled Era,
*Sorry Keons. I will obey you, but I'm not gonna listen to Nico
*YOUR NOT GONNA WHAT?
*listen to music while I sing to the sky
*I'm gonna miss this place Clancy
*Me Too Izzy.
*Remember to Stay Alive
So then you put me back in my place
So I might start another day
And once again I will be
In a march to the sea
He stays home from work this time
He never really told his wife
He never really told a lie
But this time he decides that it's alright
It's alright
No one really knows his mind
And no one knows behind his eyes
The man deserves a medal
But he's never really won a prize before
He goes to lock the door
He has fallen in love
He knows it's enough
But the world looks down and frowns
Get up, Johnny Boy, Get up, Johnny Boy
Get up, cause the World has left you lying on the ground
You're my pride and joy, you're my pride and joy
Get up, Johnny Boy because we all need you now
We all need you now
Someone said, "Away you go"
And someone said to you, "Goodbye"
They deflect the disrespect
When they say that they blame it on the times
They blame it on times
We all know you're qualified
To fix a chair and love your wife
We all know you're qualified
But they lie when they blame it on the times
Oh, they blame it on the times
He has fallen in love
He knows it's enough
But the world looks down and frowns
Get up, Johnny Boy, Get up, Johnny Boy
Get up, cause the World has left you lying on the ground
You're my pride and joy, you're my pride and joy
Get up, Johnny Boy because we all need you now
We all need you now
I will carry all your names and I will carry all your shame
And I will carry all your names and I will carry all your shame
And I will carry all your names and I will carry all your shame
Get up, Johnny Boy, Get up, Johnny Boy
Get up, cause the World has left you lying on the ground
You're my pride and joy, you're my pride and joy
Get up, Johnny Boy because we all need you now
Get up, Johnny Boy, Get up, Johnny Boy
Get up, cause the World has left you lying on the ground
You're my pride and joy, you're my pride and joy
Get up, Johnny Boy because we all need you now
Oh, Ms Believer, my pretty sleeper
Your twisted mind is like snow on the road
*so excuse me while i sing to the sky
Your shaking shoulders prove that it's colder
*suicide might look like the easy way out
*but it takes away yo pain
And passes it on to someone
Inside your head than the winter of dead
*follow your heart, remember your a someone
*don't give up., after all you've been thru
*your still here, staying alive & saving life's
I will tell you, I love you
But the muffs on your ears will cater your fears
My nose and feet are running as we start
To travel through snow, together we go
Together we go
We get colder as we grow older
We will walk so much slower
Oh, Ms Believer, my pretty weeper
Your twisted thoughts are like snow on the rooftops
Please, take my hand, we're in foreign land
As we travel through snow, together we go
Together we go
We get colder as we grow older
We will walk so much slower
I don't fall slow like I used to
I fall straight down
You've stolen my air catcher
That kept me safe and sound
*how am I still functioning?
*after how much I tortured and killed of me
My parachute's what got me
Safely to ground
But now the cord's not working
And I see you staring me down
*falling down from the painted sky
I won't fall in
Love with falling
I will try to avoid those eyes
*I try not to open my eyes
*bloodshot eyes in disguise
I think you would beat the moon in a
Pretty contest
And the moon just happened to be the
Very first thing that I missed
I was doing fine on my own and there
Wasn't much I lacked
But you've stolen my air catcher
And I don't know if I want it back
*I feel as if I was meant to fall
I won't fall in
Love with falling
I will try avoid those eyes
Cause I'm not sure I
Want to give you
Tools that can
Destroy my heart
*break my system apart
And I just don't say what you wanna hear
So I'll write my fears
And I don't believe in talking just to breathe
And falling selfishly
*hold on I'm vanishing
I won't fall in
Love with falling
I will try avoid those eyes
*I let out some silent cries
*bloodshot eyes in disguise
But now I'm here to
Give you words as
Tools that can
Destroy my heart
*tear me apart
*it's izzy again, okay so in Friend Please he's either talking about the clique or about himself. He's trying to stop the person from ending there life. Trying to help them in the best of his abilities. We all fake a smile at one point (I do it everyday) and no one sees behind there glowing eyes but one day there not glowing anymore. And no one knows the person's minds or what there going thru. They act like there OK to not disturb others. In March To The Sea, kind of the same concept. But Tyler is dying with every move And every breath. He's trying as hard as he can and he wants to take the easy way out and he doesn't know who he is or his place and purpose in life. But he keeps marching but he doesn't wanna be like everyone else. Like in society everybody follows a certain norm and Tyler wants to stand out and change the world. In Johnny Boy it's about a kid that has gotten a lot of hell in life and people don't accept him for he is. He wants to be loved and wanted. Tyler accepts him for who he is. And helps him overcome his demons and stays by his side until he's feeling decent and even after Tyler still sticks by his side.in Ms Believer Tyler is standing by his loved ones side, he will be with them no Matter how long or how much it takes and at the person's own pace. Cuz some go slower than others in recovery. Tyler is basically helping in anyway he can (which I can relate to, I relate to all of it. Everything I just mentioned about Ms Believer I am the same way, but I help way to much, and I do everything in my power to help in anyway I can no matter how long or what it takes and I will not give up on the person or myself. no matter what it takes) in Air Catcher, Tyler talks about the one thing that kept him motivated, taken away from him and he gets distracted with un important things and misses what he really needs to know, see, hear, think in life. He's avoiding his reality so he tries to distract himself with stuff to numb the pain. He cant depend on his "air catcher" cuz it's just a scape goat from reality. He doesn't wanna get used to the hell and pain and relapses and negatives in his life. But he has to face reality some how.
