**Dancing_Galaxies||Some More Of My Life Storyyx; 🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥Who am i? Thats a good question. Trauma that occurred 24/7 from 2001 to 2018. Even after that, the hell never ended Im here for all yall. To help support care and be there in anyway shape or form i possibly can I help everyone and everything obsessivly Im just. Fucked up. Im letting my past control me. Im okay, im fine, all lies Ur enough, im nothing Stay strong my warriors, yall are fucking amazing..🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤 🥀🦋🔥💚🖤A thing i made; written by me:Izzy Magdalinoz-Martinez🖤💚🔥🦋🥀 "A War Against My Head A Battle Against My Mind Im Doing Hard Time Its A Prison, Like Are U Falling Are U Calling Chasing My Shadow Im Never A Fool To Insanitys Rules Take Me Down Spin Me Around. I Live In A Dog House I Live Like A Mouse I Havnt Had A Stable Home From 2011 to 2018 Hold On, My Love The Party Aint Over Not Yet. Not Yet Put A Bottle On Your Mouth Dont Let The Dogs Out Do Whats Best For U Mental Health Aint A Joke People Love To Provoke I Feel Like Im Dying Physically and Mentally Your Not Ok Your Not Alright Aint Nobody Dyin Tonight I Help Obsessivly Till I Cant Nomore I Wanna Save The World I Wanna Fix All These Broken Souls I Breathe In The Chemicals Depression Wants U 2 Drown Anxiety Wants You To Break Bipolar Wants You To Switch Schizoaffective Wants You To Get Taken Over The Darkness Wants U To Stay Death Wants You To Chose Between Up Or Down Dont Talk To The Ceiling It Might Talk To Back I Lost My Memory I Lost All My Senses People Are So Judgemental This World Is So Cruel Put On That Mask Suicide And Homoscide Dont Trip, My Darling Dont Trip, My Love Who Am I? Where Am I? What Am I? Blacked Out On The Floor Theres Knocking At Your Door Close Your Body, Go Insane This Is A Sick N Twisted Game Who Is In My Body Who Have I Become Lost, Aren't We Child Broken, With That Backwards Smile Damaged And Broken Have I Awoken. Have I Misspoken Take My Life, You Twisted Soul I Feel So Old, I Feel So Cold Lose Our Minds, Lost It Suicidal, Killed It Insane, Im The Joker I Cant Explain Whats Going On Will They Ever Understand Ive Been Tortured And Abused Ive Been Raped And Misused Ive Been Homeless and Boneless Ive Been In Treatment and Completed Ive Been In Foster Care and Aware Ive Been On Drugs and Ive Had It Ive Been To 215 Mental Hospitals, and Lost It Ive Been Stolen and Ive Hit Rock Botttom I Know Darkness and Pain, and Still Not Sane I Know Rock Bottom and Back, Im Under Attack I Know Hell and Trauma. From Top To Bottom Is This A Fucking Joke, Homie Is This A Fucking Game, U Told Me Lost In My Mind Lost In Time Likewise, My Friend Hold On, Til The End Keep Fighting, Soldier Were Young, But Still Older My Name Is Izzy My Name Is Tyler And We Are Here. Together, Never Apart. Stay Strong Yall"-Written By Me, Izzy Magdalinoz-Martinez🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤 I got diagnosed; Bipolar Disorder Schizo-affective Disorder Anorexia PTSD OCD ODD Panic Disorder "Anxiety" Major Depressive Disorder "Depression" Insomnia ADHD Autism Borderline Personality Disorder Dissociative Identity Fued Multiple Personality Disorder "Critically/Clinically Insane" Derealization Paranioa Narcolepsy I am a recovering hard core drug addict and alcoholic. With 1 year clean. #OneDayAtATime. #KeepFighting 🌏🥀🦋🔥🖤🖤🖤🖤💚💚💚💚🖤🖤🖤🖤🔥🦋🥀🌏-Izzy Magdalinoz-Martinez 🥀🖤🦋🔥💚🦋🥀💚Be yourself, be the best you that u can be. U matter Ur important Yo have a purpose Yo are a someone Yo are worth it Yo are enough Keep going, im here for u all Your perfect just the way u are Sure u have flaws But accept us for who we are Dont give up ok Keep on fighting. U deserve to be at peace Follow ur dreams And keep going My soldiers. -Izzy Magdalinoz-Martinez🥀🦋🔥💚🥀🦋🦋 A lil thing, written by me, Izzy Magdalinoz-Martinez "What do u do When ur minds a deadly prison A poison full of toxins I lose my fucking mind My levels of sanity are dropping My insecuritys are taking control My demons are possessing me My mind is getting darker My life is getting