*AHEM! CLANCY GET OUT OF THERE
*what, I already am demonized anyways I mean I'm used to all the hell and trauma in my life. That it doesn't matter to me anymore, I fake a fucking smile everyday and I've had trauma from age 4 til July 2018 occurring 24/7 and me being Izzy is killing me. I help others obsessively and I gave you my body Clancy, I don't wanna be Izzy anymore, I kill and torture myself more every day, and my only purpose in life is helping others and making a difference, but people say I do it obsessively, and I hate myself so much. But Clancy you took my place and I greatly appreciate it. I'm here for all y'all until the end in every way possible and no matter what it takes im not giving up on these people. I would get beat to smithereens for all y'all. Clancy can you do me a favor?
*Sure, Izzy.
*Can you tell Nico that he doesn't have to be an ass all the time, cuz DEMA got on his ass too. He has x been thru some shit and he became cold hearted after his parents died, his form in human is Nico and his form in spirit and demon is Blurryface, so tell him that his existence is important and that he is worth it and he needs to stop torturing others to hide his pain. He is assigned here to be a demon. He was once a good guy. Tell Noah that. He is important. Okay?
*of course my love. Thank u Izzy.
**2 hours later
*WHERE THE FUCK IS CLANCY?
*How do I know, he went to go do meditation
*I don't give a flying fuck if he's singing to the sky again, he has an assignment he hasn't competed
*IM HERE NOAH, I JUST WANTS YOU TO KNOW THAT YO ARE IMPORTANT AND YOUR LIFE MATTERS AND YOU NEED TO STOP HIDING YOUR PAIN CUZ YOU DON'T WANNA BE A PRISONER OF DEMA AND YOU CAME HERE TO ESCAPE.
*, I think Clancy's on something
*, SILENCE! Clancy listen, you are not Izzy and you don't know shit about me, CAPECHE,?
*Oh Noah, you --
*Do NOT CALL ME Noah,
*well according to my calculations, I'm going to be dead in 30 days, so you have 30 days to try and break my codes
*CLANCY THAT IS IT I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF YOU, NEXT SMART REMARK OF YOURS AND YOUR GOING STRAIGHT TO DEMA AND IF YOU CAN'T BEHAVE, YOU WILL END UP EITHER DEAD R PARALYZED!
*Nico, your such a beautiful peace of shit
*OK listen, I'm not arguing with you CLANCY, you are banned from singing to the sky,
*there's a universe inside all of us, so that means that....
*CLANCY, SHUT IT.
*excuse me while I sing to the sky
*HEY CLANCY IS DOING THAT THING AGAIN, CALL DEMA AND GET HIM A BED IN ONE OF THERE PRISON CELLS
You just fucked with the wrong bishop sweetheart
*,listen NICO I've already been there countless times and I've been in the deepest darkest parts. I. Am known for going there and so is Izzy. She knows pain, rock bottom, hell, trauma, and darkness from top to bottom. So NOTHING CAN STOP ME NICO, FUCKING TRY ME.
*Stay Alive Clancy, it's worth it I promise
*, KEONS SHUT YOUR MOUTH DO U WANNA GO FOR A VACATION TO THERE TOO.
*Clancy, lets go sing to the sky..
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He wakes up early today
Throws on a mask that will alter his face
*Fakes a smile all day everyday
Nobody knows his real name
But now he just uses one he saw on a grave
*what if Blurryface has its own demons
And he pretends he's okay, but you should see, oh
Him in bed late at night, he's petrified
*I will protect you from the monsters
*that lay within us, that live under your bed, sometimes in your head
Take me out, and finish this waste of a life
Everyone gather around for a show
*it's hard to explain what goes on
*inside my complex mind
Watch as this man disappears as we know
Do me a favor and try to ignore
As you watch him fall through a blatant trapdoor
*Tyler, I will save, fix, help, care, and be there for you
*don't take your life, it's not yo time
*the brutal hell that kills us inside
He thinks that faith might be dead
Nothing kills a man faster than his own head
*overthinking and can barely speak our mind
He used to see dreams at night
But now he's just watching the backs of his eyes
*can't hide from reality forever
*losing ourselves and our minds
*our sanity is gone down the drain
And he pretends he's okay, but you should see, oh
Him in bed late at night, he's petrified
*I really don't think you know
Take me out and finish this waste of a life
*your life is far from worthless
Everyone gather around for a show
*Tyler it's not tine for you to go
Watch as this man disappears as we know
Do me a favor and try to ignore
As you watch him fall through a blatant trapdoor
*I'll pick you up off the floor
*Dust yourself off and try again
*We grow stronger every second
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah!
*hold on Tyler, I'm not letting you go
Oh, yeah
Oh, yeah
*you say your life is worthless
*I say your life is a miracle
Take me out and finish this waste of life
Everyone gather around for a show
*I'm not gonna watch you kill yourself
*in front of all these clueless faces
Watch as this man disappears as we know
Do me a favor and try to ignore
When you watch him fall through a blatant trapdoor
*nobody cares unless yo pretty or dying
'Cause nobody knows he's alive
The air begins to feel a little thin
As I start the car and then I begin
To add the miles piled up behind me
I can barely feel a smile deep inside me
*you've fallen into the depths of your *deepest darkest parts of yo mind
And I began to envy the headlights driving south
I want to crack the door so I can just fall out
But then I remember when you packed my car
You reached in the back and buckled up your heart
For me to drive away with
*your not alone so deal with it
I begin to understand why God died
*a player's game, drove them insane
The demon sat there waiting on her porch
It was a little dark so he held a makeshift torch
And when my car was far out of sight
He crept in her room and stayed there for the night
*take him out with a flick of my wrist
And then I felt chills in my bones
The breath I saw was my not own
*possessing you cuz it's obsessed with you
I knew my skin that wrapped my frame
Wasn't made to play this game
Then I saw him, torch in hand
He laid it out, what he had planned
And then I said, "I'll take the grave
Please just send them all my way."
*Tyler took everyone's demons
, *and made them his own
And then I felt chills in my bones
The breath I saw was not my own
I knew my skin that wrapped my frame
Wasn't made to play this game
*I stole the demons from Tyler
*and made them all my own
*then I realized it was Nico
Then I saw him, torch in hand
He laid it out, what he had planned
And then I said, "I'll take the grave
Please just send them all my way."
*No send them my way cuz
*Tyler needs a life long break
I begin to understand why God died
*my demons possess me one by one
*let's have a little fun
The air begins to feel a little thin
As we're waiting for the morning to begin
But for now you told me hold this jar
And when I looked inside I saw it held your heart
For me to walk away with
*Tyler is fighting against himself
I begin to understand why God died
*im making myself to be a sacrifice
*WILL YOU TWO QUIT IT
*Nico how about you shut it
*FUCK CLANCY YOU ARE BECOMING A PAIN IN MY BRAIN
*Well, I know I'm very useful at times, cuz I'm still the lead singer
*Clancy is definitely on something
*I'm on space you coward, omfg the cowards actually did it. WE DID IT
*Both of y'all need to can it, if you mention twenty one pilots ONE MORE TIME, Your going to regret it
*Nico did you know, that we are twenty one pilots AND SO ARE U
*Clancy your asking for it!!!
*Yes um can I get a Big Mac with extra cheese and with a side of fries
*I'm disowning you guys tomorrow by the way, you both are sassy humans
*Oh fuck I love that name, it suits me so well
*IZZY, YOUR THE REASON THAT
1. Tyler got saved
2. Clancy is acting up
And 3. That I can't torture ANYONE
*Oh I know, this is my mission, so scuse me while I sing to the sky
*Izzy and Clancy, you are both BANISHED TO DEMAS DARK UNIT, THE DEEP DARK PARTS OF ONE'S MIND
*oh lovely I'm in for a good time
*hey Keons can you escort these cowards to Unit C
*how about you shove Unit C up your ass
*KEONS! Do you wanna go too
*I need 3 off duty bishops to escort these 3 cowards to Unit C deep inside DEMA
*...... IT'S TIME TO WAKE UP
I wanna fall inside your ghost
And fill up every hole inside my mind
And I want everyone to know
That I am half a soul divided
*sometimes I wanna die
*some days I wanna fly
Sometimes we will die
And sometimes we will fly away
Either way, you're by my side
Until my dying days
And if I'm not there and I'm far away
I said, don't be afraid
I said, don't be afraid
We're going home
*falling into our darkest demons
I wanna strip myself of breath
A breathless piece of death I've made for you
A mortal rotting piece of song
Will help me carry on
*We Did It! We Did it!
But at least you heard
*some days the word needs to be heard
Sometimes we will die
And sometimes we will fly away
Either way, you're by my side
Until my dying days
And if I'm not there and I'm far away
I said, don't be afraid
I said, don't be afraid
We're going home
*fly me to the moon
*fly me into space
*into the universe inside of us
So the hearse ran out of gas, a passenger person grabbed a map
And the driver inside it contrived a new route to save the past
And checked his watch and grabbed a cab, a beautifully plain taxi cab
The cab had a cleared out back and two men started to unpack
*driving into my destiny
Driving once again, but now this time there were three men
*the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit
And then I heard one of them say, "I know the night will turn to gray
I know the stars will start to fade when all the darkness fades away
*Lord, please take my sickness away
We had to steal him from his fate so he could see another day."
And then I cracked open my box, someone must have picked the lock
A little light revealed the spot where my fingernails had fought
Then I pushed it open more, pushing up against the door
Then I sat up off the floor and found the breath I was searching for
There they were, three men up front, all I saw were backs of heads
*Telling us to go to bed
And then I asked, "am I alive and well, or am I dreaming dead?"
Then one turned around to say, "We're driving toward the morning sun
*falling towards our destiny's
*we are the chosen ones
Where all your blood is washed away and all you did will be undone."
*God will forgive thy sins
I said, don't be afraid
I said, don't be afraid
*It's Izzy, your lovely damaged coward
So basically Trapdoor is about suicide, obviously, but noone noticed unless there dying or if there "popular or normal" so he talks about him faking a smile and is being tortured by demons none knows or believes about, so he feels like noone cares about him. Or wouldn't notice if he's gone. Nobody would care. He'd do anything he can to kill himself, but something stops him. I believe this guy is Tyler, in A Car, A Torch, A Death is about Tyler sacrifices himself so the demons torture him instead of everybody else. And he wants to take everyone's pain away. (I relate on a personal level).. Taxi Cab is about The Father, The Son && The Holy Spirit (as the 3 men) trying to save Tyler from himself, Tyler questioning his faith, and He says to trust him. Basically God calling out Tyler.
*Hello and Welcome to the Izzy && Clancy Show in your lovely prison hole of darkness, Dema has my soul now, he drained the little of the sanity I had left. He twisted and tortured my mind, my demons are intensified and I'm slowly dying but I'm used to this hell. It's became so close that now it's my friend cuz I'm Izzy and imma fight till I die
*I'm Clancy, I'm the damaged coward, I have a past in the deep pits of Dema, in between here and Trench. But I tried to save Nico and Trench but who's here to save Dema,??
*Hello is there a Clancy in here?
*No there's just a Clancy in here
*Izzy shut it.
*dont ask if you don't want to know
*oh so your the coward who "saves helps and care for people obsessively and has been thru hell trauma rock bottom pain and darkness? Are you the trouble maker that Nico sent up here for punishment and has a sassy mouth to cover up your pain??"
*Yes Why?
*your the reason Clancy was acting out of character. Right?
*WOULD YOU GET TO THE FUCKING POINT?!!!
*because you are a higher level and at risk troubled, high maintenance, and critically insane girl who is Nico's copy?