worse I live with over 10 mental illnesses Ive had trauma occurring 24/7 From 2001 to 2018 My family doesnt want me Having 20 mental breakdowns Every fucking day I put on that fake smile Act like everything's ok My unbio son Anthony Got taken away from me I help everyone obsessivly I help everything obsessivly But im in constant pain I live in an alternate universe Everyday its the same game Lost a war to my head Now declare me insane My name is Izzy And im writing this Feeling so alone From 2011 to 2018 i had no home Im one year clean and sober I feel like my life is over I feel like im drowning But im here for everything and everyone Im alive yet so dead inside My mom is getting worse And shes all i have And she's my everything I just found out That my mom and brother The only family that i have Never wanted me home Im not proud of what ive done Im not processing what ive been thru Noone was there to tie my shoes Now ducktape me up Now lets get the party started Im not judgemental Im not disrespectful Im very loyal And extremely helpful Way to helpful I wanna save and fix the world And everything in it And everyone with it But im not ok Dont be like me Dont be afraid to be yourself Im here for all yall Im admitting im not ok Living in darkness Intoxicate me satan Were all mad here Im a respectful rebel Im the blacksheep Im the outcast Im the lost girl In a fucked up world Welcome to my life if not today theres always tomorrow Stay strong. My loves My warriors my soldiers Izzys not over" -written by me, Izzy Magdalinoz-Martinez "Love Is Dead To Me" -written by me, Izzy Magdalinoz-Martinez "Love, an addiction Your hearts being sentenced Fuck love, forever alone Kimberly, you turned my heart to Stone I never really had a stable home I miss u , my Lil Anthony I remember when the days were sunny Fuck my mentality Escaping reality Numbing all my pain I already went insane Lost and tossed my brain Suicidal all fucking day You are gonna fucking pay Kimberly, I know ur dead now Kimberly, he was never ur son He was mine and only mine I'm never dating again In my whole lifetime Single never ready to mingle I became friends with the darkness I became a sister to death A prisoner to pain So used to hell and trauma All I have is my mama We're all losing our minds Doing hard time Got the death sentence Leave me alone Let me go Leave again Fall again Izzy's not all the way there Love is a prison for the heart My mental health has been worse It's like I got the devils curse Repeat the first verse My name is Izzy Feeling a lil dizzy But I like it Yes I love it Hold me down and torture me Goodnight sweet firefly I am dead but I feel so alive Are u happy now? "-written by me, Izzy Magdalinoz-Martinez _________ 🌙🌙🔥🔥facebook, this is part of my life story, this is in the past. Im in no way a harm to myself and others. Thank u. PART FOUR!!!🌟🌟🥀🥀 *SatanslashGod; im gonna pray, i think God is calling me to fufill His duties. I was homeless for the 13th time. I walked the streets for days. I got possessed by God. And i acted out bizarrely insanely dangerously, abnormally, like an animal. I stayed up for 3 days straight. And taking extra of my medication. I had a full blown physcotic break. I didnt kniw my name. I was talking like a baby, waving my arms in the air. I lost all my senses. I forgot how to function. I got admitted to Loma Linda ER, and they took me in right away. I was like nonresponsive. I was an animal, a vegetable. I was dysfunctional. And then they transferred me to Loma Linda BMC. Mental hospital. While i was there i acted out. They put me on concervertaship, i had a hearing, and i saw the judge. It was my over 200th mental hospital. And the judge almost sent me to an institution but i lied, and i got off. Ive been concervered over 5 times. I gor diagnosed with ovee 10+ mental illnesses. Critically/Clinically Insane && The Most High Maitnence Case In The System. When i was 12 i sold my soul to the devil. And i became a bully. And multiple places and people told me that i had a serial killers personality, that she looked into my eyes and said "theres nothing in there" "your untreatable" "your too high maintenance for us to treat" my therapist Thea said ahe waz one step away from conserving me and taken to a state institution. And she said they probably couldn't treat me. Ive been to 215 mental hospitals. And ive been thru it all. I cant tell the difference between God and satan, when i get commands i cant tell the difference. *Richard Enxxellia/Puppoi/Three 7s/SeventyThree6's/UglyBitterSky; Richard gives me paranormal activities. Qualities, which he possesses me to act out dangerously. One example is when i get homoscidal. He decodes the devil into me. He moves certain objects and living things to make me use my 10 senses. As i dissociate to many alternate universes. The darkness takes over me. He decodes demons into me. Decoding me, i have codes, we all do. In NXSP. Rascal/Raskal is my therapy dog. Whos dying of cancer. I hallucinate him everywhere. But i see him as if he was real. And people tell me itz all in my head. Like i have a full blown convo or im playing with him. But my mom and bro tells me hes not in here. Three 7s is where my mania gets out of control. Like i feel like im famous, for the right or wrong reasons. Its all a delusional world. I go out of reality now 100% of the day. And thats not normal. *Bad Mommy-Good Mommy/Duplicates Of People/TwentyStepsForward; __::::TSF was a demon that Johnny hated, but somehow was connected too. So after Me/I, Izzy "Ace 8/Spizey/MsSweetInsanityyx" (Me/I/M3/iii) killed him. The reason why Lily "Dancing Fire" was so mad at Izzy was because TSF turned to ashes after Johnny died, (was killed by Izzy) and that made Lily wanna send Izzy to The Ends more, as she tried to follow thru with that plan, but failed. Ever since i killed Johnny, Dancing Fire has become a bigger and more dangerous demon in my head, becoming worse and telling Alvaro to possess me more. So Alvaro && Dancing Fire have gotten worse. After i killed Johnny. __::::Bad Mommy/Good Mommy take toll of my mind. When i was in my drug and alcohol addiction, Bad Mommy got worse, she wears a scar on her face. She abuses me, (in real life she did abuse me mentally and very rarely physically, but this was before i got back into my addiction) after i tried to come home after she kicked me out *again* (while i was homeless for the 13th time) i was on cocaine, meth. Acid, pills, heroin etc etc. I came home and she slammed me against a wall, and called me a whore. Then she "switched" and forgot about it later, it scared me, and she won my trust and forgiveness back by giving me brownies. This went on for awhile. In reality tho. She did call me really offensive names. But she didn't slam me against the wall. I was scared of her and on multiple occasions didn't wanna come home from school. Anyways i dont wanna elaborate on that. __::::Duplicates of people really fucked me up. This waz after me coming home in 2018. I saw duplicates of people i do and don't know. And it scares me. Now it only happens with my therapy dog, Rascal *Cones/Wesley "Presley" Garcia/Mr.OutOfDate; |__::::????::::__| XX_XX __::::????::::__ | | Cones;____Guide me in the right direction. Master Cone. Controlling your slaves and servants. Your fucking with my head, your make me follow your path, as u soar strangely thru the air. Trying to show me a new reality, the Cones are ahead of the other flying objects. Its like your all dancing around me and my reality of a dreamland, a dreamland like reality. You opened my eyes, but also made me more insane. Therez all sorts of shapes, dancing strangly. You made me dissociate more than usual. As i traveled all the universes and galaxies. You did both harm and good for me. Thank u, for opening up my eyes, as im developing my 11th sense, i already have 10 senses. You traumatized me and u saved me. Thank u. Cones and Objects. For becoming a part of me. Cones are non living transitioning to living. But only i can see them. I appreciate you all. All the different breeds and kinds of objects. Theres millions of them. And im glad we crossed paths. I love u my Cone Family🖤🥀🌙🔥