*Hi I'm Clancy and I love to listen to Tyler and Josh all day, WHY THE HELL YOU WANT ME FOR?
*because we are shutting down Trench completely, which means a lot of deaths. And Nico will be taking care of Dema
*Can you save my heavy dirty soul, hey Clancy I think Mr Misty Eye is really Keons
*BOTH OF YOU ARE WORTHLESS PRICES OF TRASH
*aww thank u I love compliments
*CAN WE HAVE A CELL CHANGE PLEASE TO SEPERATE IZZY AND CLANCY AND FORBID THEM TO TALK OR BE NEAR EACHOTHER,,??
*Excusee me could you please leavee?
*Want me to put you in the chair?
*ohhhhh yayuhhhh hey Clancy I need to get back to reality. I'm here OK. In Trench we're not alone. And in Dema you got God and me okay. I'll be watching you this whole time. Okay. Be safe and cautious my love.
*love you too
*CLANCY CUT THE SHIT, WHERE'S NICO
*uh he went with Keons to the control room
*you'll be dead by morning, mark my words
*Stay Alive Clancy, Stay Alive
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Open the slits in your face and start your day
You don't have much time to make your slits look just right
I'm in your mind
I'm singing
I'm in your mind
*it's a precious crime
I'm singing la-da la-da la-da la-da la-da la-da
Look in the mirror and ask your soul if you're alright
*I don't recognize who I see
Put on the glitter that your soul hides behind
You're in my mind
I'm singing
You're in my mind
*I'm busy running and hiding
I'm singing la-da la-da la-da la-da la-da la-da
*your life matters and your feelings are valid
Know you were made holy
Open up your eyes and see
The clouds above will hold you
The clouds above will sing
*God's got you, were in for better news
And in your mind
You're singing la-da la-da la-da la-da la-da la-da-da
*would y'all just listen to me for one second, I'm making an announcement
That Nico, is in fact, Blurryface,
He's been lying to y'all since the beginning, and we went to the Regionals who didn't know who they were
I popped all vessel in Blurryfaces eye and the rest of him, so everything became blurry. And he got the name Blurry face cuz he tried to hide his face cuz he didn't want anyone to see his pain. And that's why Nico hates me so much. And Izzy was in charge.
I fucked up Trench and Dema cuz of the war between me and Nico and Izzy was trying to fix it. So Nico found some bishops and turned everyone against me
But can we stick together. Cuz we're a team. Let's stop tearing eachother down and start lifting eachother up. Okay. This is word from Izzy. And me, The One and Only, Clancy
*AHEM! What are u doing in the headquarters CLANCY
*I don't know Nico, I came back from Dema and my braincells are all gone which means.. I'm thinking out of my ass
*Clancy STOP, YOU RATTED ME OUT AND EXPOSED ME
*oh did I? Hmmmm I think you exposed yourself sweetheart
*FUCK CLANCY THIS IS BLACKMAIL, come on Nico breathe....
*I haven't eaten, slept or functioned since I got sent to the hole, I torture and kill myself everyday BECAUSE OF PEOPLE LIKE YOU
*Clancy, your my adopted brother. And you were right about everything. I'm not in charge here. This is what's inside one's mind. So basically Tyler and Izzy are in charge.
*Nico your making me tear up. Can we made a truce?
*In Trench we're not alone, but this is Self Titled Era. But it does connect to Trench
*Truce, let's sing to the sky, and ONE THING IS YOU HAVE TO LEAVE TYLER ALONE!
*Let's Sing To The Sky
Now is the climax to the story
That gives the demons and angels purpose
They fly around while we are
Walking and mold our emotions
Just to please them
*we live in our minds, far away from here
I am cold, can you hear?
I will fly with no hope, no fear
And the ground taunts my wings
as I sing, plummet as I sing
*how can we be so clueless
All we are is an isle of flightless birds
We find our worth in giving birth, and stuff
We're lining our homes against winding roads
And we think the going is tough
We pick songs to sing, remind us of things that nobody cares about
And honestly, we're probably more suicidal than ever now
*it's about the stuff we take advantage of the most
If you decide to live by what you think's wrong and what's right
Believe me, you'll begin to wish you were sleeping
*get away from this intoxicated reality
Your weeping will creep in your head and you'll cry
But if we wake up every morning and decide what we believe
We can take apart our very heart and the light will set us free
*we've become so used to the bad
*that we don't know how to process the good
I am cold, can you hear?
I will fly with no hope, no fear
And the ground taunts my wings
Plummet as I sing, plummet as I
*so excuse me while I sing to the sky
I am cold, can you hear?
I will fly with no hope, no fear
And the ground taunts my wings
Plummet as I sing, plummet as I
*get rid of what's tearing us down
How frustrating, and so degrading, His time, we're wasting
And time will fly by and the sky will cry as light is fading
*the world we continue escaping
And He is waiting, oh so patiently
While we repeat the same routine as we will please comfortability
*only God can part the seas
And please think about why you can't sleep in the evening
And please don't be afraid of what your soul is really thinking
*reality interrupts your dreaming
Your soul knows good and evil, your soul knows both sides
And it's time you pick your battles, and I promise you this is mine (I promise you)
*I'll be standing forever by your side
*We will stand and we will fight!
*Ain't nobody dying tonight
*if I were to die tomorrow, could anyone care, would anyone notice? Will darkness consume me forever, will I always be imprisoned in my minds fucked up and twisted world. I would personally not give a hell if I died tomorrow
*WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON IN HERE! ARE YOU GUYS DECIDING THE SYSTEM AGAIN
*No I wasn't, I was talking to Mr Misty Eye about me committing suicide
*Is that so, you still have court and if you lose you'll get the death sentence anyway so, yeah, go ahead with that brilliant plan of yours
*NICO STOP! Clancy doesn't need anymore of your shit
*okay Izzy, I'll see u in court honey
---24 hours later
*ORDER IN THE COURT, SILENCE!
*Is it true Nico that you tortured and mentally killed and murdered, Mr Clancy, Ms Izzy, and all the bishops that were assigned to you?
*Yes that is correct, but Izzy and Clancy were jacking up the system and they reset all the programs.
*Mr Nicholas, your not answering my question
*Yes I did, but both of them were hijacking all the system functions, Izzy trained Clancy to save the world but also taught him to act out, so I had to keep them secluded and sedated before anything else went wrong.
*Thank you sir, next witness please
*Ms Izzy, did you or did you not hijack the system?
*yes I did sir, but it was for a good reason, Nico was torturing all of Dema and all of Trench and brainwashed everyone to follow his orders and me and Clancy were on a secret mission to stop the possession and murdering of one's mind, Dema is the system of the mind, my mind and Trench is the kingdom of darkness, it used to not be that way but you can give all the credit to Nico over there for fucking everything up
*Thank u Izzy, next witness please
*Mr Clancy, did you or did you not, disobey the orders of your unit?
*well what happened was, I fell asleep and I was trying to escape reality and get detached from my mind, but I ended up prisoner and Izzy was the only one who stayed and helped me, Nico was being a copy and he only started malfunctioning when he loses his power, and he used his power for evil
*is it true that it was Izzy's idea to shut down Dema's headquarters?
*yes sir that is correct.
*thank u sir
*OBJECTION! Clancy had no fault in this, the demons belong to ME
*Izzy sit down!
*order in the court
*OH NICO I'M GOING TO BURN YOU AND YOUR CASTLE OF SHIT TO THE GROUND, WE'VE HAD ENOUGH, NICO MURDERED MY MIND AND CLANCY'S AS WELL, I WILL FUCK YOU UP SO BAD THAT YOU'LL BE DEAD BY THE TIME YOU WAKE UP FROM MY BLACKOUT, I WILL TORTURE YOU LIKE YOU TORTURED ALL OF US
*Izzy one more outburst and y'all be put in holding
*OH OK HAVE FUN WITH THAT JUDGE JUDY
*IZZY! DO NOT SPEAK UNLESS YOU'VE BEEN SPOKEN TOO
*LEAVE HER ALONE!
*Clancy, you need to stay in your lane, boy
*I'LL GO WHERE I WANT TO
*Order Order, EVERYBODY QUIET
* -whispers to Keons- I think Nico needs to stay in his lane, boy, haha
*WHAT?! ONE MORE SARCASTIC REMARK FROM EITHER ONE OF YOU
*look at Misty Eye with that judge accent, oh no, set me freeee
*Clancy and Izzy, I know you both can't wait to leave, but hold yourselves together
*Nicholas, is it true you stole Tyler's car radio
*Yes sir it is, but he was also hijacking the system
*members of the jury have you reached your verdict?
*yes we have your honor
*we find Nicholas Birbarki, guilty as charged and he will face a 20 year sentence in Maximum Security Prison in Unit D
*uh excuse me, you spelled his last name wrong
*SILENCE!
*we find Clancy, innocent and he will be released from DEMA. First thing in the morning
*we find Izzy, charged with the "System Malfunction" but is innocent on all other charges and will be released from Unit D first thing in the morning
*we find Keons innocent and will also be released from Dema first thing in the morning
*COURT IS ADJOURNED
*We Will Stay Alive! We Did It!!!
*okay so this is Izzy again, thank you for reading this story that I worked really hard on. Again I put the aspects of Trench into this cuz this album has a lot to do with Trench. Even tho Trench is many eras ahead of now. So I forgot lol. Sorry, these might not be all correct but I am doing all of them from my perspective, like the Kitchen Sink theory. Ya get me, so in Isle of Flightless Birds Tyler is referring to our body, our society, our world, and our reality not working unless we work together, like how the 6 senses wouldn't function without one another, in society people tearing eachother down and we need to work as one and build eachother up not tear eachother down. In our world one player can't function without the other and in our reality, parts of the mind not functioning and misperception of reality cuz we are covering it all up with false happiness and numbing our pain. So it took me awhile to complete this and j will be doing one for each twenty one pilots album. I will be doing Regional At Best next. It's almost 1 am and I need to take my medication soon. I'm Insane. No it's not a metaphor. Lol if u wanna read more about me than you can look on my wiki "Parts Of My Life Story -TRIGGER WARNING-" I really am obsessed with Clancy, Clifford, and Ned for some reason. Even tho -again- are in the Trench Era. I love doing stuff like this cuz it gives me a purpose in life. And I don't have a lot of them. Just remember that I am with you. Even tho I help to much, no matter what it takes I will be there. I know it's kinda corny to insert me in the story but fuck it I did it anyway. I can relate to a lot of there songs. And Josh is just as important as Tyler. Without one there is no other. So y'all have a blessed night my loves, y'all deserve the world, if any of you need me I am here. Feel free to message me. And I will help in be there in anyway I can. Stay Alive Frens💛💚____, and I'm not sure of Josh and Tyler will ever see this. But I want them to know that they are beautiful creatures inside and out.
I may not be correct in most of this buy I tried. Don't forget to Stay Alive ||=//
-Izzy Magdalinoz-Martinez🥀💛💚
About Self Titled:
Twenty One Pilots is the self-titled debut studio album by American band Twenty One Pilots, released independently on December 29, 2009. The album sold 115,000 copies[1]and peaked at number 139 on the U.S. Billboard 200.[2] It is the only album to feature bassist Nick Thomas and drummer Chris Salih before they both left the band in 2011.[3][4][5]
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💛💛🖤🖤🥀Hi I'm Izzy, Yes I AM A FEMALE THAT IS 10 MONTHS SOBER AND IS A BIROMANTIC ASEXUAL AND I DO NOT DATE UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES. Stay Alive. && Be You, Cuz Your A Somebody. x I'm Here To Change The World, The Universe, && I'm Here To Make A Difference, I wanna save, help, fix, care, be there, support everyone and everything. One Day At A Time, You Matter Your Important, You Have A Purpose, Your Enough, Your Worth It, Your Someone, Don't Let Anyone Dim Your Shine, Remember What Yo Fighting For, Thank You For Existing. I Know Rock Bottom, Hell & Back, Trauma, Pain && Darkness From Top To Bottom, Stay Alive. I Love Helping Others, I Don't Know Who The Hell I Am. But I Am Here. Spread Good Around, Not Evil. Take Care Of Yourselves.🥀🖤🖤💛💛
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System Malfunction; Errors: Brain Possession, Sanity Loss, Mind Damage, Overthinking, Too High Maintenance, Loss Of One's Mind, and Killing Of OnesSelf Slowly.
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WARNING:
A. My Channel Is A Huge Trigger Warning!!!
B. I help everyone and everything obsessively (I am there no matter what, I'm here to be there and help in any way, shape, or form possible. So if you need someone, you can contact me on my socials.)
C. I am head over heels OBSESSED with Tyler Joseph && Josh Dun (from the band "twenty one pilots") and they are one of the few reasons I am still alive. Thank You
And D. This is very personal content that I post, none of it is for pity, clout, attention, sympathy or clickbait. This is all real. I just wanna make others feel better there not alone.
My 1st Email: crowdgoeswild86@hotmail.com
My 2nd Email: daveycoverdale@gmail.com
🖤💛🥀Okay, let me tell y'all a lil bit about this channel, if you go to the home page of my channel. You see the featured video is 5 hours long (you DO NOT HAVE TO WATCH THE ENTIRE VIDEO) and it's 25% of my life story, it is a HUGE TRIGGER WARNING! if your sensitive to topics such as suicide, any form of abuse or torture, trauma, mental health, drug and alcohol addiction, rape, self harm, eating disorders, death etc etc.... or if you already have gone or are going thru these things yourself or someone else has I DO NOT suggest watching it..
🥀💙My Original Films; My Vlogs; And Other Random Stuff💙🥀
*Then We Have The Playlists
"Angelique x Izzy's World" Is Basically My Life Story Vlog: Followed By My Previous Placements, My Mental Breakdowns, && Other Shit
"ATEMYSANITY AKA I'm Fine, No Light, No Lie": My Original Film Series, VERY TRIGGERING, I Play All Of The Characters, Basically The Story Of A Troubled Women Named Shawna Vandiego, and Her Vlogging Her Shitty Life.
"Chandy Gone Crazy; 5 AM": An Original Film Series Of A Damaged & Traumatized Girl Named Chandlier Stan Madina or Chandy for short
"Insesting The Illusion": An Original Film Series About A Mentally Ill Girl Named Stevie Xencell
"In The Name Of Love" An Old Series I Made About Too Kids April and Tommy
"Death House": An Old Series I Made Before I Went Away To Treatment To A Level 14 Residential Treatment Center In Utah
"Hell Pitch": A Series Of Some Of My Own Poems & Stories
"Izzy Magdalinoz's Vlog:" Title Speaks For Itself
"Man At Work": An Old Series I Made Back In 2011/2012 About Divorce and Failed Relationships
"NewOrder1868 (My 2nd Youtube Channel)": Self Explanatory
"My Tyler Joseph Tributes": My Tributes for the lead singer of 21Pilots, Tyler Joseph. Videos Range from 30-40 Minutes to 1 to 2 hours.
"Izzy Magdalinoz, Random Stuff": Old Inappropriate Videos I Made Awhile Back
🖤🎶My Music🎶🖤
My Solo Musician Project; Br0k3n R0z3z;
I freestyle sing and freestyle rap, write, and make original songs, play a little piano and make beats
"Album #1: Trippz2iLL2Ace8ItOut": Focuses On My Traumatic Past && How I've Been Dealing With It
"Album #2: RedSunNumberNone": Overcoming My Demons
"Album #3: Hello Mr Sky, Do I Know You": Me Questioning My Life && My Reason In This Life
"Album #4: Breathe, Please": A Dark Album About My Mental Health && My Past
"Album #5: Tributes 4 My Broskiis": Songs Dedicated To My Loved Ones
"Album #6: Nowhere2BeSeen; Struggling Yet Surviving": My Recovery🥀💛🖤
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Sick Of Life, Bloodshot Skies
Don't Tell Me Good morning,
Don't Tell Me Good night"-Copyrighted By Me, I Own This Song. Just Get Some Sleep, Okay?
Angelique. Is. Not. My. Name
call me Izzy, that's what I go by.
Ps: Mental Illnesses Are Not A Trend; STOP MAKING THEM TRENDY PEOPLE. It's real fucking shit. Trust NoOne. Haha. I'm the weirdest girl y'all will ever meet.
Don't Judge Anyone/Anything Unless You Have Already Walked In There Shoes. You Know My Name, Not My Story.
I love my mom to death. She also keeps me alive. She's my world.
It's Midnight here. So just stay safe. Goodnight xx
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Hi idk what the fuck I'm doing? xx
Goodnight my amazing lovelies xx
Every Rose Has Its Thorn xx
You Grow Stronger Everyday xx
Izzy, shut the hell up, your being negative again xx
🖤🥀Fake Smiles All Around🥀🖤
🖤🥀It's A Very Very, Mad World🥀🖤
💛🥀Goodbye Reality, Welcome To Dreamland🥀💛
💛🥀Would Y'all Shut Up, Your Disrupting My Train Of Thought🥀💛
🦋🖤Go To Sleep Izzy, Try Again In The Morning🖤🦋
God Is Good, Amen!
Pray For Me, My Love
I Miss You Anthony, My AngelEyez
I Miss You Izzy, Your Not You Anymore
R.I.P xx _ xx Izzy Magdalinoz-Martinez xx_xx She's Not Dead Physically.
__Let's Have A Minute In Silence, For The Addict That's Still Suffering__
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🔌🔌🔌🔌💋💋🔥🌈🌹TRIGGER WARNING!! "It'sIzzyOnIt" This is my life story summed up, there's more but this is it for now. I help others cuz nobody helped me, I help till I know there ok. ((((Yo? It's me again, I'm a recovering drug addict and alcoholic , I use to self medicate, I've been to 4 rehabs, I'm 19 , my dad died in 2011, he abused and tortured me since I was 4, but I couldn't tell my mom cuz he would kill or sell me. I was homeless 9 times, out on the streets, getting arrested, I've almost been killed multiple times, I rose a 9 year old kid , Anthony, cuz his foster parents were abusive, me and Kimberly my motel roommate took him in, I tried to take care of him 24/7 but CPS took him away cuz i was on drugs and I was prostituting for money to take care of him, Kimberly tried to kill me after that, I woke up in an ER, she killed herself , I was raped by multiple guys , and my drug dealers , they drugged me up also. I was in foster care multiple times, one of my foster parents, Andrea and Jim abused and drugged me up, I've been in 202 mental hospitals, multiple lockdown and voluntary treatment and crisis centers, group homes, shelters, I've been arrested a lot . I have anger issues, been kicked out of schools and other places, I try to lol myself 50 times, self harmed to, I have Bipolar, PTSD, Depression, Anxiety, Insomnia, ADHD, Skitzo, OCD, Dissociative Indenity disorder, and Autism. I've been on every physiatric meds, I help the homeless and people in hospitals, I haven't had a stable living situation since 2011. Now I'm home! And I'm blessed!!! This is my story, everyone has one. What's yours ???))))))-IZZY X MAGDALINOZ 👾👾👾👾
12/26/2017. ITSZZZ IzzzzzzyyyyyyMmmmmaaaarrrttttiiinnneeeezzz WORLD , I DONT GIVE A FUCK IM GOIN INZANE FOO, WASSSSHHH OUTTTT FOOLIO, Izzy.s comin bakk 4 goooooddd Cx
Hi I'm Izzy lol as u know, I'm 19 years old currently in a treatment center, I don't need sympathy I need help and support... Right now it's 2:59 pm just got back from an outing it's 7/16/2017 I am in a bad state of mind so I'm gonna open up a lil bit....
The streets used to own me , I've been out there 7 times my dad died and he was abusive my mom is abusive my foster parents were abusive, all 3 of my drug dealers were rapeing me for drugs, I've almost been killed multiple times and I have really bad anger issues. Been all over Riverside and Orange County, cops know me, but I pretend it never happened, I'm blessed to be where I'm at right now, my brain is chemically embalanced , but I love helping others , in the ER and when I was homeless , I met a guy named Alex , he was around his 30s, he was getting jumped and he was Autistic, so I jumped in and beat the guys up, I wasn't stronger than them but I did damage, he said he couldn't find his parents, we searched all over and we found them after 6 hours I took him to my hotel , my roommate Kimberly was in there , we took care of them until his parents arrived, he said thank u, gave me a hug and walked out the door... 2 hours later I got raped , drugged and jumped, by Kim's ex, and I almost got killed , Kimberly was scared so she called 911, I started drinking heavily and I woke up the next day outside in the grass, tbh I don't care how I got there, Kimberly almost got killed , and I wasn't there.
I regret it but she got put in handcuffs on a 51/50 anyways I'm not revealing her real name for confidential reasons , I hope anyone who's reading this stays strong I love u all just remember it will get better, but u have to go thru shit before it starts getting better. My name is Izzy Martinez or call me Lupe Armendariz, and I will survive
Izzy tell me what's on your mind?
Nothing....
You've been acting strange
It's just, everything but I don't wanna burden u with my problems
It's ok just tell me.
*explains what can't be explained*
I'm here for u.
Thank u, I hope one day I can pay u back
For what?
Listening ...
"What if there was no tomorrow, no more sorrow? It's a mad mad world were all a part of it, if your not mad enough or sad enough it kills you takes you down, I sleepie don't feed me, what if we live our lives like there's no tomorrow?"-me
It's 11:51 pm on 7/16/2017 I'm feeling better, I feel faded
"If the stars don't shine tonight, If they dissapear tonight will there still be a heaven tomorrow , will my demons dissapear tomorrow? Off to wonderland, sometimes I wonder , am I even strong enough?"-me
I really don't give a fuck IMMA fight my demons , my past doesn't define me but it makes me who I am , I'll fuck up a bitch if they try and stop me, I'm a rebel but I'm learning to get my heart back , I mean I went from being caring to heartless and it goes back and forth , Izzy I no ur hurt, but u gotta love yourself and stop acting up, ok....
You have a reason I tell this to myself everyday, even if sometimes I don't believe it, you were meant to live to breathe, Cuz I've had near death experiences, I've had "fuck it" experiences, without you, life would change for everyone, I've wished I was dead I kinda still do, Cuz I feel like a waste , but I hope I can save people , help them take there pain away but I can't , when I was homeless I helped and hurt others and shit happened not even my closest people know about, today I almost left, cuz I broke down my mind crashed it burned, but I love u , if I can help let me know . . .
"As I say leave me alone, I don't believe in love, I don't believe in hate, maybe I'll be loved someday, as I black out into a different mind, trippin out and crossing these lines, fuck up shit all the way, I don't give a fuck I do as I please tired of living this way, I won't pay revenge on the devil no more, my demons inside me goin insane , I'm gonna get better someday , how can people care if I don't care about myself? Is this the life u wanna live? Maybe I'll find a home someday..." -me
"Sometimes you have to let go to start again, I fell for 2 different devils on 8 different levels, now I'm broke and broken, broken can't fix broken, dancing with your demons, where am I? Am I trapped in my mind ????" -me
I got 2 cans of Dr Pepper, lmao and 2 peanut butter crackers - at .
"Fear is destroying u, but u destroyed fear first, fear lied to u, but you let fear back in, don't be scared of fear, Cuz if u are it will break u trash u, destroy you. ..."-me
Goodnight facebook, hopefully I feel better tomorrow, stay strong cx
12/26/2017
#IzzyDoezIt #DaazWassup
#OutInCorona
Remember our song ❤
"I'd never fall in love with someone else again, if I could only taste ur lips and it's adrenaline, I'd never leave here I'd never ur bed"-Adrenaline by Matthew Nathanson
"Believe Me" by me Izzy Martinez Olivarez ❤
"Believe me your loved it's just a start of a journey, it tangles the inner mind, it's uncontrollable, it makes the andrenaline pump in your vains, believe me your not alone, my heart has been sown, I just got blown , believe me your loved believe me your not alone, the dark demons that lie beaneth you and curse you are being wiped away, by a disease , it's name is love, I used to not believe in love but now I know, God is blessing me, I'm in deep deep pain hurt broken damaged darkness but it's slowly fading, believe me your loved, can u see deep inside my eyes? Lemme tell u why, why your lost inside, but I can't my brain won't activate, I was a disfunctional animal now I'm inside a working body, believe me your not alone , your not alone, come on now, try and tear me down, I'll rise up above the ground, it feels so good being bad, but I gotta turn back, believe me you are loved, I think I'm flying in the air, to blown to function , open my eyes and kiss them, believe me your blessed, God gotchu it's time to rest babygirl, sweetie you've been thru to much, it feels so good it feels so good, release me let me be free, believe me you are not alone, now this is where you went all wrong.." by me Izzy Martinez Olivarez
Izzy's Lost Itz (4-21-2017 through 5-1-2017 at Arrowhead Mental Hospital. AND San Gorgonio Hospital .5-4-2017 through 5-17-2017 at Auoura Charter Oaks Hospital)
-•San Gorgonio , Banning.
I need no one, yeeeee <3
Name: Berger, Sara N "Izzy"
Adnum: 1704135
Date of Birth : 5-20-1998
Age: 18 . Sex: Female
Date of Admission: 5/05/2017
Doctor: Cruz, C
Unit: B Southwest Adult/#139A
"You need to go to group", "Izzy Didn't Know" "Hide The Marker", #Projekttt_Fix_The_Broken
"I'm the loudest bitch on this unit"
A story on how I lost it again, "are you guys ok, are you ok?" "I'm fine" my story of my 190th and 191st Mental Hospital . I'm down I'm down for everything. Izzyz Lost Itz. Shiittttt I talk out loud too, I don't know what I'm doing, go out there and be blue haha -.- idk what I'm saying
"I live nowhere, technically homeless, again..."
Izzy Magdalinoz aka Lupe Armendariz
•I have darkness I have pain, I have love still no gain, Lil' Angelx #SaveIzzy , battles don't fight themselves, #broken TooPhyscooo #Ms_SweetInsanityyx , bad past since I was 4, but fuckin it through, #StreetThuggiez•
-All-nighter/Izzy Don't Play #NoSleepStrike . Project No Sleep, 3 rules, no sleep, trazadone sleeping med at 9:30 pm every night , stay awake and do not lay down.
About #NoSleepProject
It's a project made up to see how bad no sleep is while you have a mental illness, and I like feeling unhealthy, I'm putting myself through that pain but I love mania and I hate sleep, weird huh? Ok Izzy, @Auoura Charter Oaks, The #No.More.Sleep.Project. Performed by me, all-nighter strike (4 Days)
3 RULEZ!!! One, NO laying down, cuz that's what makes you fall asleep, remain awake, and up as much as u can, thank you! (WARNING!!!! @OTHER Sign means I flipped out) Second, the most important rule is no sleeping, the first of all five days, you can only sleep up to 3 hours. And last but not least Izzy, Take Your trazadone @9:30 pm instead of 8 pm . It takes awhile to kick in so DO NOT GO TO YOUR ROOM!!!!! Until 10:00 pm, "lights out", try to stay up cuz your bodies used to the serotonin..... this project made up by me, Izzy, to test Izzy's mania and dopamine levels, I like to remain unhealthy (at least I'm being honest) , "insane in the membrane", anyways it's a 4 day project, not all in a row, spilt it up, my own side affects to my own sleep deprivation, and I'm trying to stay manic, (it's now 5/13/2017, @3:45 am wake ups at 5:30 am) then I have two more nights, not telling staff tho, it's to see how bad no sleep is and what it can do to you , also while I have a lot of mental illnesses. I'm putting myself through pain to feel good but I love mania, enough with my rant...
Day 1. "Izzy's Hyper Delusional Maniaz" (5-10-2017 thru 5-11-2017) 12:25 am (NOT available cuz I never went to sleep . Bed @8:30 pm, woke up 7 times, I felt manic, delusional, high and emotionless, and physcotic, eye redness, bags under eyes. Out of reality. , COMPLETED!!!! SUCCESS!!!, I just woke up at 12:25 am, and stayed awake the rest of the night, Eyes bloody baggy and black ,
I felt:... emotionless, manic, sleep deprived, hyper, delusional, high, drunk, out of reality, like I could do anything and nothing was wrong with it, physcotic, in a dream, body was weak, I was acting strange, laughing at myself, laughing non stop, felt a need to get out, free.
What I did. (Happenz): I was acting weird all day, people kept asking if I was ok, and told me to go to sleep.
TO BE CONTINUED!!!